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MXE TR #2
Dosage:
23mg sublingual
23mg sublingual 1 hour later
55mg sublingual 1 hour later
Gender: Male
Weight: 83 kg
Height: 178 cm
Age: 26
Previous experience:
* Weed (many times)
* Shrooms (x3)
* Kratom (x3)
* 4-ho-met (x2)
* Methylone (2x)
* 4-aco-dmt (x1)
* 2C-C (x1)
* 2C-D (x1)
* DOI (x1)
* MXE (x1)
* Amphetamine (x1)
* Salvia (x1)
* Etizolam (x2)
* Alprazolam (x4)
* Modafinil (1 week)
Substance appearance: tan powder
Physical condition: exercise daily, otherwise average, recovering from neuritis
Medications and addictions:
Stopped taking subscription Acetylcholinesterase inhibitor day before (it enhances other neurotransmitters' work, like serotonin and dopamine) and peripheral vasodilator.
T +00:00
I will refer to Methoxetamine as MXE below. Note, this MXE was MS-tested by my friend and confirmed for what it is, here is scan of analysis:
http://i.imgur.com/4Rh9o.png
I took 23 mg sublingual at 14.20. Previous time (month ago) I took 13 mg and felt pretty joyful state after hour or so: warm opiate? (never tried pure opiates and never intend to) feeling, talking and esp. listening to people was nice.
This time, I expected for for dissociative results, but haven't got much. I also felt slight opiate warmth, but because I was alone, it was not that fun. Music sounded a little better, but I like to analyze details of complex electronics a lot, and I was totally not able to do it, like I'm able under weed.
T +00:50
I took another 23 mg of MXE sublingually. This was planned from beggining, if results of previous dose will not be enough for me.
I started to feel more dissociation, as I imagine it, and more of sedated/ alcohol-intoxicated like feeling. It was not very jouyful, because it seems I like mind-enhancing substances like trypts/phens best of all, and I very dislike depressants like alchohol, and slightly dislike stims.
Also, I expected (maybe foolishly) some more apparent results. So, i waited for some time, doing nothing, listening to music. I noticed I experience great confusion and even nausea sitting using PC, especially reading. That may be due to my very bad eyesight and strong glass lenses.
I started to rewatch movie Tron (new one), that is tradition for me to do under mind-altering substances, esp. on comedown. Movie was not exciting, like it looks under phens/stims, instead everything appeared slow and blurry, I was not able to concentrate/enjoy it.
Also, during this time, I, for some reason, started the washing machine. Note, that by mistake I put white and dark clothing, synthetic and cotton clothing together, which is wrong and I never made this mistake before. I found it only in the evening. This was first sign if my mind being not able to take proper decisions.
T +04:21
Now, after some hours, something interesting happened. Please note, that I'm pretty responsible person in doing drugs, and before this moment, I ALWAYS took proper decisions under ANY drug and NEVER binged or even took more if this was not planned beforehand, I even take drugs ONLY on weekends.
And with MXE, I did exactly that, BINGED. I felt no urge to take more, and I was able to act very cold-headed, to think over how much I need to take, because I wanted to experience something deeper, like M-HOLE. It looked rational, and it did occur to me, that I'm doing something wrong, but I felt no emotions at all, I was like a machine. Maybe this was dissociation, I don't know, but I did not like it very much, that fact, that I'm able to broke my own promises not even feeling a glimpse of guilt. My reasoning for taking more was not because it felt good, but because I did not understand effects and wanted to, but this does not make my actions more justified.
So, I weighted out 55 mg out of the right baggie (great luck, because the baggie was on the top, and I checked label only once, never thinking I could overdose on some fearful substance like 2c-e) and took it sublingually.
Taste caused some bad feelings and nausea, but it they disappeared after hour or so. Instead, I was submerged into average feeling of dissociation, as I image it. I started to speak to myself, and words made sense, but they felt very disconnected and it was no use to think about them/what caused them. During this time, I felt some anxiety, because I started to suspect that previous use of MXE lead me to Neuritis (which is almost certainly is not true).
Also, I started to feel some more anxiety and thoughts about my drug use. I wondered, why I take all these substances, what is the point of that, and remembered how nice I feel when I do sports, hang with friends, eat or have sex. Maybe I should not take anything and just enjoy my life?
Note, that I have these kind of thoughts every trip I have, regardless of substance, but after the trip finishes, and few days pass, I usually think it was worthwhile, and do not feel regret. The thing is, if my weekend/vacations were not full of events, I feel I live my life to no purpose, and work week seems very dull and pointless. Drugs once/twice a month seem to introduce something to think about and make me more socially open/tough/experienced.
So, back to trip. I did not have CEVs. I tried to watch Tron again, but to no avail. Sometime during this, I closed my eyes with palms, and seen something like CEVs, but very mild. It looked like I'm floating backwards above sea of rectangular boxes, that form sort of a pyramid. I floated from bottom to top, but this never ended. I thought to myself that I cannot lift my hands off my eyes, and maybe I should, but felt to urge to do this, so I floated a bit more. After that I finally opened eyes, but no fun was outside, so I paused movie, and closed them again.
