Insatiable
Bluelighter
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50 mg foxy - To many associations to break down - Second time
It started of with my and my one friend taking 50 and 20 each at 6 pm. We waited around for an hour noticing a definite change. Colors were brighter, my skin was turning electric, and the sunset was the most beautiful I have ever seen. At 7 were were still both mentaly there and met up with 3 more prope, who each took 25 mg. We then went on a mission to get bud, which involved one of them driving my car (He had just taken it and was completely fine. I could drive, but I didnt want to)
t+ 1:15 We arrived at the apartment and procedded to but one 6 inch long 12 gram bud. When I was there, the foxy was becoming more and more aparent. I could not sit still and was constantly figiting, but here were no visuals yet, just some blurryness. We smoked several bongs of the bud there and after the second one I felt a what can only be described as a tidal wave of energy life me of the ground (Figuratively). It was then it started to get very trippy, as I noticed I was constantly scanning the surroundings, yet not registering anything. I get in to the car to leave and lay down in the back seat. Enter trip
t+130 Back in our town. I am now officialy mentaly fucked. Its dark now to and the visuals have gone from soft halos to all out warping and assorted crazyness. Somewhere in the car ride over some sort of mental reprograming was done to me to leave me completely retarted. Everything was connected to everything else, and It was my job now to figure out what associations could be kept and whihc ones had to be discarded. Think of it this way, when you see a phone, you know its a phone. When I looked at a phone my mind would go its not a dog, its not a window, its not a tree, and so on till it got to phone, and it only kept the phone association.
t+2 We arrive at my friend brians house (he was the one who took it with me) to attempt to chill, but the very fact that my body is vibrating as fast as my heart is beating is rather disconcerting. I could not sit down, i was just pacing and staring, breaking up more associations and vainly trying to understand the whole picture.
t+230 Brian just puked and has become somewhat unresponsive mentaly. He wants some chill time by himself so we four go for a walk outside. I take his 3d sunglasses and go outside. I dont want to say somethign like 'wow' or 'holy shit' but the combination of the foxy, the glasses, and the fact that it was dark made everything start getting very hallucinogenic. Visualy it was incredible, auraly is was just wierd. My hearing was super acute, I could hear everything in perfect surround sound and could pinpoint exactly where every sound was comming from. Mentaly I was not even close to being there. I could not hold onto the concept of where my body was. My mind would wander of and everyhitng would flash out, then I would come back and notice for about 1/10 of a second where I was, then I would loose it again.
t+3 I go to wawa because I said I would by the lighter we needed. As soon as I walk in its a big party in there. People are laughing, I can hear every word everyone in the building is saying, the lights are flasing an changing colors, and I can barely contain my laughter. I walk up to the counter, buy the lighter, notice the cashier smile and luahg under her breath at me (whether it was my beat red face, the fact that my hand was shaking very hard, or my pupils I do not know, but I have never felt such relief as then i grabbed my change and tore out of that place of normals.
t+315. Free water Ice! Its good to know people who work at ice cream places. I didnt remember what kind it was, but it tasted like pina colada. But the next day I was told it was vanilla. So there I am (Phisicaly) walking down the main street in town at full speed at about 930 at night with red sunglesses and a water ice. By this point the mental effects overtook the visual ones. Not that the visuals werent spectacular by now, but I was more engrossed in what was going on internaly than externaly. We also run into two girls that several people with us know. More normals. A conversation is attempted. My words: "Um..wait...ok...hold on...let me...ok" Her words:"Are you alright? What the fuck did you all take?" To much bother trying to talk to these normals, I return to my sunglasses world and continue walking, using my acute hearing to keep track of eveyone else.
t+345: Back with Brian. He chiiled out alot and let us back over. We all go up to his room to put on music. My body is literaly vibrating incessently and uncontrolably, nearing the point of uncomfortability. Everyone tries to get a seat on the bed. This bed becomes my focal point for the next hour. I would get up to pace or do something, forget it half way through, walk into a random room, turn off the lights and stare. I would come bvack to find my seat taken. It was now a life or death struggle for that seat. I would lie their in wait like a predator ready to pounce at the slightest movement. This pissed joe of since I would up jumping over him (literaly) to get the seat.
