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Macenroe

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Hi All!

I write this message to share with you all how do I feel now after abusing mdma 3 months ago.


The symptoms that I feel right now:

Strong anxiety specially in the mornings.

Depersonalization and derealization.


My symptoms fluctuate a lot, usually I do feel better at the end of the day, night times feel good to me, almost back to myself.

I also have to say that in those 3 months, I had 3 days where out of nowhere suddenly I did felt good almost perfect so that means that if I have being able to feel good in 3 separate occasions then I might not be brain damaged and I am just going threw a generalised anxiety disorder that brings other symptoms like derealization.


What do you guys think about? If I have been able to feel 100% good in 3 different days then there is no way I am brain damage from the drugs and it has to be some kind of anxiety disorder isn't it?


Can any of you guys relate with any of this? And if yes, how long it took you to recover once you started experiencing with those good days feeling yourself again?


I also feel that when very anxious and depersonalized, taking one tablet of clonazepam brings me back to the reality for a full day so again if an antianxiety medecine brings me back to reality then it has to be just anxiety and not brain damage.


The probleme is that i am constantly relapsing, I fall sleep and then next morning i wake up living in the same hell again.

Please help.
 
I am in a similar place to you except I don't have the anxiety as am now permanantly on Clonazepam. Am just over 3 months as well. I however also have problems with my eyesight and feel as though I have lost my personality. Do you have these problems as well? I too generally feel better in the evening but definately not back to normal. I normally go for a run at about 5pm so put the 'normality' now to it being post excercise as well.
 
Hey Macenroe, honestly relax.

Getting worried is the first thing you shouldn't do. :)

In time your brain will mend itself in more ways than you can imagine, this I guarantee you.

Worrying about it just adds way more further stress, you should be looking at it this way: imagine how you felt three months ago... did you think you were ever going to get better? How you are feeling now, you must surely admit that because you've not touched MDMA since do you feel that you are getting better?

There are heaps of us here that have gone through the exact same situation of partied too hard and we too were worried we weren't going to get better.

Just gotta remember not to worry and just take each day at a time. Keep up with healthy exercise and a proper good diet. Try and keep away from the recreational drugs in the next 3 months because that will help your recovery heaps.
 
Try 2 years that wasn't fun. Don't worry It'll resolve with time. The longer and harder you abuse the longer the negative effects or post ecstacy blues linger. Note I still experience mild seizure type body spasms some 13 years later because I was a complete twat and abused the stuff hard for years. Do not do this! Mood and stuff will resolve, brain damage and seizure type side effects I still experience to this day. If you don't experience anything other than mood disturbance you will be fine, physical side effects like mine may indicate some degree of brain damage. Don't be an idiot like me respect the drugs and don't abuse them.
 
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My thread more specifically explains it,

but I'm experiencing the same. Post 1-month from 2 months of molly, LSD, and weed use is making me have major anxiety, flash backs, near panic attacks, extreme paranoia (looking at people around me and wondering if they're going to hurt me, being fearful of certain social situations or places), rapid thoughts, sensitive to certain sounds, distant and detached from the world as in being in a certain place and wondering if it's real or my imagination.

Though I had a couple of traumatic experiences throughout my drug use, and I'm assuming its related. We can get through this together<3 you're not alone.
 
Macenroe I can deffinitly relate to what your going through, it's good to hear you are getting better! Having a few up days and then a few down days is an improvement. What your describing is very common for post MDMA abuse and I myself and many others have gone through the same thing.

Time heals everything with MDMA abuse, keep doing what your doing :) My recovery itself at the 3 point mark was roughly the same where you are, I had my good days and my bad days and occasional anxiety, but 9 months later I am doing 110% perfect, better than ever and you can hope for the same too!

Try get into exercise/gym as a means of getting your mind off it, not only that but it will also help speed up your recovery :)
 
I'm A month in and my main thing now is warm head pressure which leads to me be anxious and worrying. It comes and goes. My mood for the day pretty much fluctuates. Days at work suck. My days off or when with fam I'm ok. Also feel like I tremble from time to time but it's not noticeable to anyone. I have improved this far but hope that I can completely get outta this. Haven't touch anything since. Only rolled 4 time. And this is off .2 of untested stuff. Stupid I know.
 
Badroll7, inbox replied.

Spending time with family or loved ones or friends always helps. The main thing is time - time heals all with MDMA induced damage., and you will get out of the funk it has put you in, just as I did and many, many others have :)

Always test your stuff before consuming.
 
Thank you brothers for your help, really appreciate.

Mr SpeedyG, my symptoms right now at the 3 months mark basically are anxiety in the mornings, and a feeling of being spaced out, kind of a derealization, detachement , disconnection from the outside world. I find difficulties concentrating.

I usually feel better in the evenings, almost back to normal and I also have some good days here and there where suddenly out of nowhere I feel back to my old self.

I want to believe that I manage to feel good just for a day then what I have is not brain damage but it has to be some kind of generalised anxiety disorder.


Can you please describe me with details how everything started for you? what were your symptoms, how was your process of recovery and how long it took you to recover? What were your last lingering symptoms?

Thank you Mr Speedy, I really appreciate.
 
lovepsychadelics said:
Try 2 years that wasn't fun. Don't worry It'll resolve with time. The longer and harder you abuse the longer the negative effects or post ecstacy blues linger. Note I still experience mild seizure type body spasms some 13 years later because I was a complete twat and abused the stuff hard for years. Do not do this! Mood and stuff will resolve, brain damage and seizure type side effects I still experience to this day. If you don't experience anything other than mood disturbance you will be fine, physical side effects like mine may indicate some degree of brain damage. Don't be an idiot like me respect the drugs and don't abuse"

Lovespsychadelics,

What are the physical side effects you speak of? Besides the seizures?
Did they come after one roll, in an acute incident, or just start showing up slowly?

Thank you in advance.
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Hi shishibeach.

Basically what I am experiencing now after 3 months are mood changes, anxiety and a feeling of being spaced out all day long, maybe mild derealization.

Have you also experienced mild derealization in the past?
 
I really can't say for certain. I might be there right now. It sounds like you have it better than I do.

I'd love to think I'm simply having a Dp/Dr reaction.

Insomnia? Check.
Catastrophizing? Check.
Anxiety all day long? Check.
Inability to focus on anything other than "brain damage"? Check.
Constant fog? Check.
The list goes on...

Sounds like you might be having one of those psychological responses.

No physical symptoms? Physiological?
How long after your last roll did you arrive at DP/DR?
 
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Did you ever abuse the drug macenroe? If not then you compare your symptoms longevity to this guys.
 
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