Hey guys, I'm new to writing threads so here I go. I am 18 years old and weigh around 80 kg (176 lbs), I have been buying and doing 100% pure psychoactive drugs from certain sources since 2013 when I started smoking weed and taking acid with my close friends.
Since mid last year I stopped taking acid because I saw that it started to cause depression and I became anti-social and all that, because I used to smoke weed at gatherings and drink and trip at bigger events such as parties. I was at rock bottom around November or the last term of my schooling (year 12 term 4). Because everyone in my grade and above grades were doing ecstasy I decided I would buy the purest MDMA on the market and it became a new craze in my town as no one had ever experience a roll like it. Because of the depression that was caused by LSD earlier in the year I was taking a SSRI anti-depressants and after trying to take MDMA I found out that it would not effect me in the slightest way. I was so excited to take the stuff that I introduced to everyone in the social circle because everyone was now in love with the stuff. I tried everything to get it to work: orally, nasal, rectal and increased the dosage but I would still just stand around at parties not feeling a thing. My depression was only getting worst and I did what seemed like at the time a very very stupid mistake, I discontinued taking my SSRI and about a month later went to a rave and tried the pure MDMA that I was getting everyone. At last I felt it, it wasn't as strong as everyone had made it out to seem I took one 100mg at around 8pm waited around 45 minutes and I couldn't feel the euphoric feeling at all but I was very social. All I wanted to do was make friends and hug anyone in sight it was amazing because I knew everyone else was on the same substance but yet my body only had a slightly stoned buzz feeling. After 3-4 hours I took another 100mg and it continued the effects, It was most definitely the best night of my entire life I had made so many new friends and connected to my original friends in way I thought impossible. Fast forward to the week after my roll, I started having a better outlook on life I thought that it was just an afterglow but this new found happiness lasted and I became more social even when I was not on the drug. I can say that MDMA cured my depression and social anxiety and also don't feel dependent on the drug either as I only take it on big events or when I go clubbing (average of once per month).
My problem is whenever I just take 1 cap (100mg) I barely feel the euphoric feeling but still have an amazing time, I usually have to double drop (200mg) before I get the feeling that all my friends say they get on just 1 cap. I am thinking about filling 1 cap with 150mg just for my first cap on a night out then continue with 100mg does that seem like a reasonable idea and does anyone have any idea why it usually takes longer for mine to kick in over my friends and why I don't get a strong feeling, I am roughly the same size as all my friends. Thanks for reading
Since mid last year I stopped taking acid because I saw that it started to cause depression and I became anti-social and all that, because I used to smoke weed at gatherings and drink and trip at bigger events such as parties. I was at rock bottom around November or the last term of my schooling (year 12 term 4). Because everyone in my grade and above grades were doing ecstasy I decided I would buy the purest MDMA on the market and it became a new craze in my town as no one had ever experience a roll like it. Because of the depression that was caused by LSD earlier in the year I was taking a SSRI anti-depressants and after trying to take MDMA I found out that it would not effect me in the slightest way. I was so excited to take the stuff that I introduced to everyone in the social circle because everyone was now in love with the stuff. I tried everything to get it to work: orally, nasal, rectal and increased the dosage but I would still just stand around at parties not feeling a thing. My depression was only getting worst and I did what seemed like at the time a very very stupid mistake, I discontinued taking my SSRI and about a month later went to a rave and tried the pure MDMA that I was getting everyone. At last I felt it, it wasn't as strong as everyone had made it out to seem I took one 100mg at around 8pm waited around 45 minutes and I couldn't feel the euphoric feeling at all but I was very social. All I wanted to do was make friends and hug anyone in sight it was amazing because I knew everyone else was on the same substance but yet my body only had a slightly stoned buzz feeling. After 3-4 hours I took another 100mg and it continued the effects, It was most definitely the best night of my entire life I had made so many new friends and connected to my original friends in way I thought impossible. Fast forward to the week after my roll, I started having a better outlook on life I thought that it was just an afterglow but this new found happiness lasted and I became more social even when I was not on the drug. I can say that MDMA cured my depression and social anxiety and also don't feel dependent on the drug either as I only take it on big events or when I go clubbing (average of once per month).
My problem is whenever I just take 1 cap (100mg) I barely feel the euphoric feeling but still have an amazing time, I usually have to double drop (200mg) before I get the feeling that all my friends say they get on just 1 cap. I am thinking about filling 1 cap with 150mg just for my first cap on a night out then continue with 100mg does that seem like a reasonable idea and does anyone have any idea why it usually takes longer for mine to kick in over my friends and why I don't get a strong feeling, I am roughly the same size as all my friends. Thanks for reading
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Since MDMA is so awesome I make sure I take regular breaks.