t+4: The body load is very uncomfortable now,a dn I decide to take my comedown softener now. I had planed to snort 60 mg of oxy, but I decided to err cautiosly and do 40 oral and 20 up the nose. Im not sure if this actualy worked, because I did not notice a change except I was warmer and slighlty tired. I was still shaking and my heart rate was stil way up. We were listening to pink floyd at this time, and were somewhat calm,, when someone has the bright idea to put system of a down on. Wresting matches soon broke out and we decided to leave on this newfound wave of energy. We walked through this park we have in the center of town. It was a clear night and you could see all the stars, which were now shooting stars leaving multicolored trails and spinning around in circles. My entire field of vision was covered by hallucinations at this point, major ones. Awe inspiring ones. However I was still mentaly to far away to fully apreciate them. I was also hearing things all over the place. Sirens, cars screaching, dogs barking, people yelling. It all was so common by now iI thought little of it. In fect, it didnt matter to me at all. I had my own world and no one could contact me in it. I would simply answer them with a blank stare or a nonsensical stream of words. I could hear talking in the distance, but It was realy from those who are with me, it grows louder untill it is all encompasing, it preses down on my head louder and louder, deeper and deeper, untill it is all I know. The audio aspects of this stuff are the best.
t+5: We meet up with more normals and smoke with them since they let us sit on their porch. We dont say much the whole time, we just observe them interacting and study how they use the powers of their mind to convey information. We are content to remain quiet though, except for scattered remarks such as 'heh' or 'i shake alot' They need other minds and other viewpoints to survive. We are content with our own. We have no need to communicate as we have no problems. The only reason the normals talk is because they have problems that need resolution. We have learned to conquer ours and therefore simply exist together in a plane where all ideas are conveyed through means other than talking.
t+6 Walking home by myself. I do not remember much of this walk except it was fast. As soon as I enter my house confusion sets in. I am hungry, or am i? I should go to the kitchen to get food right? Wait, the kitchen is downstarts, why am I going up the stairs? It literaly took my 10 minutes to actualy make it to the kitchen and put some microwavable ramen noodles in the microwave. I have to take a piss i think, or do I? I had to before and my body was lying, is it again? Do I waste time trying to fine out? If its that importiant I will know, I just will. And I do, and I piss, and its the longest piss I have ever taken. The sound resonates through the house. Everyhing I do is loud, much to loud. I turn on the computer to see if anyone I know is on. I dread talking to the normals. Why do I need to? All i need is in my head, other ideas would only conflict those in me now and cause unnessecary conflict. I turn of the computer in a fit of rage. I need nothing now.
t+ 7 I lie in my bed. I am comming down, but I was very far up to begin with. A bird perches outside my window (Mind you it is about 1 or so) and begins to chirp. But these are not the normal bird chirps you recognize. This bird is making up his own songs. They are loud and clear, and symmetrical. They repeat several times, then change.He leaves and I am bored. My mind needs stimulus but my body needs rest. I toss and turn trying to find sleep. I find it hard to close my eyes due to the nature of the CEVs, which are bright enough to prevent me from sleeping. Eventualy I feel the tidal waves of energy slow to small rolling waves and I sigh a sigh of relief. I pass out.
I wake up at 1130 the next morning and immediately set out of bed. Everything has that odd peacefull feeling. Things are slightly brighter than they should be, and my mind feels tired, but apart from that the hangover was negligible.
Was this fun? Yes. Was it also uncomfortable? Yes. Will I do it again at this level? Not for a while. Will I try taking a beta blocker so I dont have to worry about my hear the whole time? If I can find some. Was it enlightening? It was more than I had ever thought this capsule filled with what seemes to be a negligible amount of powder.
