I felt so peaceful yesterday, my afterglow made me feel extremely connected to the world.
It's been over 24 hours and slipping into day two.
Does anyone else getting kinda silly the following days? This isn't Norma for me. My calm usually sticks around for a week.
Apparently not this time!!
After a day of calm, I gave myself a 2 hour yoga session last night before bed. That shit works better then any drug my doctors prescribe me for my insomnia. Screw diazepam, Human Origami is where it's at!
Slept for 5 hours and my Leaf told me that it was pretty peaceful with not much movement. Didn't really need a bite-sized computer to tell me that though cause I sprang out of bed like a clapper.
Switched on my computer to get ready for work but I had this incredible urge to just DO stuff. Since I went all cleaning-frenzy yesterday, it ruled out housework. Decided to weed the garden with my morning coffee and smokes, and gave myself a pedicure.
Sat down to do some work before a work conference, only to receive an email saying it had been cancelled. Perfect. I have so much energy inside of me, I need to release it somewhere. Somehow.
Nerd convention coming up in 2 months time, so dragged out the sewing machine, chucked on Max Max and happily sewing up a storm here.
I don't know why I'm not feeling the peace. I will look through my journals later and see if I can find any answers.
Last night I felt my calm was going down into slight depression. My calm was taking my mind to places that made me sad and cry. I could explain that to myself. I told myself that the booster I had was too much. I experienced, I learnt and can adjust next times dosage accordingly. Justifying feelings help push me back into control with my thoughts. I was able to talk myself out of the slump my mind wanted to go to. Close call though. Phew.
Maybe psychologically, my mind is now making up for that lapse. My diet and wellbeing, frame of mind and routine, is the same as any other drop. Why must drugs be so complicated and unpredictable? 1 + 1 should always equal 2. So why does it equal 3 this time? I MUST be missing something in my data.
I am interested to see if my afterglow lasts the usual week. I am up and down this time, so while its annoys me that my paper math isn't adding up, I am super curious as to where this new road leads me. I feel like I accidentally leaned against the "Do Not Press" button, and now I get to see what happens.
Hugs and Love
Claudia xo
It's been over 24 hours and slipping into day two.
Does anyone else getting kinda silly the following days? This isn't Norma for me. My calm usually sticks around for a week.
Apparently not this time!!
After a day of calm, I gave myself a 2 hour yoga session last night before bed. That shit works better then any drug my doctors prescribe me for my insomnia. Screw diazepam, Human Origami is where it's at!
Slept for 5 hours and my Leaf told me that it was pretty peaceful with not much movement. Didn't really need a bite-sized computer to tell me that though cause I sprang out of bed like a clapper.
Switched on my computer to get ready for work but I had this incredible urge to just DO stuff. Since I went all cleaning-frenzy yesterday, it ruled out housework. Decided to weed the garden with my morning coffee and smokes, and gave myself a pedicure.
Sat down to do some work before a work conference, only to receive an email saying it had been cancelled. Perfect. I have so much energy inside of me, I need to release it somewhere. Somehow.
Nerd convention coming up in 2 months time, so dragged out the sewing machine, chucked on Max Max and happily sewing up a storm here.
I don't know why I'm not feeling the peace. I will look through my journals later and see if I can find any answers.
Last night I felt my calm was going down into slight depression. My calm was taking my mind to places that made me sad and cry. I could explain that to myself. I told myself that the booster I had was too much. I experienced, I learnt and can adjust next times dosage accordingly. Justifying feelings help push me back into control with my thoughts. I was able to talk myself out of the slump my mind wanted to go to. Close call though. Phew.
Maybe psychologically, my mind is now making up for that lapse. My diet and wellbeing, frame of mind and routine, is the same as any other drop. Why must drugs be so complicated and unpredictable? 1 + 1 should always equal 2. So why does it equal 3 this time? I MUST be missing something in my data.
I am interested to see if my afterglow lasts the usual week. I am up and down this time, so while its annoys me that my paper math isn't adding up, I am super curious as to where this new road leads me. I feel like I accidentally leaned against the "Do Not Press" button, and now I get to see what happens.
Hugs and Love
Claudia xo