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6 days in hell from 20mg jump from methadone. Please help!

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PopEm25

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Hello everyone,

My first post on here and first want to thank you all for your stories and accomplishments. It?s for sure helped even if just a bit.

OK. I?m in the middle of day 6 from my 20mg jump from methadone. My moods and feelings have been all over the place. I had a good day yesterday, I got to be Dad to my 2 year old for a couple hours and I was feeling excited for this to be over and be the father my daughter deserves. But last night the symptoms from the first 3 days came rushing back. I’m sure you all know the usuals but the restless legs and stomach constantly squeezing the life out of me then giving me 2 seconds and go right back, this has happen every night since day 1. My question is relative but want to hear everyones opinion. This late into withdrawals should I reintroduce opiate and then taper down correctly and jump again? Or after almost a week should I stick it out and gut it out if you will. My med history was oxy from mom for a bad toothache and then evolved into 180 10mg norco a month plus booze to make it hit harder for 3+ years. I would always run out before refill. Sometimes I would do cwe but sure I didn’t do it correctly ever time. Hope no liver damage. Then got tired of the pills at the mill I went to got closed cause they were pushers not docs. So I went to get “better” with methadone. It worked and I wasn’t high. I was well and could function daily. And then after a year didn’t want to be on Mdone anymore either. So here I am. I appreciate any and all input. Thank you

Sick Dad
 
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Howdy! Welcome to bluelight.

Would you say that the withdrawal symptoms are decreasing or do you feel like they are getting stronger over time? You've dropped from 20mg to 0? That's a fair jump. It's likely you will continue to feel withdrawal for a week or so longer. Then PAWS but that is manageable through therapy and time.

I would see how you go. If you can handle the symptoms I wouldn't reinstate the opioid but methadone withdrawal csn take over a week to really get underway. There is a chance that you haven't quite entered full withdrawal so I would monitor your symptoms and if they become overwhelming, consider reinstating methadone at the lowest possible dose and see how you feel. Unfortunately, with drug withdrawal there is always trial and error and it requires patience. Something drug users often lack but benefit immensely from learning.

Anyway, all the best. I've been where you are and know how frustrating it is to have the life we want in our grasp but for that horrid opiate withdrawal cloud hanging over you. Its awesome that you wanna be a good dad and it sounds like you already are so keep it up <3
 
Thank you for the reply. I would stay it’s gotten better for the daytime but come night it never eases up. This morning was a little better than the last. So I’m thinking I will fight it. I don’t wanna see another methadone bottle again. Thank you for the kind words, they made me cry lol. That could be from the flood of emotions of had since jumping lol. But also prob cause you’re a good person. Thanks again

a little less sick dad
 
I'm glad you're feeling a bit better mate. <3

Bluelight is an awesome community, you should consider sticking around :)
 
Every day will get better and better and you have already seen the worst. One day soon you will be watching a video and it will make you so emo you will cry. Usually around this time your sex organs begin to function normally and music sounds ..so awesome...things taste different . ect ect it is so worth it to stay the course .

a hot bath is your best friend ..find some valerian root and saint johns wort...kratom is also a viable option. I want to say best of luck but there is no luck involved....back in my day it took 10-14 days to be 100% and I had great young metabolism....you so close!

" when the going get tough

the tough get going"
 
I am so glad to have found this thread! I am currently detoxing from MDone. I've went from 75mg a day to currently 20mg a day. I have wanted to just jump off and be done but I'm scared of the symptoms. I feel stuck to be honest. I've been on 20mg for 3 months now. Did you happen to go to ur regular Dr? I seen mine and ask for clonidine. He gave me a 10 day supply and script for Zoloft. I just haven't made the jump yet. Very fortunate to have found Bluelight! Very helpful. Xoxo
 
I’ve noticed the music sounding better for sure. While I’m squirming around in agony I’ll sometimes put on my ear buds and listen to some upbeat and inspirational music helps the mental part a bit. And the emo... I think I’ve cried more the past weak then I’ve cried my whole life lol. I think about all those I’ve hurt that mean the most and I think about telling all those people the reason I didn’t give a shit about what they had to say was because the only thing I cared about was chasing the dragon anywhere and everywhere. And the happy tears have been coming up recently too. Daydreaming about being a great dad and being a better human being in general.

I appreciate the encouragement. I’m not a benzo guy but I took 1mg xan so hopefully I’ll get a couple hours sleep. I think I’ve had total of 4 hours sleep in 7 days and nights

Another day without opiates is in the books. God bless
 
Hi there!

jumping from 20mg isn’t the route I would go if I had to do it all over again. No judgement but why haven’t you lowered the dose in 3 months? I haven’t seen my doctor, matter a fact I haven’t told anyone about my addiction or my jump. Right now it’s just daddy is sick and can’t play right now :(

it it tears me up to tell my daughter no to playing tea party and hide and seek. I just keep telling myself a couple weeks of not playing is fine if I can be fun dad for the rest of her life so here I am.

I will I’ll make amends one day once I mend myself a bit more. I wish you all the strength and willpower in the world when the time comes for you to make that jump. God bless and when you’re kicking feel free to message if you like and I would be happy to help anyway I can.
 
Id just suck it up. Been to the clinic several times myself and its 85% mental. Ive dt felt like i was dying going from 2mg to nothing and then straight dropped off of 40 mg with nothing but a bit of sweats in jail. Make up your mind and stick to it. Get some otc meds and you will be fine♥️
 
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