I know that 2 weeks isn't much in the grand scheme of things but today marks 2 weeks since I've taken opiates. My addiction started out with just using norco 10s and when I had reached a point where I was taking 20-25 pills a day I switched over to oxys. I had stopped feeling the high from the norcos for the most part and taking oxy 30s felt great. But I soon found myself snorting ~150mg a day. That went on for awhile until I finally got tired of everything that goes along with keeping up a big oxy habit.
Initially I was able to get a hold of 7 of the 8mg suboxone strips and so 14 days ago I started taking the suboxone. I had initially planned on only using them to help with WD symptoms from going cold turkey 150mg oxy but since being on the subs my plans have changed a bit. I've seen how I still crave oxy at random times and know there have been days over this 2 week period that I would have gone back to my dealer if I hadn't already been on the subs (I stopped myself from going bc I knew that by already having taken my suboxone dose in the morning I wouldn't feel the oxys so why bother) so I've been able to work through urges that way. The subs have also really helped me get out of the daily pattern I was in with snorting oxy - I was able to break the "ritual" I was addicted to doing 5x day (basically every time I snorted oxy) and that has helped SO much.
Although I really really felt ready to quit opiates I'm still kind of surprised that I've made it to the 2 week mark. A month ago this seemed impossible. I'm aware that some people feel a person isn't really "clean" or sober if they're using suboxone, but honestly right now I don't care... this is what is working for me and helping me get my life back, and if suboxone is a part of that for awhile then that's the way it's going to be and it's just fine by me.
And although I know suboxone has made this process easier than going cold turkey, I still have hard days/hours/moments, etc. I started out on day one taking 8mg sub and now for the past few days I've been at 4mg and that dose seems to be working. I'd like to be maintaining at a lower dose, like about 2mg, but I'm not going to push it just yet considering it's only been 14 days.
This website and everyone here has been so helpful- thank you!! And to those who are contemplating sobriety I just wanted to share my early journey bc it wasn't that long ago at all that I was convinced I'd never be able to go 24 hours without oxy or norco!
Initially I was able to get a hold of 7 of the 8mg suboxone strips and so 14 days ago I started taking the suboxone. I had initially planned on only using them to help with WD symptoms from going cold turkey 150mg oxy but since being on the subs my plans have changed a bit. I've seen how I still crave oxy at random times and know there have been days over this 2 week period that I would have gone back to my dealer if I hadn't already been on the subs (I stopped myself from going bc I knew that by already having taken my suboxone dose in the morning I wouldn't feel the oxys so why bother) so I've been able to work through urges that way. The subs have also really helped me get out of the daily pattern I was in with snorting oxy - I was able to break the "ritual" I was addicted to doing 5x day (basically every time I snorted oxy) and that has helped SO much.
Although I really really felt ready to quit opiates I'm still kind of surprised that I've made it to the 2 week mark. A month ago this seemed impossible. I'm aware that some people feel a person isn't really "clean" or sober if they're using suboxone, but honestly right now I don't care... this is what is working for me and helping me get my life back, and if suboxone is a part of that for awhile then that's the way it's going to be and it's just fine by me.
And although I know suboxone has made this process easier than going cold turkey, I still have hard days/hours/moments, etc. I started out on day one taking 8mg sub and now for the past few days I've been at 4mg and that dose seems to be working. I'd like to be maintaining at a lower dose, like about 2mg, but I'm not going to push it just yet considering it's only been 14 days.
This website and everyone here has been so helpful- thank you!! And to those who are contemplating sobriety I just wanted to share my early journey bc it wasn't that long ago at all that I was convinced I'd never be able to go 24 hours without oxy or norco!
Last edited by a moderator: