and im out. permanently. 12 pack, 4 bag shot. its over quietly. im done, fuk this world.
Is going back on your meds an option at all? I think it's important that you talk to your doctor about the way you've been feeling. It's not too late to get help. 
thank you spork. Not feeling as bad today, basically because of the drugs. Percs, valium, weed, and beers. Not in excess though. just enough. But otherwise, i feel shitty anyway. im tired of all this crap though. several rehabs, detoxes, AA, NA, God....nothing is helping or ever has..... /confused, sad, mad, lonely.
I've found that time and some patience can help quite a bit when I'm feeling like that. Writing can help me too by just expressing how I'm feeling and putting it into words. You can write here, PM me, hand write in a personal journal, in a word processor, whatever works for you but it does seem to help. Please try to hang on and try not to do anything permanent. There really is still hope.
well, I didnt do it. Just cant go that way. I'll let nature take its course. I havent really quit all my vices, but im not gonna attempt to go out that way. should it happen, well, it happens, eventually. Im down to booze and weed now. May be i'll get off of them, may be I wont. but im not gonna try and off myself. Thanks for your support.