crunchyplanets
Bluelighter
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- Nov 16, 2014
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Hello all! Dear ol' bluelight. .it has been a while!
Well, the past 3 years i have been addicted to pain pills. It started as a way to get past the mental abuse of my now exhusband. I left him last year. I have tried sobriety before. The longest it lasted was 10 months before i got a tooth pulled and got sucked back into addiction.
I started out taking maybe 4 7.5mgs a day of hydrocodone. And that was ok, for 2 years, with the 10 month break in between and whatnot. I got put on zoloft after i left my husband, and my dosage skyrocketed. I started taking 70-80 mgs a day of oxy or hydros.
I have let go of responsibilities, i have been nasty to family and friends, i have neglected my daughter, i have brought her with me to buy drugs (shes 4), i have become unmotivated in life....when i was taking them.
Now, im 5 days clean. All there is now are (tmi) the shits, some rls, and i was depressed but it seems to have diminished greatly.
Do you think i am over the hump? I slept about 4 hours last night, got up and showered and then slept another 3.
I do say that I feel better everyday, day 1 to 3 were pure hell to what i feel now. I even worked the first day, 9 and a half hours. Ive been off the last 3 days now. I do get bored here and there so i sit in a hot bath for 10 mins, watch tv, clean, have a cigarette, or take a drive and see some family. Ive apologized to everyone i have hurt. I came clean with my boyfriend now and he is nothing but supportive, holding me while i sobbed for 3 days straight.
Anyways, think im over the "hump"?
Well, the past 3 years i have been addicted to pain pills. It started as a way to get past the mental abuse of my now exhusband. I left him last year. I have tried sobriety before. The longest it lasted was 10 months before i got a tooth pulled and got sucked back into addiction.
I started out taking maybe 4 7.5mgs a day of hydrocodone. And that was ok, for 2 years, with the 10 month break in between and whatnot. I got put on zoloft after i left my husband, and my dosage skyrocketed. I started taking 70-80 mgs a day of oxy or hydros.
I have let go of responsibilities, i have been nasty to family and friends, i have neglected my daughter, i have brought her with me to buy drugs (shes 4), i have become unmotivated in life....when i was taking them.
Now, im 5 days clean. All there is now are (tmi) the shits, some rls, and i was depressed but it seems to have diminished greatly.
Do you think i am over the hump? I slept about 4 hours last night, got up and showered and then slept another 3.
I do say that I feel better everyday, day 1 to 3 were pure hell to what i feel now. I even worked the first day, 9 and a half hours. Ive been off the last 3 days now. I do get bored here and there so i sit in a hot bath for 10 mins, watch tv, clean, have a cigarette, or take a drive and see some family. Ive apologized to everyone i have hurt. I came clean with my boyfriend now and he is nothing but supportive, holding me while i sobbed for 3 days straight.
Anyways, think im over the "hump"?