Astro-Weezy
Bluelighter
2 Loop Experiences from bad trips! The first experience is more brief as the second one is more of the whole trip with a little bit edited out.
First time was with 28mg of 2C-E + Mushrooms + Nitrous Oxide,
It wasn't just myself doing a repeated thing, but in my mind everything and everyone else was... I was at a Bush Doof where there was a lot of people, and I lost what they were saying around me and started converting their words to things from my past when I used to be bullied at school or when I would be put down to shame. It was a scary moment as I thought I would never escape this loop as time wasn't changing in my mind for each time I looked at my phone. I started getting anxiety, paranoia and fear of everything. I then would scratch my arms as I would look around....wondering why everything is repeating itself every second, like a Deja' Vu experience but to a fraction of a second. My sister has schizophrenia, so it dwelt on my mind that I was going crazy and I would never be the same again. I tried to see if any change would happen if I inhaled some Nitrous Oxide... only to make it even worse and to get stuck even further in the loop, it all seemed to of happened in the time of 10:55am and 10:56am, my first experience of time dilution.... Before and after the Loop I was fine and had one of my best experiences of my life. I had Amazing visuals that I would never forget. It was if I could see sound as a fractal patterns out of the speakers....the trees above me became a somewhat of a victor cut out of artwork where the leaves all looked the same just aligned to different angles.
Second time was Mushroom tea and then more mushrooms, Methadone, then later more mushrooms.
At first everything was fine, brewed up about 50 Mushrooms between 3 of us at about 10:30am, finished that off within an hour... and wasn't really getting much of a trip... so 2 of us decided to eat about 12 shrooms each, then within about 20mins... started getting visuals and mind alternating thoughts, it was great, I had a awesome day of tripping, listing to psychedelic music, went for a walk, chilled on the couch, played some table tennis. Around 2:30pm decided to do some lines of Methadone and as the day continued having a incredible day... dawn came on... so around 8:00pm we decided to eat about 15 more Mushrooms... and within 15-20 minutes... I started experiencing what I did in my first story only that there were just the 2 of us at this point and my mates housemate. I didn't know what to do or say... if I even wanted to talk about me being in a bad trip, everything felt as if I were in repeat... my actions and their actions. I was standing at the door having a smoke and my mate came through he door to say something funny that happened on the television, I tried to acknowledge what he said and then he walked back into the room, then he came back through and as he was doing that I was thinking everything was repeating again.. this just happened 5 minutes ago, but he said something else.... but at the same time I felt I had experienced it before. I went and sat down on the lounge to see if I could cool off while the 2 were playing table tennis.... it wasn't happening I was starting to get anxiety, I'll go check my facebook.... "OMG I think I'm seeing shit now....why is one of my friends status on the homepage.. he never uses facebook and hasn't in years." i tried to click on his name but nothing changed on the page... all his status said was a name of a song he has been listing too... and it was a memory from at least 3 years ago...I even saw his picture next to his name he used to use... so I left the computer due to my freak out.... and continued my night in a bad trip similar to my mind in story one... but for hours!!!!
Phone call at 10:30pm saying we should go out to a club... will be fun... as I was waiting outside.
At this point I decided to tell him I think I'm having a bad trip...what do I do.. how do I get out of it, and as a good friend he explained everything to me.. saying that just be around people that will build you up and just think of the good things and keep saying that it's only the mushrroms / drug. Something that usually helps me is to have something like E or Neo-Doves or even methadone. So I dropped 2 caps and brought 10 out with me.
My friend was talking to me while we were outside.... but his words were converted in my mind to things such as "Suicide, Death, Acid, Do it" then it came right... as we were waiting for out life... in the pouring rain not caring a thing about anything and that we were getting wet.... we saw a car coming down the road.. and as he said something... I automatically said "Fuck what do I do.. I have 10 caps in my pocket" thinking he said it was the police and they are going to stop in front of me. Then I snapped out of that paranoia state and realized he didn't say anything about the cops. He asked how I was feeling and am I still getting visuals out of care for me... I hesitated and said "um.. I don't know" We realized we had no credit to find out how far our lift would be so we went back inside until she came and picked us up. As we waited I talked to him more about how I was feeling and what was going on...I felt much better to know that it will eventually pass. However at the same time I was scared it wouldn't... once we got in the car and got into town and into the club, I only freaked more and was paranoid everyone was looking at me, I wouldn't dance as I became overly self conscious, so I leaned against the wall... I had at least 10 of my good friends there and I told 4 of them I was in a bad mushroom trip and they were very supportive although they haven't done as many psychedelics as myself or to the quantity I had this day / night. More ales they hadn't experienced a bad trip before. As the friend I came out with had... but I don't think this bad, I asked one of my friends if I could go sit in her car to cool off...
A few of my mates came out to say hi and see how I was doing, at this point I had dropped another cap, I tried eating some food but that was too hard... eventually the party shifted back to the house we were at at the beginning and I went straight into the room to see if I could sleep, Audio trips started coming on...and I started thinking there were people whispering outside the window or someone was about to come in the door.... I'm experienced with bad audio trips so I was aware that would pass... I just decided to draw and write my experience down... couldn't really do that nor could I sleep... so after maybe 2 hours I joined the 15 or so people out in the lounge / backyard. I slowly started to come back to my normal self around 4:30am.. but still with a little bit of anxiety. I'm fine now... =]
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I look back on both these experiences and for some reason I think they were great to have in some way... at the time I was like "I want to be out of this trip". I have learned some thing and am fascinated with what had happened in my mind. The second experience at the time was the most I had been ever scared in my life! Glad I had that experience though now thinking on it. It was less than a week ago.
