5-MeO-DMT -- First Time -- Trapped Momentarily in a State of Weakness

[perpetualburn]

Ok, so i just did 5-meo-DMT, built a decent lightbulb vaporizer earlier, had my 10mg measured out. Finally, 10 minutes ago, i take my butane lighter, watch as the little white crystals liquify and quickly turn to vapor.. at this point my heart is pounding through my chest with anticipation.. suddenly, i can only remember how the drug induced terrible fear and the perception of an inevitable death.. i bring the vapor and hold in for 30 seconds roughly... i turn to my bed and decide to lay down knowing what lay ahead..

Now, i've read almost every trip report on this substance and researched it hours on end, and i was still taken back by what happened.. Immediately after inhaling the fumes my heart started to beat really fast, not dangerously fast but much faster than normal, my body kinda of went numb on the inside, well, not really dumb, but a feeling of total weakness and vulnurablity... reminds of a dream where i'm trying to fight someone and i'm totally larthegic, i just don't have the energy. but it wasn't a good kinda of weakness like being drunk and being all around numb.. like, right after i took it, i just wanted it to end, and i think that was my first mistake.

it tasted like i would thought a research chemical would taste like, somehow i thought it would taste like a plant or something, so initially, just the taste outlined the trip to come, some chemically induced panic. There was no transcendetal awakening, but conversely no sheer fear of death, it was like being trapped momentarily in a state of weakness, where i just wanted it to end, not like, i was afraid of dying i want it to end, but more of a disappointment of what i had just inhaled, i thought i was going to meet god and didn't, so i just wanted the trip to be over.

Physically, my heart feels a little weird right now, but i mean, it's 20min past or so and i feel alright. Nevertheless, it was the most intense drug i've taken, so much different than shrooms it's unbelievable.. Even though it was so much different than what i anticipated, i think i'm going to give it another shot in the near future, knowing what's to come..

I think i'm drawn to the Intensity of the drug, whether it's a negative or positive feeling..also, as far as visuals go, i only saw what i can describe as like, when you stare into a light to long and then you look away, and you see the little flashes or outlines in your vision, so maybe if i take more that surrounding white light will happen?

I measured the 10mg out on a tanita scale so i know it was pretty accurate, but i think next time i'll need to take more, my only fear is that i'll just bring that weakness wanting to stop feeling to an extreme, or maybe knowing what's to come i'll be able to let go and just let it happen.

Has anyone experienced a sort of negative first trip only to turn it around a second time? Sorry this is so far from articulate, i just wanted to get the trip out as soon as it happened, Thoughts?


[Added paragraphs -Splatt]

 

[Meo_dmster]

Glad to hear that one rough first experience hasn't turned you off of it forever. My first time with the substance was snorting 12mg, which I spent the next hour severly regretting. Since then is has become perhaps the most important chemical ally I have. Like you said, all the trip reports in the world can't prepare you for what happens after you exale that smoke. Don't be too eager to rush into the complete void experience, take time to work your way up to it. You'll probably find that as your smoking technique improves, 10mg will be more than enough for a completely emersive experience.

 

[VictorBorge]

Sounds a lot like my first 5-meo experience, which was not too long ago.

I think if you take enough to "break through" you'll find that feeling of weakness becomes more of a non-issue. You'll be thanking the lord and all that is holy that you're alive.

What is it about this drug that calls you back, even though it seems like it should be so unpleasant? I think it's just the raw intensity of it. It almost makes me understand why some people habitually cut themselves, just to feel the pain.

Sorry, god, that's really dark. 8)

 

[Anima Insania]

I think it was the ego feeling weak!

Get more 0into the pipe!

Enough to kill the ego!

Then you will discover whats beyond the ego...

But its very dangerous and realy not safe for anyone but the strongest of mind

 

[Jamshyd]

I hate 5-MeO-DMT.

Every time I smoke it it feels like I suddenly went to the bottom of the ocean - too much pressure, as if I am going to implode.

I kept increasing the dosage, with week intervals between trials to avoid tolerance. Last weekend I smoked 25 mg in 2 hits. The only thing that happens as the dose increases is an increase in comfort. Otherwise it is the same thing. I also noticed that my heart as well does not enjoy this drug.

Garbage.

I have 20 mg left and I will consider trying one day to snort it gradually so as to limit the burn and see what happens. Last time I snorted 5 mg there was something a bit more interesting than the smoked version.

 

[Anima Insania]

You might be smoking it in a wrong way and/or you may not hold the smoke long enough in you longs, try smoking some grass and vaporise the 5-MeO-DMT not get it in contact direct with the flame

You have to remember that DMT have a very low boiling point and you might destroy the structure by heating it too much, maybe that can cause damage to the molecules so there struture becomes modified and the effect gets changed to the worse

 

[Splatt]

Thanks very much for the report on this interesting substance.

5-MeO-DMT is one of those drugs you can research and research over and over again, and still not be "ready" for the ride.

Try with the same dosage again, try not holding it so close to the lightbulb? WHo knows.. Just try 10mg again before yuo up the dosage.. then up is slowly if you still want to attempt it.

 

[perpetualburn]

lol, too late...