ScorpioPains
Greenlighter
Hi all, I've been a silent part of blue light for years and never made a post. I mainly used this forum for info on drugs, and ways to make my highs better and basically to fuel my addiction. I never thought I could use this forum for help until I did some searching around.
My drug of choice is basically any type of opioid from Oxy to Heroin and all the colors in between. Just recently I caught my first possession charge. I got caught with over a gram of heroin. Bonded out and a week later caught my 2nd possession charge and to top it off a paraphernalia and bail jumping charge.
So that's awesome right... I was locked up for 35 days. I really got lucky bc I was accepted into a drug court program and was the 4th member of this brand new program in our county. If I complete this program successfully Both my Felony Possession charges will be dropped. I am super stoked about this opportunity. I really want to get clean and make a life for myself. I've used for 15 straight years with maybe a year of sobriety in there.
I never realized that this site can also be a essential tool in getting clean and staying clean.
The first week out of jail sober was pretty easy, however this 2nd week I am really struggling. I am on the vivitrol shot so I know I can't use. Most the time I am happy and excited about this opportunity and the possibilities of my future.
Right now I am really struggling with trying to keep my emotions and feelings in check. My mind is really messing with me and I dont know what to do. Any advice and help would be wonderful. I know using all those years really fucked up my body and minds nature way of providimg us with dopamine, endorphins and there's 2 other ones can't think of. When will my body start providing me with these nathrall again? How can I keep my emotions in check. I'm all over the place and having panic attacks like crazy. Afraid of everything.
Help!
My drug of choice is basically any type of opioid from Oxy to Heroin and all the colors in between. Just recently I caught my first possession charge. I got caught with over a gram of heroin. Bonded out and a week later caught my 2nd possession charge and to top it off a paraphernalia and bail jumping charge.
So that's awesome right... I was locked up for 35 days. I really got lucky bc I was accepted into a drug court program and was the 4th member of this brand new program in our county. If I complete this program successfully Both my Felony Possession charges will be dropped. I am super stoked about this opportunity. I really want to get clean and make a life for myself. I've used for 15 straight years with maybe a year of sobriety in there.
I never realized that this site can also be a essential tool in getting clean and staying clean.
The first week out of jail sober was pretty easy, however this 2nd week I am really struggling. I am on the vivitrol shot so I know I can't use. Most the time I am happy and excited about this opportunity and the possibilities of my future.
Right now I am really struggling with trying to keep my emotions and feelings in check. My mind is really messing with me and I dont know what to do. Any advice and help would be wonderful. I know using all those years really fucked up my body and minds nature way of providimg us with dopamine, endorphins and there's 2 other ones can't think of. When will my body start providing me with these nathrall again? How can I keep my emotions in check. I'm all over the place and having panic attacks like crazy. Afraid of everything.
Help!
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