5 days clean and made a mistake...

[Outsider31]

Hi guys,

I was previously on a 160mg per day of opana. I would take 4 40mgs per day. I was 5 days cold turkey with no opanas or anything (which was he'll as you all know). I only took some baclofen and gabapentin to help with withdrawal symptoms and to help me sleep.

Day 5 I was dumb and took 1 single 40mg opana. I woke up the next day feeling like crap because I caved and took 1 and had some anxiety again. I've since thrown every opana I had into the toilet and flushed them away. I have a wife and an 8 month old son and don't want to do this to them anymore. (Wife doesn't know about anything and just thinks I was sick, even though it's been a week and feel slightly better since day 1 but my legs still feel very heavy and I still have anxiety n no energy to do anything.

My question is....if after 5 days going cold turkey off opana, would the 1 I took set me far back or not so much? Yesterday I took nothing and this would've been my 7th day clean..... I'm never taking them again....any help or input is greatly appreciated!!

 

[Jabberwocky]

You'll be fine. Four steps forward and one step half a bit backs is at least three steps forward. In any case, no, it will not get any worse than you now feel. Just keep you head in the game. Take care of yourself so you can take care of your young one. Work as best you can as a team with your partner. This is all doable, and unless it feel otherwise, and you've from what I can tell you have a fan-fucking tactic head on your shoulders!

I'd totally mail you these old ass It's a Boy baby gift I bought off some random person once if that weren't crude and foolish. Drink plenty of water, eat, walk, sleep whenever you can. You'll be fine.

(opioid withdrawal is often all in the head)

What was your habit like before? That is how you can really tell what lays ahead. If you were doing well before, or better than before, when this little lapse happened and your flushed your pills, than that's a pretty good indicator. I just encourage you not to be too hard on yourself. I know you want to be the best father possible, and you will be, but only if you let yourself be and spend time whenever you can with the one(s) you love.

That's a pretty much save all statement there. Time w/ loved ones > opioids ANYDAY. Nothing beats the smell of the warm skin of the person you have come to love regardless of circumstances.

 

[Outsider31]

Toothpaste, thank you so much for the kind words, I sincerely appreciate it. I was previously taking 4 40mg opanas a day orally. Started with 1 40mg a day and worked my way up to 4 of them over the last 6 months...I probably took the opana for about a year now a half.

The anxiety is a bit better than the first few days, I was on the verge of having quite a few panic attacks each of those first few days (never had one before). Just wish my legs would stop hurting and feeling so heavy (I'm having a hard time finding the energy to do anything). Just hope these symptoms pass soon. Thanks again for the kind words toothpaste!!

 

[Jabberwocky]

Take a warm bath, hot shower, get some exercise by biking, running, walking, hiking, stretching - whatever feels good for you. No thanks necessary, though it is always appreciated

Diet and hydration are probably the most important. Watch the caffeine intake, changing it from what it was too much I mean or drinking too much too late in the day. You clearly have enough to deal with.

If it feels right, it probably is. Otherwise, well, you should ask someone. Given your use I think you know what to expect, and if this is your first go around get out while the getting is good. Otherwise the cycle will keep on keeping on.

Starting using at a later age with a more stable situation is always way easier than when you're young and have no sense of self in terms of making healthy choices.

And when it comes down to it, it's all about healthy choice, like the one's you're making, for yourself and those you care about, that are what really matter. You can always make more skillful decision, and it sounds like you've already made yourself.

For that I sincerely salute you!