First time was with 28mg of 2C-E + Mushrooms + Nitrous Oxide,
It wasn't just myself doing a repeated thing, but in my mind everything and everyone else was... I was at a Bush Doof where there was a lot of people, and I lost what they were saying around me and started converting their words to things from my past when I used to be bullied at school or when I would be put down to shame. It was a scary moment as I thought I would never escape this loop as time wasn't changing in my mind for each time I looked at my phone. I started getting anxiety, paranoia and fear of everything. I then would scratch my arms as I would look around....wondering why everything is repeating itself every second, like a Deja' Vu experience but to a fraction of a second. My sister has schizophrenia, so it dwelt on my mind that I was going crazy and I would never be the same again. I tried to see if any change would happen if I inhaled some Nitrous Oxide... only to make it even worse and to get stuck even further in the loop, it all seemed to of happened in the time of 10:55am and 10:56am, my first experience of time dilution.... Before and after the Loop I was fine and had one of my best experiences of my life. I had Amazing visuals that I would never forget. It was if I could see sound as a fractal patterns out of the speakers....the trees above me became a somewhat of a victor cut out of artwork where the leaves all looked the same just aligned to different angles.
Second time was Mushroom tea and then more mushrooms, Methadone, then later more mushrooms.
At first everything was fine, brewed up about 50 Mushrooms between 3 of us at about 10:30am, finished that off within an hour... and wasn't really getting much of a trip... so 2 of us decided to eat about 12 shrooms each, then within about 20mins... started getting visuals and mind alternating thoughts, it was great, I had a awesome day of tripping, listing to psychedelic music, went for a walk, chilled on the couch, played some table tennis. Around 2:30pm decided to do some lines of Methadone and as the day continued having a incredible day... dawn came on... so around 8:00pm we decided to eat about 15 more Mushrooms... and within 15-20 minutes... I started experiencing what I did in my first story only that there were just the 2 of us at this point and my mates housemate. I didn't know what to do or say... if I even wanted to talk about me being in a bad trip, everything felt as if I were in repeat... my actions and their actions. I was standing at the door having a smoke and my mate came through he door to say something funny that happened on the television, I tried to acknowledge what he said and then he walked back into the room, then he came back through and as he was doing that I was thinking everything was repeating again.. this just happened 5 minutes ago, but he said something else.... but at the same time I felt I had experienced it before. I went and sat down on the lounge to see if I could cool off while the 2 were playing table tennis.... it wasn't happening I was starting to get anxiety, I'll go check my facebook.... "OMG I think I'm seeing shit now....why is one of my friends status on the homepage.. he never uses facebook and hasn't in years." i tried to click on his name but nothing changed on the page... all his status said was a name of a song he has been listing too... and it was a memory from at least 3 years ago...I even saw his picture next to his name he used to use... so I left the computer due to my freak out.... and continued my night in a bad trip similar to my mind in story one... but for hours!!!!
Phone call at 10:30pm saying we should go out to a club... will be fun... as I was waiting outside.
At this point I decided to tell him I think I'm having a bad trip...what do I do.. how do I get out of it, and as a good friend he explained everything to me.. saying that just be around people that will build you up and just think of the good things and keep saying that it's only the mushrroms / drug. Something that usually helps me is to have something like E or Neo-Doves or even methadone. So I dropped 2 caps and brought 10 out with me.
My friend was talking to me while we were outside.... but his words were converted in my mind to things such as "Suicide, Death, Acid, Do it" then it came right... as we were waiting for out life... in the pouring rain not caring a thing about anything and that we were getting wet.... we saw a car coming down the road.. and as he said something... I automatically said "Fuck what do I do.. I have 10 caps in my pocket" thinking he said it was the police and they are going to stop in front of me. Then I snapped out of that paranoia state and realized he didn't say anything about the cops. He asked how I was feeling and am I still getting visuals out of care for me... I hesitated and said "um.. I don't know" We realized we had no credit to find out how far our lift would be so we went back inside until she came and picked us up. As we waited I talked to him more about how I was feeling and what was going on...I felt much better to know that it will eventually pass. However at the same time I was scared it wouldn't... once we got in the car and got into town and into the club, I only freaked more and was paranoid everyone was looking at me, I wouldn't dance as I became overly self conscious, so I leaned against the wall... I had at least 10 of my good friends there and I told 4 of them I was in a bad mushroom trip and they were very supportive although they haven't done as many psychedelics as myself or to the quantity I had this day / night. More ales they hadn't experienced a bad trip before. As the friend I came out with had... but I don't think this bad, I asked one of my friends if I could go sit in her car to cool off...
A few of my mates came out to say hi and see how I was doing, at this point I had dropped another cap, I tried eating some food but that was too hard... eventually the party shifted back to the house we were at at the beginning and I went straight into the room to see if I could sleep, Audio trips started coming on...and I started thinking there were people whispering outside the window or someone was about to come in the door.... I'm experienced with bad audio trips so I was aware that would pass... I just decided to draw and write my experience down... couldn't really do that nor could I sleep... so after maybe 2 hours I joined the 15 or so people out in the lounge / backyard. I slowly started to come back to my normal self around 4:30am.. but still with a little bit of anxiety. I'm fine now... =]
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I look back on both these experiences and for some reason I think they were great to have in some way... at the time I was like "I want to be out of this trip". I have learned some thing and am fascinated with what had happened in my mind. The second experience at the time was the most I had been ever scared in my life! Glad I had that experience though now thinking on it. It was less than a week ago.
