FollowingAdvixe
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Hi all, hope this is the right place to post this. About 4ish weeks ago I tried my first acid-like drug with some friends. We had 150ug of AL-LAD and tripped together. The other 2 people I was with said they tripped for about 6 hours and enjoyed it. The first few hours were incredible for me, but after about 3 hours I think I panicked or something and had a very bad trip where I was forced to think about a lot of psychological/philosophical things, such as whether or not other people are real and whether or not I am alone in the universe, what happens when I die etc, and I saw a lot of dark things in my mind, such as myself getting lost in the trip forever. After about 12 hours the feelings wore off, with the visuals having worn off for the most part significantly before that. The next day I woke up feeling pretty much normal, although a bit shaken, and resumed living life. I remained feeling completely normal for about 3 weeks until 8 days ago, when I had a sort of panic about what was real and what wasn't, over the course of the day of an exam (unfortunately the exam went pretty bad, as expected). Since then, the sensations haven't subsided and the same sort of surreal thoughts have been plaguing me and I have felt very anxious, very low and pretty disconnected, although I feel mostly lucid. I have tried to just stay with people I trust and endure the feelings. I have no history of mental illness, and I have talked to a couple of helplines and a doctor. They said that they hoped it would pass and there was no good medicating for it, which didn't surprise me and I'm wary of anti-psychotics anyway because I've heard about side-effects (although I'm sure there is a lot of misinformation out there), but sitting tight and waiting for it to pass is quite grim. It is a struggle to get through each day, although it has only been a week, and I feel pretty scared. Should I be as worried as I feel? Is there any advice to get me through the recovery (if I am recovering)? Should I be working on thought patterns or something similar to help? How long could I expect this to last? Thanks for reading