I don't know, if I experienced M-HOLE, or it was not it. I doubt it was, or maybe very slight. I also tried to think about important things, like relationship with my GF, but couldn't.
T +06:30
I ate two bananas. I felt no appetite, but wanted to try, how food would taste. It felt not very tasty, but I felt sweetness.
During all of my trip I was not able to determine, if I drink enough or too much. I always try to hydrate much during trips, but this time I felt a lot of numbness in my face and all my body, my penis and testicles shrank to tiny size. This reminded me very much of how I felt during surgery with epidural analgesia, so I freaked a little, and stopped drinking much, because I thought I may not be able to piss. This was probably wrong, because I felt cold during all trip, and turned heater to maximum, obviously sweating much. Also, note that I was totally not able to tell cold from hot, so I measured body temperature and it was 37 C.
Eating bananas was probably wrong, I felt very much nausea and just lied in bed, turning off all lights and music, because they made it much worse. Also, standing/sitting made it worse too, so I waited in bed for a few hours. I felt also very dizzly, wobbly and intoxicated, this was totally not cool.
T +07:30
I still not feeling well, but was able to call my parents and GF, assured everything is fine.
T +08:30
I was able to start BBC documentary "History of science", part 5 "Who are we?". This made me feel a lot better, because I could concentrate on something interesting and not think anxious thoughts. I recommend this series somewhat, they are too simplistic sometimes, but this part was great, because it is about consciousness, mind, neurons and behaviorism.
T +10:00
I finally become able to sit in front of PC, reading forums and doing some stuff. Slight nausea sometimes, but nothing much. I started to feel warm pretty afterglow I read about in other TRs.
T +11:30
Went to sleep, slept well.
Summary
This was not very fun experience and more then half of the time I felt anxious/had nausea. Although it was useful in a sense I understand I could binge and loose self-control in doing drugs. To all people reading this: remember, MXE could be not nice, and MXE could make you loose control. I suggest always start and maybe even stick to low doses (10-20mg). If I ever would do MXE again, it will be low-dosage. And maybe I will try one 60-70 mg once to experience M-HOLE, but not any time soon.
Tagged by bindingaffinity
substancecode_mxe
substancecode_achs
substancecode_dissociatives
explevel_secondtime
exptype_negative
exptype_bodyload
roacode_sublingual
Dosage:
23mg sublingual
23mg sublingual 1 hour later
55mg sublingual 1 hour later
Gender: Male
Weight: 83 kg
Height: 178 cm
Age: 26
Previous experience:
* Weed (many times)
* Shrooms (x3)
* Kratom (x3)
* 4-ho-met (x2)
* Methylone (2x)
* 4-aco-dmt (x1)
* 2C-C (x1)
* 2C-D (x1)
* DOI (x1)
* MXE (x1)
* Amphetamine (x1)
* Salvia (x1)
* Etizolam (x2)
* Alprazolam (x4)
* Modafinil (1 week)
Substance appearance: tan powder
Physical condition: exercise daily, otherwise average, recovering from neuritis
Medications and addictions:
Stopped taking subscription Acetylcholinesterase inhibitor day before (it enhances other neurotransmitters' work, like serotonin and dopamine) and peripheral vasodilator.
T +00:00
I will refer to Methoxetamine as MXE below. Note, this MXE was MS-tested by my friend and confirmed for what it is, here is scan of analysis:
http://i.imgur.com/4Rh9o.png
I took 23 mg sublingual at 14.20. Previous time (month ago) I took 13 mg and felt pretty joyful state after hour or so: warm opiate? (never tried pure opiates and never intend to) feeling, talking and esp. listening to people was nice.
This time, I expected for for dissociative results, but haven't got much. I also felt slight opiate warmth, but because I was alone, it was not that fun. Music sounded a little better, but I like to analyze details of complex electronics a lot, and I was totally not able to do it, like I'm able under weed.
T +00:50
I took another 23 mg of MXE sublingually. This was planned from beggining, if results of previous dose will not be enough for me.
I started to feel more dissociation, as I imagine it, and more of sedated/ alcohol-intoxicated like feeling. It was not very jouyful, because it seems I like mind-enhancing substances like trypts/phens best of all, and I very dislike depressants like alchohol, and slightly dislike stims.
Also, I expected (maybe foolishly) some more apparent results. So, i waited for some time, doing nothing, listening to music. I noticed I experience great confusion and even nausea sitting using PC, especially reading. That may be due to my very bad eyesight and strong glass lenses.
I started to rewatch movie Tron (new one), that is tradition for me to do under mind-altering substances, esp. on comedown. Movie was not exciting, like it looks under phens/stims, instead everything appeared slow and blurry, I was not able to concentrate/enjoy it.
