I am 19 years old and this was my 4th time tripping on LSD and I finally had a "bad trip" which really want that bad, it was just scary this whole trip lasted about 10 - 11 hours, alright ao here is a little background about me, I am .. Well was a very insecure person before this experience I had bad social anxiety, adhd and depression. Im not gunna go intp detail of the whole trip it was just trip stuff I had taken 3 tabs. I got to about 6 hours in when I experienced ego Loss, at first it was like everything became more sharp to look at as if I were under clear water then my thoughts started to scramble and I started thinking alot until suddenly I asked "who am I" and I felt everything tense up and I could literally see this energy but only slightly as if it were coming from within me and then things, people, and everything around me started to look fractal very hard to explain and when I went to turn I could see, feel, hear, and taste the color blue and I felt my body implode into this energy and then my thoughts became very paranoid and filled with fear thats when my friend calmed me dowb and he just said "just enjoy it" I wanted to understand it, suddenly it dawned upon me that you cant try and figure out life it "just is" explaining the purpose is just insanity because as I tried to understand the more I felt I was loosing control of myself. Then I started questioning my personality and my insecurities then somehow I just realized you have to be open because everyone wants you to be open to feel conntected to eachother it seems my shyness lied deep within a fear of what people thought about me when I realized life just is I realized we all just are the way we are and theres nothing wr can do about it we must embrace and enjoy what wr have this had led me to stop smoking and doing drugs of any kind because I dont need to leave reality or try to understand it to be happy. Life just is and once you realize this you can be truly be happy. Since then I have been more open my impulses from my adhd have subsided I meditate now and I am just very at peace with what we have in this life.
Not being insecure = Openess = Happiness.
Peace.
Not being insecure = Openess = Happiness.
Peace.
its hars to describe what happened and a bit hard to remember it was amazing I couldnt stop smiling and I almost cried of happiness at the moment
