Foxy- 5MEODIPT. Baby Steps Aren't Small Enough
Ive been reading about Foxy for at least four months now. Every possible trip report here and at Erowid. I found them fascinating. Though i had never tripped before, i decided this would be the one for me. It was something that i COULD trip on, but i could still be in control by measuring the dosage. This was a concern to me with acid...I didn't want to wind up freaking myself out like so many of the stories I've heard from friends and from people here.
so i placed my order for 250mg of Foxy. In a couple of weeks it arrived and i was phyched. I emailed one of the bluelighters here to ask about dosage and measurement methods..it was a little frightening to learn just how careful you need to be when measuring this substance.
i decided i would test it out on one of my days off during the week...this way if i dosed at 10:30 am, i should not look like a junkie by the time my wife arrives and i will be ok to play with my son.
10:35 Fasten Your Seatbelts
i decided my first dose would be modest..i measured 8 mgs and headed of to the shower to get myself cleaned up before the fireworks started.
10:50- hmm...whats that? im feeling little perks of something..don't know exactly what.
11:10--standing in the bathroom shaking...i feel warmth throughout my body...its a very cozy feeling....
11:24 breathing feels wonderful..slight, very slight, jaw clench.
11:30--feeling intense..like im coming up on a very hard roll...gotta lie down.
12:00--im no longer peaking....i feel a lot of physical eurphoria, but almost no mental stimulation... this dissapointed me because what i really wanted was to see visuals as i had read about..i wanted to trip but not to the point of helplessness.
in most of the reports that i read, i saw that many people usually boosted with even more foxy then they originally dosed with...while i was not that brave, i decided i'd take a little baby step...i dosed another 4mg at 12:05...
i sat and thought about it...how so many other people dosed boosters of 10-12 mg...
i said to myself..i dont want to mess up my chances here..i want to see what its like...so i dosed another booster of 4mg at 12:20 for a total of 16mg.
i expected i would be waiting until 1:00pm to feel the full effects of the first booster, but at 12:30 i had a mad rush of incredibly scary energy...i couldn't tell if it was my heart that was pounding of if it was me shaking...i felt almost like i had smoked WAY too much weed and i was out of control high...everything was going 500mph and i could not slow it down....i sat up and felt my pulse..it seemed just slightly above normal...i told myself..ok, you're fine..just relax..breath slow....
now i began to feel a bubble...just like a perfectly round balloon in my chest...i wanted to burp it out...i just couldn't...i said to myself--hmm, this must be what body load is.... i tried to ignore it.
i layed there and thought about the experience and i thought to myself..christ, what if this huge increase in high wasn't from the first 4mg boost...what if its part of the initial dose and it just took a long time to kick in... i started to feel panic...i knew no matter what, i was in for a fckng ride....even if the huge increase was from the first 4mg booster, i have another one coming.....ohhh mommy, what did i do?
i said, ok....you have got to get a hold of yourself...you need brightness...you need to relax..i walked into the bathroom and looked at my face...it looked rounder then normal...my eyes were changing shape..i had blue lines streaking down my cheeks...the room was breathing...ok, i said...get over in front of the sliding glass doors and just look outside and brace yourself...i considered dosing an e quickly to help me steer away from the panic...i decided just to tough it out and not take chances on making things worse.
i drew the curtins..it was about 12:50...oh shit, here it comes..hold on.....shit, i don't know whats going on...im high, it feels like im crazy high on phycho Sativa weed...i hate sativa weed....oh mommy, help me..
i focused outside and looked at the squirrels..they were ripping the bark off of the trees at lighting speed..they seemed to be looking at me through the sliding door..they knew i was tripping out of my mind...they were in a completing other world looking at my like i was in a pet store....i was scared shitless...what if this stuff kicks in even harder? i looked at the pictures on my refrigerator of my son...my wife and i was like...im such an idiot..what the hell am i doing...why did i do this? hang in there i said...you'll be ok..
i kept thinking to myself, what exactly is it that is scary you so much...i remembered reading many trip reports where people freaked...i thought, jeez--don't these guys have any self control..why can't they just calm themselves down..what could possibly be so scary... and here i was, lying on my dining room floor, feeling like i was in a cage and the squirrells were talking about what a loser i was. i couldn't shift my thoughts from paranoia to anything of a relaxed nature..i was on a ride and didn't have control...i felt very, very, alone.
