They say u cant run forever, and the shit hits the fan eventually. aint no way around it, over it, under it or behind it, it all ends the same way if you aint ready to stop it before it gets there. jails institutions and death sounds like exaggeration, like they forgot to tell about the one exception that is you in the theory there. but there aint no "jails institutions and death and doing good chipping and not gettin caught and not gettin addicted again" come on now be real. the last meeting i went to the topic i randomly pulled was Denial. I talked about my game, my big ol secret that nobody noticing, perfectly played but how i aint no dummy...i know its bound to stop sooner or later. you get chances and you fuck em up and eventually the chances stop comin and you staring down a long ass hallway with some metal gates clatterin shut behind you and a pair of green scrubs in a ball under your arm.
How I knew that i aint sure. how time always seems to place the signs right in front of me, talkin thru me, speakin the truth, the future from my own mind, sometimes you know more than you know.
and so i cant take the credit for havin a pure intention, but the results the same, diesel, Damn. I loved you. this is it , boo, but really this time, really, rain or shine. Aint even no choice, no chance. Its Done, completely, finished, over....I got VOP papers on file, ready to get released to the judge ready to send me to go be with my cousin in nj state prison for women if I dont do wat i need to get done now. and thats get clean for real this time. Shit coulda been different, I coulda did it better n smarter but you never know how blinded you are by your rationalized addiction til its too late.
thru all this time, everything changed , i stayed the same. that got to be different, i got to keep it movin. but stay here in my heart, theres always a part for you. I cant stay like this but ill never be far from you, all that i learned n the stripes that i earned with you...Ill never forget the times we spent how much it meant or how low I went....and i aint gonna forget all that i loved about you, but i got to be strong now without you.
How I knew that i aint sure. how time always seems to place the signs right in front of me, talkin thru me, speakin the truth, the future from my own mind, sometimes you know more than you know.
and so i cant take the credit for havin a pure intention, but the results the same, diesel, Damn. I loved you. this is it , boo, but really this time, really, rain or shine. Aint even no choice, no chance. Its Done, completely, finished, over....I got VOP papers on file, ready to get released to the judge ready to send me to go be with my cousin in nj state prison for women if I dont do wat i need to get done now. and thats get clean for real this time. Shit coulda been different, I coulda did it better n smarter but you never know how blinded you are by your rationalized addiction til its too late.
thru all this time, everything changed , i stayed the same. that got to be different, i got to keep it movin. but stay here in my heart, theres always a part for you. I cant stay like this but ill never be far from you, all that i learned n the stripes that i earned with you...Ill never forget the times we spent how much it meant or how low I went....and i aint gonna forget all that i loved about you, but i got to be strong now without you.
