2 fucking sides, you fucking inconsiderate asshole.

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

And you don't know how fucking bad it hurts... to see you walk away from me....... not once, but many fucking times. and especially...... when i meet you around the block, at 2.30 in the morning in zero degree temperature, wearing nothing but bedroom slippers, a white t-shirt and hospital pants. and all you say is, 'what the fuck! are you doing???? are you crazy???'. and the answer is YES. yes i am, crazy to think that you will ever understand what it is i would do for you, what it is that i would do to make you feel any other way than the way you have felt before. but you just don't get it.
AND
e-girl:
i have to greatly apologize to you......
and i would have to say that i wish you never would have said what you told me in the first place, because, as i nod my head in disbelief, i had to use what you said against him....
because i couldn't take any longer, how he was eating me alive. how he was such a fucking liar, after all i did for him. and you know what he did? do you? he still! still! tried to turn it all around, saying that, not in exact words, but to sum it up, that we were both crazy....... and i'm so sorry. for having to bring you into this. i'm sorry for you believing in telling me something, and that i would keep your promise. and i'm most sorry, that i just couldn't do it any more.
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and ya know what? you think all of your fucking friends are soooooo wonderful, so fucking terrific. and i'm not doubting that. i am just so fucking disappointed in myself for thinking that maybe, just maybe, i might get a chance at that. i'm sorry for the fact that once again, i'd give love another shot. sorry for the fact that i'd spend so much money to keep you from going to jail, when in the first place, you'd probably be better fucking off there. i'm sorry that there was no one else to fall for your stupid fucking games and try to help you out. i'm sorry that i spent countless number of hours waiting for you to walk through the door.... to wait to hear you bitch and complain. and i'm sorry that i loved every fucking second of it.
and i'm sorry that you were toooooo fucking inconsiderate to realize, that every fucking night we got into a major fucking fight about nothing, i was too drunk and too fucked up on pills...... because i was too busy trying to, yeah well, basically kill myself..... trying to drowned out all the worthless things in my life that i just can't bare anymore, nor want to. and i eat all these fucking ativans and drink all this beer, in hopes that i won't fucking remember what the fuck happens, whether i live or fucking die, and we both know....... that you don't either.
because everything else is more fucking important in your life. everyone else, and everything else is more important to you. and while i sit here and cry to you and try to tell you that i NEED something....... something else, anything else........ you take it as a direct fucking attack..... an attack towards yourself, about how much i can't stand you. when really, i'm just saying i can't stand how ignorant you can really be.
and i don't care if you are walking home right now. i'm crying my fucking eyes out, but you know what............. it doesn't matter anyway.
nothing ever fucking does. and on your 2 mile walk, i know you are thinking about what a fucking bitch i am, how inconsiderate i am..... but there's two fucking sides hun. 2 fucking sides.

 

[E-girl]

don't be sorry. any advice i gave you was advice i would have given anyone in your situation. i had to forget for a moment that ryan is my friend, and i had to look at him as just a person... and that PERSON is putting you through a lot of pain that you don't deserve. i think ryan knows i would never wish anything bad for him -- but just like justin and like everybody else, they KNOW when they have overstepped the boundaries, they don't need me or you to tell them... it just comes down to, will they be the big enough person to end the bullshit... or keep stringing along someone just for the ride.
i hope it works out for you... i hope it works out for him... even if its not together. and i hope sometime in the near future you'll be writing something with a smile on your face. you gotta know the rain before you can know a rainbow.

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

you gotta know the rain before you can know a rainbow
true dat.

 

[Jungle Bunny]

Tell it girl tell it
This was slick babes, and I'm taking it that it isn't a work of fiction. Hell, even if it is this was superb. Babes I felt all the anger and that is what I'm talking about! Let him have it girl... LET HIM HAVE IT. This is the kind of writing that gets the blood pumping. Yours and mine. I am so over the "he loves me she loves me not." Follow up babes, what's the CNN. Report babes report, cause you pulling a Diann Sawyer Barbara Walters all rolled up in one!

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

this was not a work of fiction

 

[bisKi]

but there's two fucking sides hun. 2 fucking sides.
The only problem is they're too blind or unwilling to see it

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

true fuckin' dat