1:40 rolls around...im coming back to...im starting to be able to think...im coming down..im going to be ok...2:00, i can stand up...im thankful as hell to be able to move and think...my body is still buzzing intensely, and there is still a strong lingering of the drug...it makes me feel ill if i focus on it...i decide im going to clean the hell out of my house...and this will keep my mind off things...this helped...i got the place perfectly neat by 4:00...
i was dissapointed that i was still heavily infulenced by this drug even after this time...it seemed to be riding me with no signs of dissapating as time went on throughout the afternoon...
5:00 came...my wife and son would be home in 15 minutes... i quickly showered again and decided it might be best to leave a note that i went for a walk.
it felt great to get outside...refeshing and clean...i looked around at the trees and breathed the air and was happy i was in control again...
i walked for an hour...and again couldn't understand why this wouldn't dissipate at the same rate as pot or alcohol...the foxy was still there...leaving me with a fogginess that i hated...
i returned home..my wife didn't notice i was under the effects of anything...i wanted to tell her...i wanted to sit down and talk about how freaked i was...but i knew it would bother her and she would just think i was wreckless...
finally, at about 11:30pm, i began to feel almost normal again. and i told her about the experiment.she was releaved i didn't enjoy myself..i can't say that i blame her.
the next day when i got up for work, i could still feel the chemical...i couldn't believe it...by about 1:00pm that day..i was back to myself.
my mistakes:
i should have followed my initial instinct to do the 4mg booster and wait.
i should not have assumed that other peoples level of tollerance on a trip would be similar to mine.
this probably should not have been my first drug to trip on.
i DID want to experiment on acid, but this left a sour taste in my mouth...if acid leaves you with a scary, lonely and out of control feeling....it aint fo-me.
i'll pop an E if ya throw one my way though
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additionally, i thought i would also add for those of you that are considering this chemical...250mg is an incredibly small amount of powder...at one point, when i was about to mix it with water one of my cats jumped up on the table was sniffing around...had i not put him down, he could have accidently insuffilated most of it up into his nose. it makes me sick to think about it. do this in a room away from everyone..mark it clearly as poison and keep it tucked safely away where it won't be found.
[This message has been edited by Sloth (edited 03 February 2001).]
Ive been reading about Foxy for at least four months now. Every possible trip report here and at Erowid. I found them fascinating. Though i had never tripped before, i decided this would be the one for me. It was something that i COULD trip on, but i could still be in control by measuring the dosage. This was a concern to me with acid...I didn't want to wind up freaking myself out like so many of the stories I've heard from friends and from people here.
so i placed my order for 250mg of Foxy. In a couple of weeks it arrived and i was phyched. I emailed one of the bluelighters here to ask about dosage and measurement methods..it was a little frightening to learn just how careful you need to be when measuring this substance.
i decided i would test it out on one of my days off during the week...this way if i dosed at 10:30 am, i should not look like a junkie by the time my wife arrives and i will be ok to play with my son.
10:35 Fasten Your Seatbelts
i decided my first dose would be modest..i measured 8 mgs and headed of to the shower to get myself cleaned up before the fireworks started.
10:50- hmm...whats that? im feeling little perks of something..don't know exactly what.
11:10--standing in the bathroom shaking...i feel warmth throughout my body...its a very cozy feeling....
11:24 breathing feels wonderful..slight, very slight, jaw clench.
11:30--feeling intense..like im coming up on a very hard roll...gotta lie down.
12:00--im no longer peaking....i feel a lot of physical eurphoria, but almost no mental stimulation... this dissapointed me because what i really wanted was to see visuals as i had read about..i wanted to trip but not to the point of helplessness.
in most of the reports that i read, i saw that many people usually boosted with even more foxy then they originally dosed with...while i was not that brave, i decided i'd take a little baby step...i dosed another 4mg at 12:05...
i sat and thought about it...how so many other people dosed boosters of 10-12 mg...
i said to myself..i dont want to mess up my chances here..i want to see what its like...so i dosed another booster of 4mg at 12:20 for a total of 16mg.
i expected i would be waiting until 1:00pm to feel the full effects of the first booster, but at 12:30 i had a mad rush of incredibly scary energy...i couldn't tell if it was my heart that was pounding of if it was me shaking...i felt almost like i had smoked WAY too much weed and i was out of control high...everything was going 500mph and i could not slow it down....i sat up and felt my pulse..it seemed just slightly above normal...i told myself..ok, you're fine..just relax..breath slow....
