dankhead88
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As a former heroin and meth addict, I have experienced many ups and downs of drug use. I have heard stories of family members dying from OD and I have seen people go down hill at a rapid pace. As of lately, I have been dabbling with heroin and meth again, along with other drugs, such as cocaine/cocaine citrate(IV Crack), speedballs/methballs, poly drug cocktails with opiates and benzodiazepines. It's a very careless thing to do and I should proceed with caution before I end up in a coffin or a hospital.
Recently, I was able to get my hands on some 4 mg dilaudids and 2 mg klonopins. I feel that I always get carried away with payday as I tend to splurge when that money is in the possession of my hands. Even though I'm not physically addicted like I used to be, I have had psychological addictions and triggers for a very long time. I have a tendency to get frustrated and flustered when I cannot feed my triggers or acquire any drugs(Mainly methamphetamine or heroin). Anyways, that's my story, Onward to my experience.
I was dropping by a friend's house because I was in the mood to get my mental groove on. As I arrived, I was offered dilaudids and klonopins.
I get ready for action and pull out my kit, which carries all of my drug paraphernalia. I pop the klonopins proceed to crush the 4 mg dilaudid and mix it with 40 units of saline. I spike up my vein and proceed to push the plunger down. Just like an opiate. Feels orgasmic and warm, but feels somewhat different compared to heroin. I often found the rushes from hydromorphone IV different from a heroin rush. To me, a hydromorphone rush feels more electrifying, but in a good way, while a heroin rush feels more like being blasted with a warm shower jet, if you guys get my lingo.
I feel good for a while, and then the benzos kick in. I feel really good at that point. I was in dreamland, but I felt unsatisfied for some reason, so I proceed to IV another 2 mg of dilaudid. Small rush, feeling a little higher, until 5 minutes later, I start getting real cold. I start shaking violently and I cannot stop my teeth from chattering.
Great, another case of cotton fever. Why do I always get this shit?. My cottons can't be that dirty."
My friend decieds to see if 8mg of hydromorphone will help me feel better. Reluctant to take that 8 mg shot, because of my benzo intake, I say fuck it, and decide to go for it. My friend IVs 8mg in my arm and I start getting real sedated. I do not remember much other than being thrown in the cold shower with all my clothes on, only to be changed by my friend into different clothes. I do remember getting a cup of fruit punch from him and nodding off real hard. Apparently, I was running a fever of 105F and I was unresponsive.
I'm not sure what happened. Perhaps a blackout? I also tend to get very unlucky with cotton fever. I've had it 5 times, but none of my friends ever had it and they tend to IV in very unhygienic ways. Perhaps, I should stop reusing the same cotton at times. Regardless of cotton fever, I do not remember much from that experience. Wasn't even sure if it was a scary experience. I'm just glad to be alive. Maybe it's a lesson to take better care of myself.
Recently, I was able to get my hands on some 4 mg dilaudids and 2 mg klonopins. I feel that I always get carried away with payday as I tend to splurge when that money is in the possession of my hands. Even though I'm not physically addicted like I used to be, I have had psychological addictions and triggers for a very long time. I have a tendency to get frustrated and flustered when I cannot feed my triggers or acquire any drugs(Mainly methamphetamine or heroin). Anyways, that's my story, Onward to my experience.
I was dropping by a friend's house because I was in the mood to get my mental groove on. As I arrived, I was offered dilaudids and klonopins.
I get ready for action and pull out my kit, which carries all of my drug paraphernalia. I pop the klonopins proceed to crush the 4 mg dilaudid and mix it with 40 units of saline. I spike up my vein and proceed to push the plunger down. Just like an opiate. Feels orgasmic and warm, but feels somewhat different compared to heroin. I often found the rushes from hydromorphone IV different from a heroin rush. To me, a hydromorphone rush feels more electrifying, but in a good way, while a heroin rush feels more like being blasted with a warm shower jet, if you guys get my lingo.
I feel good for a while, and then the benzos kick in. I feel really good at that point. I was in dreamland, but I felt unsatisfied for some reason, so I proceed to IV another 2 mg of dilaudid. Small rush, feeling a little higher, until 5 minutes later, I start getting real cold. I start shaking violently and I cannot stop my teeth from chattering.
Great, another case of cotton fever. Why do I always get this shit?. My cottons can't be that dirty."
My friend decieds to see if 8mg of hydromorphone will help me feel better. Reluctant to take that 8 mg shot, because of my benzo intake, I say fuck it, and decide to go for it. My friend IVs 8mg in my arm and I start getting real sedated. I do not remember much other than being thrown in the cold shower with all my clothes on, only to be changed by my friend into different clothes. I do remember getting a cup of fruit punch from him and nodding off real hard. Apparently, I was running a fever of 105F and I was unresponsive.
I'm not sure what happened. Perhaps a blackout? I also tend to get very unlucky with cotton fever. I've had it 5 times, but none of my friends ever had it and they tend to IV in very unhygienic ways. Perhaps, I should stop reusing the same cotton at times. Regardless of cotton fever, I do not remember much from that experience. Wasn't even sure if it was a scary experience. I'm just glad to be alive. Maybe it's a lesson to take better care of myself.