[ 05 May 2002: Message edited by: Insatiable ]
[ 05 May 2002: Message edited by: Insatiable ]
It started of with my and my one friend taking 50 and 20 each at 6 pm. We waited around for an hour noticing a definite change. Colors were brighter, my skin was turning electric, and the sunset was the most beautiful I have ever seen. At 7 were were still both mentaly there and met up with 3 more prope, who each took 25 mg. We then went on a mission to get bud, which involved one of them driving my car (He had just taken it and was completely fine. I could drive, but I didnt want to)
t+ 1:15 We arrived at the apartment and procedded to but one 6 inch long 12 gram bud. When I was there, the foxy was becoming more and more aparent. I could not sit still and was constantly figiting, but here were no visuals yet, just some blurryness. We smoked several bongs of the bud there and after the second one I felt a what can only be described as a tidal wave of energy life me of the ground (Figuratively). It was then it started to get very trippy, as I noticed I was constantly scanning the surroundings, yet not registering anything. I get in to the car to leave and lay down in the back seat. Enter trip
t+130 Back in our town. I am now officialy mentaly fucked. Its dark now to and the visuals have gone from soft halos to all out warping and assorted crazyness. Somewhere in the car ride over some sort of mental reprograming was done to me to leave me completely retarted. Everything was connected to everything else, and It was my job now to figure out what associations could be kept and whihc ones had to be discarded. Think of it this way, when you see a phone, you know its a phone. When I looked at a phone my mind would go its not a dog, its not a window, its not a tree, and so on till it got to phone, and it only kept the phone association.
t+2 We arrive at my friend brians house (he was the one who took it with me) to attempt to chill, but the very fact that my body is vibrating as fast as my heart is beating is rather disconcerting. I could not sit down, i was just pacing and staring, breaking up more associations and vainly trying to understand the whole picture.
t+230 Brian just puked and has become somewhat unresponsive mentaly. He wants some chill time by himself so we four go for a walk outside. I take his 3d sunglasses and go outside. I dont want to say somethign like 'wow' or 'holy shit' but the combination of the foxy, the glasses, and the fact that it was dark made everything start getting very hallucinogenic. Visualy it was incredible, auraly is was just wierd. My hearing was super acute, I could hear everything in perfect surround sound and could pinpoint exactly where every sound was comming from. Mentaly I was not even close to being there. I could not hold onto the concept of where my body was. My mind would wander of and everyhitng would flash out, then I would come back and notice for about 1/10 of a second where I was, then I would loose it again.
t+3 I go to wawa because I said I would by the lighter we needed. As soon as I walk in its a big party in there. People are laughing, I can hear every word everyone in the building is saying, the lights are flasing an changing colors, and I can barely contain my laughter. I walk up to the counter, buy the lighter, notice the cashier smile and luahg under her breath at me (whether it was my beat red face, the fact that my hand was shaking very hard, or my pupils I do not know, but I have never felt such relief as then i grabbed my change and tore out of that place of normals.
t+315. Free water Ice! Its good to know people who work at ice cream places. I didnt remember what kind it was, but it tasted like pina colada. But the next day I was told it was vanilla. So there I am (Phisicaly) walking down the main street in town at full speed at about 930 at night with red sunglesses and a water ice. By this point the mental effects overtook the visual ones. Not that the visuals werent spectacular by now, but I was more engrossed in what was going on internaly than externaly. We also run into two girls that several people with us know. More normals. A conversation is attempted. My words: "Um..wait...ok...hold on...let me...ok" Her words:"Are you alright? What the fuck did you all take?" To much bother trying to talk to these normals, I return to my sunglasses world and continue walking, using my acute hearing to keep track of eveyone else.
t+345: Back with Brian. He chiiled out alot and let us back over. We all go up to his room to put on music. My body is literaly vibrating incessently and uncontrolably, nearing the point of uncomfortability. Everyone tries to get a seat on the bed. This bed becomes my focal point for the next hour. I would get up to pace or do something, forget it half way through, walk into a random room, turn off the lights and stare. I would come bvack to find my seat taken. It was now a life or death struggle for that seat. I would lie their in wait like a predator ready to pounce at the slightest movement. This pissed joe of since I would up jumping over him (literaly) to get the seat.
