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3rd day of WD's

That just made me feel warm and helpful for once compared to these past 3 years. I was starting to get a little restless like just can't stay still and then I read that Bono. Thank you.

NA is where I heard that and I was like you, didn't care much then I guess.
 
Hi Roxy,

how do you feel today and thanks for your intereset.
This night was not so horrible - stayed only 10 hours awake and slept for 5 hours. Then phone call - argh. Talked for a few minutes. And stayed in bed for 3 hours longer and had a little sleep for 30 min again. Then had a little WD (sweaty hands, fear - but I managed it).

Did make some autogenic training and atm fine. What a ex user can tell as fine. Ha ha. Will take a year I think - than my brain repaired itself. Liver will be okay then, too.

And so long no body WD is nagging me - I don't give a fuck. And brain WD is just max. 15 min while your brain will find reasons to take something. But if that happens - immediately begin to do something. And if you doing something - do something another. Talk to someone. Or wash dishes.

What bugs me ATM is that I can not concentrate right. My brain works only with 40% - that is disturbing. But will go away hopefully fast. Taking Pregnenolone for faster recovery.


Greetings and a good day Roxy :)
 
@bono
I hate WD so much. That is another point why I will quit everything.
And smoking sometimes a good home grown from a good Gardner - may once in a month. Will not fall me back.

But I will do this only when I feel I am really over the top - really normal. And thanks of moving and living with my dad for a period is also good.

Because I like elder people and his friends. They have so much to tell. Plus no connections there. My father will monitor myself (he will never say that, but I know him :) ). So at the end everything will be good.

Greez
LifeIsStrange
 
Hate WdS too. I seriously am not sure if I have another one left in me Life and Roxy. Day #6 ;holy moly who would've thought. By reading and rereading this forum , I am staying clean. Very little sleep again, good to hear you are with family Life, I know what you mean about eldery. I have worked with them my whole life, my mom moved in with me 5 yearsago, recently had a stroke so our situation isn't real talkative but I am caring for her. Can't seem to get rid of caretaking but I think I have finally made decision to take care of myself. You are right, got to stay busy, occupied, my son works close so he stops in for lunch, which forces me to prepare food, I cook for mom everyday and my daughter is on strict bed rest she is 5 months expecting so I cook for her and her family then my son stops back after work take food to her, so I keep busy. Stay well all!
 
It sound like like Life and Bono we all kind of had the same sleepless night. I was really restless and anxious last night before bed. Tossed and turned and finally got a couple hours before waking up to go to work today.

How has today gone? It's hard to break that cycle of the alarm going off and reaching for that bottle. But I just got right up and went to the shower.

The drive was weird. Seemed like it took forever to get there. But I'm managing. I left all but $12 at home today, just in case. Because well, Today I work with a man who's a complete dick. And every time he comes at me I'd run to my office to pop a pill.

I just hope that fucker has a good day today so I can not feel overwhelmed.
 
Hang in there Roxy, you got this. I always let people make me feel like using. Everything I ever heard in the rooms back in the day is coming back, guess my brain is in state of repair?? I once was told that no one controls how you feel but you, I still try to decipher what that means, but I am trying to stay in control of my own actions. I hope your day goes okay, instead of popping pills over that mf, can you try tic tack or something, with me old behaviors die hard, I quit cigarettes last april, use electric, don't enjoy it as much but it is the habit of smoking but v aping has worked so far for 1 addiction
 
Since 50 minutes I am feeling really shitty. Total problems to make descions. Unconcentrated and 20 minutes before - a little panic attack. Fuck what is this? Trying MMS again.
Its hard I do not know ATM is this the diclazepam?
Our the noids or the alcohol?

Naff that's bugging me total. But I did not took the DPH - which I am proud of. Awake since 9 hours - but not very productive. Everything needs so much energy, nerves that I do not have ATM.

K, trying Chloride again which helps yesterday flawlessly...
 
I must say Chloride is working perfectly for me. Just took a few drops again. And it is just a water purifier 8o
It has to be investigate with other ppl. May be it is really the one that cures everything :D
 
You may be onto something Life. If it purifies water well our bodies are high percentage of water, maybe it detoxes wow! Keep feeling better
 
Work went smoothly! Thank goodness. Guess it helped that today was my birthday, so I was pretty focused on that today with all the well wishes on FB.

I haven't thought much about them since this morning.

Life how are you feeling now???
 
Awesome work RRTH!! Just read your thread today. Please keep posting. It's great encouragement to all of us working up to the point of where you're currently at. Happy Birthday BTW!! To be coming out of w/d's and celebrate your bday without being on the oxy-leash has to feel good. I'm hoping to be jumping off ~20-30mg oxy/day this Friday. Hoping nothing work related comes up to derail me or anything else for that matter.
 
Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes! Sorry I haven't posted much the last day or so, I've been so busy working and trying to keep my mind off things.

Happy to report I am still off Roxy Road!

It looks like everyone is doing well as well.
 
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