CastorTroy
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 14, 2006
- Messages
- 138
Introduction
My only prior experience with psychedelic drugs was a year of frequent pot smoking and one 1.5 g dose of mushrooms.
The reason why I wanted to do psychedelics was to expand my consciousness, trying to see if there is some world out there that I can't perceive with my brain that has been programmed by billions of years of evolution. I think that maybe these drugs will show me what the universe is really like. However, going into this trip, I really just wanted to test the water and see exactly what its effects would be like. I didn’t expect to have a life-changing, merge with the cosmos type of trip (although I would like to in the future).
Preparation/Dosing
The scale sucked. I tried to put a card on it for a starting weight and then tare, but it would read 0 with a lot of the substance on it. I had to do use the card as a starting weight, remember its weight, and add the dose to that number. The measurements were really inconsistent and I must have weight it 30 times or so. I believe the dosage was somewhere between 6-11 mg (dissolved into water), most likely around 9. In the future, I will be mixing a large amount with everclear and using volumetric doses to be more accurate.
Set
I woke up at 830 and went to class from 10-12, then I went to the gym for a little over an hour, then went to work(research at school) for two hours. I came back from work (around 5pm) and almost immediately began to weigh it out, but by the time I had actually consumed the chemical I had been home for almost an hour (5:53pm). In hindsight, I don't think I was prepared for the trip. My head was still rushing around from the thoughts of ordinary life (school, work, etc.) I think I need to spend about a half hour to an hour or so just chilling out and meditating before I dose in the future.
Setting
I ate a sandwich and a glass of milk with the chemical, and still felt the onset begin somewhere around T+40 minutes.
4 of my roomates were home, and most of my trip was spent with at least 2 of them around(none were tripping, and I think only 2 of them knew I was). I was somewhat trying to hide the fact that I was tripping, and I believe this is part of what caused me to have unpleasant experiences at times.
The Trip
Let me just say that it is one thing to talk about doing these drugs, and a COMPLETELY different thing to actually do them. I have been browsing these forums for a couple of months now, and I can say that I didin't read a single trip report that could have indicated to me that this is what it would be like.
The only OEV that I got were seeing smoke-like strange shaped shadows in the corners of rooms and the occasional blur or warp type effect on certain parts of my field of vision. When I would close my eyes, it was incredibly bright, and it made me feel really good. (This was really cool)
Most of my trip was quite frightening. My mind was racing in an entirely alien way. Most of this was because I was unsure of the dose that I took. I began to somewhat freak out (freak out is a very loose term for what my mind was going through) thinking that maybe I took 20-40 mg. I had thoughts like “I'm going to wind up with Parkinsons'” etc. We were watching TV and a character passed out, and this made me fear that maybe the drug would make me pass out and maybe die.
Being with my sober roommates was not too pleasant, and I always felt like I just wanted to lie down. So, for about a half hour or so I went to my room, put on The Dark Side of the Moon and laid on my bed. This part of the trip was incredible! I felt really good and I finally understood exactly why so many drug-users listen to Pink Floyd (even though I have been smoking pot to them for about a year, this was what it is about). I can't explain it at all, and anyone reading this won't know exactly what that means unless they've done this drug, there's no two ways about it.
Anyway, I soon went back up to chill (watch some crappy movie) with my roommates. I kind of felt weird to just sit in my room by myself when all of my good friends were upstairs, even if being alone with good music made me feel 100x better. This was the downfall of my trip. However, it wasn't completely bad, there were good and bad feelings, and they seemed to come in waves. On the whole, I felt very paranoid and uncomfortable. I never got too uncomfortable though, as I'm pretty sure that two of my friends that I was sitting with and occasionally talking to didn't even know that I was tripping.
The mind-racing was done by the 4 hour mark, and only felt residual effects of the drug from there on out (upto 3 hours now, and I'm not 100% clear headed).
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Afterthoughts
I am glad that I did not take a larger dose. If my first experience had been any more intense, I'm not quite sure how bad I might have freaked out. While my trip was unpleasant overall, I’m quite sure it wasn’t a ‘bad’ trip.
I am now quite unsure of this drug. I'm not sure if I was just having a bad experience because everything that was happening was new and I didn't know what to expect. I am led to believe this is the case, because familiar things (Pink Floyd) would blast me into a euphoric state. I am not sure if I am able to get cool visuals from it, because I did take more than a threshold dose and I didn't get any type of neat OEVs.
I would like to be able to say that the experience has changed my outlook on life, but I don't think it has. I basically had a more mind-racing, intense, and unpleasant version of my low-dose encounter with the fungus. So, I had already gained all the insight there was to get from this type of experience.
Outreach
I would really like someone to respond to let me know if first experiences can be like this, and if they are do they usually get better as you are more familiar with it?Oh, and I also have the option of DOC, so should I try this a few more times at higher dosages before I go down that path?