now i began to feel a bubble...just like a perfectly round balloon in my chest...i wanted to burp it out...i just couldn't...i said to myself--hmm, this must be what body load is.... i tried to ignore it.
i layed there and thought about the experience and i thought to myself..christ, what if this huge increase in high wasn't from the first 4mg boost...what if its part of the initial dose and it just took a long time to kick in... i started to feel panic...i knew no matter what, i was in for a fckng ride....even if the huge increase was from the first 4mg booster, i have another one coming.....ohhh mommy, what did i do?
i said, ok....you have got to get a hold of yourself...you need brightness...you need to relax..i walked into the bathroom and looked at my face...it looked rounder then normal...my eyes were changing shape..i had blue lines streaking down my cheeks...the room was breathing...ok, i said...get over in front of the sliding glass doors and just look outside and brace yourself...i considered dosing an e quickly to help me steer away from the panic...i decided just to tough it out and not take chances on making things worse.
i drew the curtins..it was about 12:50...oh shit, here it comes..hold on.....shit, i don't know whats going on...im high, it feels like im crazy high on phycho Sativa weed...i hate sativa weed....oh mommy, help me..
i focused outside and looked at the squirrels..they were ripping the bark off of the trees at lighting speed..they seemed to be looking at me through the sliding door..they knew i was tripping out of my mind...they were in a completing other world looking at my like i was in a pet store....i was scared shitless...what if this stuff kicks in even harder? i looked at the pictures on my refrigerator of my son...my wife and i was like...im such an idiot..what the hell am i doing...why did i do this? hang in there i said...you'll be ok..
i kept thinking to myself, what exactly is it that is scary you so much...i remembered reading many trip reports where people freaked...i thought, jeez--don't these guys have any self control..why can't they just calm themselves down..what could possibly be so scary... and here i was, lying on my dining room floor, feeling like i was in a cage and the squirrells were talking about what a loser i was. i couldn't shift my thoughts from paranoia to anything of a relaxed nature..i was on a ride and didn't have control...i felt very, very, alone.
1:40 rolls around...im coming back to...im starting to be able to think...im coming down..im going to be ok...2:00, i can stand up...im thankful as hell to be able to move and think...my body is still buzzing intensely, and there is still a strong lingering of the drug...it makes me feel ill if i focus on it...i decide im going to clean the hell out of my house...and this will keep my mind off things...this helped...i got the place perfectly neat by 4:00...
i was dissapointed that i was still heavily infulenced by this drug even after this time...it seemed to be riding me with no signs of dissapating as time went on throughout the afternoon...
5:00 came...my wife and son would be home in 15 minutes... i quickly showered again and decided it might be best to leave a note that i went for a walk.
it felt great to get outside...refeshing and clean...i looked around at the trees and breathed the air and was happy i was in control again...
i walked for an hour...and again couldn't understand why this wouldn't dissipate at the same rate as pot or alcohol...the foxy was still there...leaving me with a fogginess that i hated...
i returned home..my wife didn't notice i was under the effects of anything...i wanted to tell her...i wanted to sit down and talk about how freaked i was...but i knew it would bother her and she would just think i was wreckless...
finally, at about 11:30pm, i began to feel almost normal again. and i told her about the experiment.she was releaved i didn't enjoy myself..i can't say that i blame her.
the next day when i got up for work, i could still feel the chemical...i couldn't believe it...by about 1:00pm that day..i was back to myself.
my mistakes:
i should have followed my initial instinct to do the 4mg booster and wait.
i should not have assumed that other peoples level of tollerance on a trip would be similar to mine.
this probably should not have been my first drug to trip on.
i DID want to experiment on acid, but this left a sour taste in my mouth...if acid leaves you with a scary, lonely and out of control feeling....it aint fo-me.
i'll pop an E if ya throw one my way though
additionally, i thought i would also add for those of you that are considering this chemical...250mg is an incredibly small amount of powder...at one point, when i was about to mix it with water one of my cats jumped up on the table was sniffing around...had i not put him down, he could have accidently insuffilated most of it up into his nose. it makes me sick to think about it. do this in a room away from everyone..mark it clearly as poison and keep it tucked safely away where it won't be found.
[This message has been edited by Sloth (edited 03 February 2001).]
