2/4/2009
I had a hell of a time getting up. Again. I swear I don't know what's wrong with me. Is it perhaps that my body is saying "Homegirl either stay up nights or stay up days, but make up your damn mind!" Maybe that's my problem? I'm up nights Thurs - Mon, then Tues-Wed days and Thursdays both, although I get a shitload of sleep like 10+ everyday except Friday. I really can't afford it, but I said fuck it and made another appointment with the Reiki energy lady for tomorrow. I hope it helps...
Mom and I were gonna go to dinner then maybe to a movie, but the plans changed when her friend Maryanne invited us to dinner cause she's moving away this weekend. I agreed, but to tell the truth I hate going out on social occasions with large groups of people. You can't talk to a group so what ends up happening is that everyone has these mini conversations on the side and I find it irritating as fuck. Last time a group of us went out and I was sittin next to my friend Amy, but Jeff was bending her ear 90% of the time, so I hardly got a word in edgewise. It's not that I have anything against Jeff mind you, but that boy does talk.
Also, with so many people, if there are plans afterward, like going to a movie, it takes forever and a day what movie everyone finally agrees on and yeah I'm impatient that way. Make up your damn minds for fuxake! I went out to have a good time, not dick around deciding which restaurant or movie we're going to go to arrrrg! I guess that's why whenever I do go out, it's usually only with one or 2 others at a time. Anyway, that's it for now. Oh yeah, I emailed Rob from my old Crystal Meth Slammers group. Yahoo deleted both of them because of some whiner, which is a shame cause I had a lot of good stories and information on there. I miss getting loaded and going on line having these long ass philosophical conversations with my druggie friends. I always made them laugh because under the influence of meth I'm a silly clown, whereas sober I'm serious and quiet. There are things I miss about getting loaded. It made the computer and the internet seem magic and sober things just are. It's Rob's birthday today so I wished him a happy b day.
It's sad because he seems to be lonely, although I've mentioned NA to him, he won't go so I guess it's just him, his painkillers and his family. I read once in an astrology book that people born on the 4th or the 8th tend to attract others born on those same days or have 4s and 8s in their phone #'s and addresses. What's trippy is that in my case it's true.
I had a hell of a time getting up. Again. I swear I don't know what's wrong with me. Is it perhaps that my body is saying "Homegirl either stay up nights or stay up days, but make up your damn mind!" Maybe that's my problem? I'm up nights Thurs - Mon, then Tues-Wed days and Thursdays both, although I get a shitload of sleep like 10+ everyday except Friday. I really can't afford it, but I said fuck it and made another appointment with the Reiki energy lady for tomorrow. I hope it helps...
Mom and I were gonna go to dinner then maybe to a movie, but the plans changed when her friend Maryanne invited us to dinner cause she's moving away this weekend. I agreed, but to tell the truth I hate going out on social occasions with large groups of people. You can't talk to a group so what ends up happening is that everyone has these mini conversations on the side and I find it irritating as fuck. Last time a group of us went out and I was sittin next to my friend Amy, but Jeff was bending her ear 90% of the time, so I hardly got a word in edgewise. It's not that I have anything against Jeff mind you, but that boy does talk.
Also, with so many people, if there are plans afterward, like going to a movie, it takes forever and a day what movie everyone finally agrees on and yeah I'm impatient that way. Make up your damn minds for fuxake! I went out to have a good time, not dick around deciding which restaurant or movie we're going to go to arrrrg! I guess that's why whenever I do go out, it's usually only with one or 2 others at a time. Anyway, that's it for now. Oh yeah, I emailed Rob from my old Crystal Meth Slammers group. Yahoo deleted both of them because of some whiner, which is a shame cause I had a lot of good stories and information on there. I miss getting loaded and going on line having these long ass philosophical conversations with my druggie friends. I always made them laugh because under the influence of meth I'm a silly clown, whereas sober I'm serious and quiet. There are things I miss about getting loaded. It made the computer and the internet seem magic and sober things just are. It's Rob's birthday today so I wished him a happy b day.
It's sad because he seems to be lonely, although I've mentioned NA to him, he won't go so I guess it's just him, his painkillers and his family. I read once in an astrology book that people born on the 4th or the 8th tend to attract others born on those same days or have 4s and 8s in their phone #'s and addresses. What's trippy is that in my case it's true.