Also, during this time, I, for some reason, started the washing machine. Note, that by mistake I put white and dark clothing, synthetic and cotton clothing together, which is wrong and I never made this mistake before. I found it only in the evening. This was first sign if my mind being not able to take proper decisions.
T +04:21
Now, after some hours, something interesting happened. Please note, that I'm pretty responsible person in doing drugs, and before this moment, I ALWAYS took proper decisions under ANY drug and NEVER binged or even took more if this was not planned beforehand, I even take drugs ONLY on weekends.
And with MXE, I did exactly that, BINGED. I felt no urge to take more, and I was able to act very cold-headed, to think over how much I need to take, because I wanted to experience something deeper, like M-HOLE. It looked rational, and it did occur to me, that I'm doing something wrong, but I felt no emotions at all, I was like a machine. Maybe this was dissociation, I don't know, but I did not like it very much, that fact, that I'm able to broke my own promises not even feeling a glimpse of guilt. My reasoning for taking more was not because it felt good, but because I did not understand effects and wanted to, but this does not make my actions more justified.
So, I weighted out 55 mg out of the right baggie (great luck, because the baggie was on the top, and I checked label only once, never thinking I could overdose on some fearful substance like 2c-e) and took it sublingually.
Taste caused some bad feelings and nausea, but it they disappeared after hour or so. Instead, I was submerged into average feeling of dissociation, as I image it. I started to speak to myself, and words made sense, but they felt very disconnected and it was no use to think about them/what caused them. During this time, I felt some anxiety, because I started to suspect that previous use of MXE lead me to Neuritis (which is almost certainly is not true).
Also, I started to feel some more anxiety and thoughts about my drug use. I wondered, why I take all these substances, what is the point of that, and remembered how nice I feel when I do sports, hang with friends, eat or have sex. Maybe I should not take anything and just enjoy my life?
Note, that I have these kind of thoughts every trip I have, regardless of substance, but after the trip finishes, and few days pass, I usually think it was worthwhile, and do not feel regret. The thing is, if my weekend/vacations were not full of events, I feel I live my life to no purpose, and work week seems very dull and pointless. Drugs once/twice a month seem to introduce something to think about and make me more socially open/tough/experienced.
So, back to trip. I did not have CEVs. I tried to watch Tron again, but to no avail. Sometime during this, I closed my eyes with palms, and seen something like CEVs, but very mild. It looked like I'm floating backwards above sea of rectangular boxes, that form sort of a pyramid. I floated from bottom to top, but this never ended. I thought to myself that I cannot lift my hands off my eyes, and maybe I should, but felt to urge to do this, so I floated a bit more. After that I finally opened eyes, but no fun was outside, so I paused movie, and closed them again.
I don't know, if I experienced M-HOLE, or it was not it. I doubt it was, or maybe very slight. I also tried to think about important things, like relationship with my GF, but couldn't.
T +06:30
I ate two bananas. I felt no appetite, but wanted to try, how food would taste. It felt not very tasty, but I felt sweetness.
During all of my trip I was not able to determine, if I drink enough or too much. I always try to hydrate much during trips, but this time I felt a lot of numbness in my face and all my body, my penis and testicles shrank to tiny size. This reminded me very much of how I felt during surgery with epidural analgesia, so I freaked a little, and stopped drinking much, because I thought I may not be able to piss. This was probably wrong, because I felt cold during all trip, and turned heater to maximum, obviously sweating much. Also, note that I was totally not able to tell cold from hot, so I measured body temperature and it was 37 C.
Eating bananas was probably wrong, I felt very much nausea and just lied in bed, turning off all lights and music, because they made it much worse. Also, standing/sitting made it worse too, so I waited in bed for a few hours. I felt also very dizzly, wobbly and intoxicated, this was totally not cool.
T +07:30
I still not feeling well, but was able to call my parents and GF, assured everything is fine.
T +08:30
I was able to start BBC documentary "History of science", part 5 "Who are we?". This made me feel a lot better, because I could concentrate on something interesting and not think anxious thoughts. I recommend this series somewhat, they are too simplistic sometimes, but this part was great, because it is about consciousness, mind, neurons and behaviorism.
T +10:00
I finally become able to sit in front of PC, reading forums and doing some stuff. Slight nausea sometimes, but nothing much. I started to feel warm pretty afterglow I read about in other TRs.
T +11:30
Went to sleep, slept well.
Summary
This was not very fun experience and more then half of the time I felt anxious/had nausea. Although it was useful in a sense I understand I could binge and loose self-control in doing drugs. To all people reading this: remember, MXE could be not nice, and MXE could make you loose control. I suggest always start and maybe even stick to low doses (10-20mg). If I ever would do MXE again, it will be low-dosage. And maybe I will try one 60-70 mg once to experience M-HOLE, but not any time soon.
Tagged by bindingaffinity
substancecode_mxe
substancecode_achs
substancecode_dissociatives
explevel_secondtime
exptype_negative
exptype_bodyload
roacode_sublingual
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