4 my friends

[.dR spgeddi]

is it empathy?
or is it that there's so many personalities living inside of me
that i understand you all
and i feel your pain when u fall
and that's not all....

yet sometimes

it's an empty me,
when you reach out for the support i give because you actually expect of me
that i understand you all
and i share the pain when you fall
still that's not all...

you think

you can count on me
to be there for you when you need a friend someone to listen implicitly
and understand you all
to absorb the pain when you fall
and of course... that's not all....

am i a bandaid
is it my mandate to be your first aid
and your coolaide on hot days when there's no shade
but its a problem i have made
by being there
when you need someone to confide in someone with whom you could share
someone to understand...
an i volunteered to be that man
and now i've bitten off more than i can chew
my service is in demand
i have but two hands....
and i wrap them around your chest and my hug says i understand...
i hope that's enough for you
coz todays its all i have
its tearing me apart inside that i cant give more love.

am i empty?
have i lost all that empathy
hopefully that's just temporary
well hopefully for you...
but who's there for me
when i needed a friend i looked around and of all of you i couldnt see
anyone who wasnt scared
when all i needed was someone there
its my turn....
my turn to share...
but did you care?

 

[Raz]

I really liked this piece....there are particular lines that come together really naturally...and it's hard sometimes to write about stuff like this without it sounding like you're just feeling sorry for yourself, but you've accomplished that.

Oh, and I so relate to what you're saying too...it's hard being the fun guy sometimes, or the one who's always there and supportive. I've generally found though that if that's part of who you are then you'll attract people who genuinely care for you and will be there for you. Sometimes the hard part is realising that they just don't *know* you need 'em, or else they'd be there in a flash....

Fuck, that was deep for 5.30am. Prolly could have just said "nice work champo".

 

[chrissy]

*endless hugs* i knew i liked u when i first saw ya

chrissy

 

[spgeddi]

wow,
glad that was saved here... or it was gone forever!

 

[colicolo]

that i understand you all
and i feel your pain when u fall

when all i needed was someone there
its my turn....
my turn to share...
but did you care?

great bump. i felt it all the way down my spine.