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4-HO-DMT/5-MeO-DMT - Experienced - Finalization, More Realizations, Then Rebirth

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4-HO-DMT/5-MeO-DMT - Experienced - More Realizations, Finalization, Then Rebirth

4/5/2013
0:00hr 10mg 4-HO-DMT fumarate (I.M. injection)
2:00hr 10mg 5-MeO-DMT freebase (smoked)

I read a lot of (western) ibogaine initiates find a dose of mushrooms a few days after flooding is very helpful/good. Four weeks have past for me and I know it is going to be good. I’ve never used psilocin from a lab before. Since I am not a fan of the wave-like action of mushrooms I am going to take this via a muscle shot. I am very curious if IMed psilocin will resemble the intra-muscular DMT excursions I am so fond of.

Cue up “Rushes” by The Fireman, light a candle, say a prayer, I decide to take 7mg for now and see how that hits. I take the shot and wait. About 5 minutes in, I felt a heavenly Godly type of trip setting in, similar to my DMT trips. I decide to take the extra 3mg and almost immediately I started peaking.

I notice right away that this is NOTHING like IMed 4-AcO-DMT…this is a very cold (but in a very good way), deep, VERY too-the-point spiritual experience….4-AcO-DMT is a warm, happy, gentle round about spiritual experience. I can’t say one is better than the other but on this occasion…psilocin seemed like something that God himself ordered up for this night.

The primary effects lasted about an hour and were dominated by the experience of revisiting my ibogaine experience, patching up loose ends, revisiting some parts, reliving other parts, and basically adding a fitting conclusion.

By the time the album was over I was in tears filled with the feelings of Grace and Knowledge…and joy for having my life back after 10 years of solid opiate addiction. I realize (again) how fucking lucky I am to made it out alive, and to have the family I do that supports me in my process back to the world of the living.

I thank the Universe for the psilocin I had in my safe and giving me the knowledge I need to make the most of my life from the point forward. But my night is not over.

I was given my life back on ibogaine, now this psilocin has finished patching up the loose ends. More work needs to be done; I measure out 10mg of 5-MeO-DMT because it is time to be reborn again.

I take a shower to wash away the old and cleanse myself before I take the sacrament. Back in my room, I put on “Today” by Jefferson Airplane (in a loop) and prepare a bowl of tobacco and 10mg 5-MeO-DMT…the tobacco to carry my prayers away for rebirth as the 5-MeO-DMT enters my system.
I take the hit and am propelled into the cosmic white void of total and complete love. The song is playing in a loop…

Today, I feel like pleasing you
More than before
Today, I know what I want to do
But I don't know what for
To be living for you
Is all I want to do
To be loving you
It'll all be there
When my dreams come true

Today, you'll make me say
That I somehow have changed
Today, you'll look into my eyes
I'm just not the same
To be any more than all I am
Would be a lie
I'm so full of love
I could burst apart
And start to cry
With you standing here
I could tell the world
What it means to love
To go on from here
I can't use words
They don't say enough

Ok. That was so moving I cried in a puddle of warmth and happiness. The joy and ecstasy I felt cannot possible be described. This was not just euphoria because I felt good and was tripping…I realized that today I was going to take some profound steps in my life to move forward. Friends and family who can open opportunities to me, who have been there waiting, and now today I am ready to call them. I realize I am reborn because I choose. I am starting new today, and I am going to begin work on my future. After a year of weaning off opiates, detoxifying, then almost two months of PAWS and hopelessness, iboga saved me. It gave me my life back last month. Now tonight after psilocin and 5-MeO-DMT I am reborn again and free tomorrow to begin making the connections I need to return to society as a productive, functional, and happy person.

As I came down from the 5-MeO-DMT and returned to my body, I was filled with more and more knowledge and realizations. I started to think about a family member of mine who has never tripped, but having seen the powerful transformation ibogaine rewired in me…they wish to become an iboga initiate. There was so much more is going on at the time, but it was on a very personal level and beyond the scope of this report.

Suffice to say, the overall experience was an astounding ++++. I am filled with a deep euphoria thismorning as I drink my coffee and type this. Life is amazing and it is only just beginning.

Final Notes:

I've never been a mushroom fan but 4-Ho-DMT as a pure compound (and IMed) was ASTOUNDING. Oh my goodness! It operated on a level that I've only achieved with ibogaine, 5-MeO-DMT, and DMT...a level of Godliness and Holiness and the fact that it did it's work while I sat there and just melted to the music, almost in tears at how beautiful it was to have my life back...and how beautiful I am going to make my life from this point on. Even the mushrooms I grew myself years back (and ate fresh) never gave me a trip like this. When psilocin is taken by IM, there is no wave like action...the trip just starts in 10 minutes time and there you are. Never a single moment of fear or doubt, I had full trust in this molecule as it showed me how much love there is for me in this universe, now that I have chosen life.

Thank you.
 
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Nice read !

"Today" was the song playing when I had my first ++++ (with mushrooms).
 
Wonderful.

<3

I am seriously considering taking synthetic 4-HO-DMT (no idea what state or salt) before I am starting on a prescription that will mean abstaining for a lot of things for a while (especially psychedelics). This type of transformation is very very long overdue. First I am going on retreat next weekend, I will probably take the psilocin the day I after I return from that.

Thanks, very inspiring, again.
 
What a great read, thanks for sharing, i am also thinking of using ibogaine to help me rid myself of the chains of opiate use, ive got my Heroin use more a less under control, but am on a methadone program, But i am also very experianced with various mushrooms and have had LSD 12 times ( When it was about in my area ) So after reading up on Ibogaine, as ive been doing for around a year, im putting some serious thought into doing that myself. I dont think ive read a bad thing about it, when used in moving on from opiates.

Anyway thanks again, that was a beutifull trip report ..
 
I made some of those calls. And some calls were made to me. A friend who cares is flying me out to CA next week and says there are some meetings being set up with people that I am to meet and even experiences I am to help foster (this is what she tells me).... that I cannot even believe yet....just wow.

I think I should be the boy for ibogaine on the commercials that says, "It really is as simple as taking a drug and deciding to change your life one day. With Ibogaine, now I can follow through."

Unrelated very old friend called me out of the blue for dinner and she also is going to watch my birds and gliders while I am away in CA...so I don't have to worry about my pets anymore...I love when there are choices and opportunities.
 
Any follow up?
What a great read, thanks for sharing, i am also thinking of using ibogaine to help me rid myself of the chains of opiate use, ive got my Heroin use more a less under control, but am on a methadone program, But i am also very experianced with various mushrooms and have had LSD 12 times ( When it was about in my area ) So after reading up on Ibogaine, as ive been doing for around a year, im putting some serious thought into doing that myself. I dont think ive read a bad thing about it, when used in moving on from opiates.

Anyway thanks again, that was a beutifull trip report ..
 
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