A bit about my history, last year i was on diazepam for 9 months and tapered off, also was a heavy drinker (although im only 19). So my gaba-a receptors are used to this, and just like with opiate users, they remember and withdrawals come back harder and faster with much less frequent use.
Recently i got myself into a heavy GBL habbit (again something i had a history with), and the withdrawals were quite horrific, the only thing that would stop them were high doses of benzos, so for one week i was taking 2-4mg doses of xanax a few times a day, also along with occasional big doses of diazepam. I think i went through over 20 xanax's in that week
then the second week (13 days today since i started), i was still taking benzos, but not in high enough amounts, i went about 18 hours without yesterday and started feeling the all to familar withdrawals coming on, tensing up, anxiety, shakes, took some propopanol and some codeine and tried to get some sleep, got no sleep at all, and this morning took 1mg xanax, 1mg seems to hold the withdrawals at bay (although still not 100% maybe just that im scared).
If i stopped would i expect to have mild withdrawals or could they be quite serious (im not sure seizures would occur after just 2 weeks, even though i was taking ridiculous amounts). I only have 20 xanax pills left and a few dodgey (fake, 6/7mg) valiums, so i cant really taper. Im scared about coming clean to my doc since shes been great with me and would loose all trust, tapered me off the benzos last year and recently put me on a pregabalin script, but the pregabalin wasnt doing anything for the withdrawals coming on last night. Im really worried and not sure what to do, should i get medical attention, or just man up and withdraw? Another thing is if my mum found out i was using benzos again she would be devastated, and i really cant have that happening
thanks to any advice, would really appreciate it.
Recently i got myself into a heavy GBL habbit (again something i had a history with), and the withdrawals were quite horrific, the only thing that would stop them were high doses of benzos, so for one week i was taking 2-4mg doses of xanax a few times a day, also along with occasional big doses of diazepam. I think i went through over 20 xanax's in that week
then the second week (13 days today since i started), i was still taking benzos, but not in high enough amounts, i went about 18 hours without yesterday and started feeling the all to familar withdrawals coming on, tensing up, anxiety, shakes, took some propopanol and some codeine and tried to get some sleep, got no sleep at all, and this morning took 1mg xanax, 1mg seems to hold the withdrawals at bay (although still not 100% maybe just that im scared).
If i stopped would i expect to have mild withdrawals or could they be quite serious (im not sure seizures would occur after just 2 weeks, even though i was taking ridiculous amounts). I only have 20 xanax pills left and a few dodgey (fake, 6/7mg) valiums, so i cant really taper. Im scared about coming clean to my doc since shes been great with me and would loose all trust, tapered me off the benzos last year and recently put me on a pregabalin script, but the pregabalin wasnt doing anything for the withdrawals coming on last night. Im really worried and not sure what to do, should i get medical attention, or just man up and withdraw? Another thing is if my mum found out i was using benzos again she would be devastated, and i really cant have that happening
thanks to any advice, would really appreciate it.
