4 and a half months clean from heroin and feeling great

[e92]

i've been doing opiates on and off for the past 5 years almost. most of the time was off.

the beginning of the relapse started around the end of august - when i broke up with my girlfriend and was discharged from the army. i was depressed. then by september it was full on. this lasted until around december 16, 2015. i was sick of living that way and had to put an end to it.

so i stopped cold turkey, withdrawals were worse than ever before cause i was using so much heroin so often more than ever before, but loperamide saved me to an extent.

when the worst of the physical withdrawals were gone i flew home to visit my parents for 2 weeks. i needed to clean my mind a little bit

then i got back home, got my shit together, got a job, started working out again, and made an attempt to get back together with my girlfriend. we're back now and life is good.

it seems like no matter what drug i do, nothing has a hold on me like opiates do. i dont have major cravings, but i sometimes think hmm a bag would be nice right about now... but then i think ew thats gross.

every time i relapsed i was at rock bottom. i had no soul and no reason to live aside from the next hit, everything else is secondary.

 

[MrRoot]

Hello fellow ex soldier!

Nice to hear you have got your life back from the opiates. It seems to me that you have found reasons to stay sober which will help you staying clear.

I hope you will do well in future too.

 

[e92]

Hello fellow ex soldier!

Nice to hear you have got your life back from the opiates. It seems to me that you have found reasons to stay sober which will help you staying clear.

I hope you will do well in future too.

thank you! the first reason i stay sober is because i know i cannot control doing heroin just on the weekends. it takes over my life, it ruins relationships, makes me a bad person, got me fired from my job.. .the list goes on.

i hope you do well in future just as i know i will do well in the future.. good luck !

 

[MrRoot]

Thank you.

I am currently tapering out of oxycodone so I still got some steps to take but I am going to get totally clean as I have been there done that and now it is time to be sober for (hopefully) the rest of my life.

Btw. do you have BMW? Just wondering if your name comes from those e92 bmw models

 

[e92]

Thank you.

I am currently tapering out of oxycodone so I still got some steps to take but I am going to get totally clean as I have been there done that and now it is time to be sober for (hopefully) the rest of my life.

Btw. do you have BMW? Just wondering if your name comes from those e92 bmw models

hahah yes i had a bmw e92 335i years ago (when i made this username). but now i live in a city where i take trains and busses, and it makes no sense to have such a car. also, when i had that car i lived with my parents and now i dont, so sadly, i simply cannot afford it right now.

lol nope -C.H.

 

[MrRoot]

Too bad you couldn't afford that because it is a real nice vehicle that has some real spirit in it. After I discovered real american cars I have not been so fond of European ones except for some BMWs and Audis and that BMW is one of those models I truly like.

I currently live pretty much in middle of nowhere and nearest public transportation is a bus stop over three miles away from my place and there goes two buses a day so I have to have some kind of transportation of my own

As there is plenty of snow during winter I have an F-350 half cab which I use mostly only on winters, Chrysler Voyager from last millennium (Town & Country in the states) which I use when I have comfortably transport over four people and 300M (as well from last millennium) for speedy summer trips.

Looking forward to sell 300M and then buy a 300C Hemi. I have retired from military so I got time (and some money) to fix these oldish American cars. Well atleast people don't often believe that my 300M is more than ten years old as it somehow looks newer than it is

 

[e92]

Too bad you couldn't afford that because it is a real nice vehicle that has some real spirit in it. After I discovered real american cars I have not been so fond of European ones except for some BMWs and Audis and that BMW is one of those models I truly like.

I currently live pretty much in middle of nowhere and nearest public transportation is a bus stop over three miles away from my place and there goes two buses a day so I have to have some kind of transportation of my own

As there is plenty of snow during winter I have an F-350 half cab which I use mostly only on winters, Chrysler Voyager from last millennium (Town & Country in the states) which I use when I have comfortably transport over four people and 300M (as well from last millennium) for speedy summer trips.

Looking forward to sell 300M and then buy a 300C Hemi. I have retired from military so I got time (and some money) to fix these oldish American cars. Well atleast people don't often believe that my 300M is more than ten years old as it somehow looks newer than it is

yeah it is a real shame i couldn't keep it, i loved that car and it was my first car as well. my parents both have japanese cars, and i learned to drive in my drivers course with an american car and i'm not a fan of either. my friends back home had a lot of american pick-ups. and while hondas and acuras and infinitis are cool, you just simply cannot compare the driving feel of those to a german car. i will always drive german cars because to me they feel so solid and steady on the road.

i'm looking at the new BMW M4 and i'm completely in love with it. so hopefully in the next year or so i'll find me a job that pays enough so i can lease one, or finance a used M4.. or at least the 435i.

 

[MrRoot]

Heck my first car was an old Opel Vectra 2.0 Gti which cost few grands then and it took for many years for me to get anything better than that Well atleast it was somewhat sportier than grandma's shopping car and it was black. Still got plenty of girls to a back seat of that thing

When I was still on duty I had Audi A8 FSI Quattro for those wicked winter seasons but I had to give up for it because I had to wait many months for my veteran salary appliance and couldn't afford to pay those monthly payments. After that I got used to American car mentality as I don't have to be in a hurry anymore and prefer more to not feel the road on my broken back all the time.

BMW's Four series is a perfect one. When I was writing for another publisher I had a sponsorship for a BMW 435 Diesel for few months and it was awesome although it was a diesel version. If my old publisher would change their main editor I might still drive that car.

I got my licence for motorbikes last summer and got myself a british bike but due my back pain it hadn't got many miles and I am looking forward for this bike season. Driving that gets rid most of the drug cravings I have every now and then. It is a Norton Commando Cafe Racer model.