My only prior experience with psychedelic drugs was a year of frequent pot smoking and one 1.5 g dose of mushrooms.
The reason why I wanted to do psychedelics was to expand my consciousness, trying to see if there is some world out there that I can't perceive with my brain that has been programmed by billions of years of evolution. I think that maybe these drugs will show me what the universe is really like. However, going into this trip, I really just wanted to test the water and see exactly what its effects would be like. I didn’t expect to have a life-changing, merge with the cosmos type of trip (although I would like to in the future).
Preparation/Dosing
The scale sucked. I tried to put a card on it for a starting weight and then tare, but it would read 0 with a lot of the substance on it. I had to do use the card as a starting weight, remember its weight, and add the dose to that number. The measurements were really inconsistent and I must have weight it 30 times or so. I believe the dosage was somewhere between 6-11 mg (dissolved into water), most likely around 9. In the future, I will be mixing a large amount with everclear and using volumetric doses to be more accurate.
Set
I woke up at 830 and went to class from 10-12, then I went to the gym for a little over an hour, then went to work(research at school) for two hours. I came back from work (around 5pm) and almost immediately began to weigh it out, but by the time I had actually consumed the chemical I had been home for almost an hour (5:53pm). In hindsight, I don't think I was prepared for the trip. My head was still rushing around from the thoughts of ordinary life (school, work, etc.) I think I need to spend about a half hour to an hour or so just chilling out and meditating before I dose in the future.
Setting
I ate a sandwich and a glass of milk with the chemical, and still felt the onset begin somewhere around T+40 minutes.
4 of my roomates were home, and most of my trip was spent with at least 2 of them around(none were tripping, and I think only 2 of them knew I was). I was somewhat trying to hide the fact that I was tripping, and I believe this is part of what caused me to have unpleasant experiences at times.
The Trip
Let me just say that it is one thing to talk about doing these drugs, and a COMPLETELY different thing to actually do them. I have been browsing these forums for a couple of months now, and I can say that I didin't read a single trip report that could have indicated to me that this is what it would be like.
The only OEV that I got were seeing smoke-like strange shaped shadows in the corners of rooms and the occasional blur or warp type effect on certain parts of my field of vision. When I would close my eyes, it was incredibly bright, and it made me feel really good. (This was really cool)
Most of my trip was quite frightening. My mind was racing in an entirely alien way. Most of this was because I was unsure of the dose that I took. I began to somewhat freak out (freak out is a very loose term for what my mind was going through) thinking that maybe I took 20-40 mg. I had thoughts like “I'm going to wind up with Parkinsons'” etc. We were watching TV and a character passed out, and this made me fear that maybe the drug would make me pass out and maybe die.
Being with my sober roommates was not too pleasant, and I always felt like I just wanted to lie down. So, for about a half hour or so I went to my room, put on The Dark Side of the Moon and laid on my bed. This part of the trip was incredible! I felt really good and I finally understood exactly why so many drug-users listen to Pink Floyd (even though I have been smoking pot to them for about a year, this was what it is about). I can't explain it at all, and anyone reading this won't know exactly what that means unless they've done this drug, there's no two ways about it.
Anyway, I soon went back up to chill (watch some crappy movie) with my roommates. I kind of felt weird to just sit in my room by myself when all of my good friends were upstairs, even if being alone with good music made me feel 100x better. This was the downfall of my trip. However, it wasn't completely bad, there were good and bad feelings, and they seemed to come in waves. On the whole, I felt very paranoid and uncomfortable. I never got too uncomfortable though, as I'm pretty sure that two of my friends that I was sitting with and occasionally talking to didn't even know that I was tripping.
The mind-racing was done by the 4 hour mark, and only felt residual effects of the drug from there on out (upto 3 hours now, and I'm not 100% clear headed).
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Afterthoughts
I am glad that I did not take a larger dose. If my first experience had been any more intense, I'm not quite sure how bad I might have freaked out. While my trip was unpleasant overall, I’m quite sure it wasn’t a ‘bad’ trip.
I am now quite unsure of this drug. I'm not sure if I was just having a bad experience because everything that was happening was new and I didn't know what to expect. I am led to believe this is the case, because familiar things (Pink Floyd) would blast me into a euphoric state. I am not sure if I am able to get cool visuals from it, because I did take more than a threshold dose and I didn't get any type of neat OEVs.
I would like to be able to say that the experience has changed my outlook on life, but I don't think it has. I basically had a more mind-racing, intense, and unpleasant version of my low-dose encounter with the fungus. So, I had already gained all the insight there was to get from this type of experience.
Outreach
I would really like someone to respond to let me know if first experiences can be like this, and if they are do they usually get better as you are more familiar with it?Oh, and I also have the option of DOC, so should I try this a few more times at higher dosages before I go down that path?