t+4: The body load is very uncomfortable now,a dn I decide to take my comedown softener now. I had planed to snort 60 mg of oxy, but I decided to err cautiosly and do 40 oral and 20 up the nose. Im not sure if this actualy worked, because I did not notice a change except I was warmer and slighlty tired. I was still shaking and my heart rate was stil way up. We were listening to pink floyd at this time, and were somewhat calm,, when someone has the bright idea to put system of a down on. Wresting matches soon broke out and we decided to leave on this newfound wave of energy. We walked through this park we have in the center of town. It was a clear night and you could see all the stars, which were now shooting stars leaving multicolored trails and spinning around in circles. My entire field of vision was covered by hallucinations at this point, major ones. Awe inspiring ones. However I was still mentaly to far away to fully apreciate them. I was also hearing things all over the place. Sirens, cars screaching, dogs barking, people yelling. It all was so common by now iI thought little of it. In fect, it didnt matter to me at all. I had my own world and no one could contact me in it. I would simply answer them with a blank stare or a nonsensical stream of words. I could hear talking in the distance, but It was realy from those who are with me, it grows louder untill it is all encompasing, it preses down on my head louder and louder, deeper and deeper, untill it is all I know. The audio aspects of this stuff are the best.
t+5: We meet up with more normals and smoke with them since they let us sit on their porch. We dont say much the whole time, we just observe them interacting and study how they use the powers of their mind to convey information. We are content to remain quiet though, except for scattered remarks such as 'heh' or 'i shake alot' They need other minds and other viewpoints to survive. We are content with our own. We have no need to communicate as we have no problems. The only reason the normals talk is because they have problems that need resolution. We have learned to conquer ours and therefore simply exist together in a plane where all ideas are conveyed through means other than talking.
t+6 Walking home by myself. I do not remember much of this walk except it was fast. As soon as I enter my house confusion sets in. I am hungry, or am i? I should go to the kitchen to get food right? Wait, the kitchen is downstarts, why am I going up the stairs? It literaly took my 10 minutes to actualy make it to the kitchen and put some microwavable ramen noodles in the microwave. I have to take a piss i think, or do I? I had to before and my body was lying, is it again? Do I waste time trying to fine out? If its that importiant I will know, I just will. And I do, and I piss, and its the longest piss I have ever taken. The sound resonates through the house. Everyhing I do is loud, much to loud. I turn on the computer to see if anyone I know is on. I dread talking to the normals. Why do I need to? All i need is in my head, other ideas would only conflict those in me now and cause unnessecary conflict. I turn of the computer in a fit of rage. I need nothing now.
t+ 7 I lie in my bed. I am comming down, but I was very far up to begin with. A bird perches outside my window (Mind you it is about 1 or so) and begins to chirp. But these are not the normal bird chirps you recognize. This bird is making up his own songs. They are loud and clear, and symmetrical. They repeat several times, then change.He leaves and I am bored. My mind needs stimulus but my body needs rest. I toss and turn trying to find sleep. I find it hard to close my eyes due to the nature of the CEVs, which are bright enough to prevent me from sleeping. Eventualy I feel the tidal waves of energy slow to small rolling waves and I sigh a sigh of relief. I pass out.
I wake up at 1130 the next morning and immediately set out of bed. Everything has that odd peacefull feeling. Things are slightly brighter than they should be, and my mind feels tired, but apart from that the hangover was negligible.
Was this fun? Yes. Was it also uncomfortable? Yes. Will I do it again at this level? Not for a while. Will I try taking a beta blocker so I dont have to worry about my hear the whole time? If I can find some. Was it enlightening? It was more than I had ever thought this capsule filled with what seemes to be a negligible amount of powder.
[ 05 May 2002: Message edited by: Insatiable ]
[ 05 May 2002: Message edited by: Insatiable ]