cyberius
Bluelight Crew
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- Mar 11, 2013
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So I made it five months sober from meth. I'm amazed I could do it. I had reached the point of recovery where I was just constantly depressed and unsatisfied with life and my complete brain chemistry. I just picked up again though, met some really nice tweaker guys and had a fucking blast the past four days.
Why TF would anybody ever want to quit? Meth makes you feel so alive and happy, life is so much more meaningful and real when you're using. I never want to quit again, I want to use every day and dive in. Why is this so wrong? Why is it we have to fight for our mild contentedness when junkies just blast off to Mars on the daily?
I just don't get it. Fucking social pressures by people I don't even honestly care about are the only reason for sobriety.
Why TF would anybody ever want to quit? Meth makes you feel so alive and happy, life is so much more meaningful and real when you're using. I never want to quit again, I want to use every day and dive in. Why is this so wrong? Why is it we have to fight for our mild contentedness when junkies just blast off to Mars on the daily?
I just don't get it. Fucking social pressures by people I don't even honestly care about are the only reason for sobriety.