tentontintin
Greenlighter
Hey y'all!
Was referred here from a mental health forum.
I'm three months into a course of entheogenic treatment of bipolar depression under the care of a mental health professional.
My goals are to stay out of the hospital and maintain regular employment.
I have been treated with anti-depressants, therapy, and mood stabilizers for 17 years.
Since stopping painkillers & alcohol in Dec 2013 I have practiced mindfulness, gone to Refuge Recovery meetings, and done 12 Steps. I've also experienced intense depressive episodes that are much more disruptive than before sobriety. I have been diagnosed with so-called "treatment-resistant" bipolar depression and am taking Lamictal to manage hypomanic symptoms. Depression, however, is episodic, random, and intense. Missed work, disruption of routines and intense suicidal ideation. So far no psychiatric drug has been successful in treating or preventing my major depression. Very challenging and disillusioning.
Began psilocybin June of this year after an acute major depressive episode and it appears to have kept me from hospitalization / ECT.
Continuing periodic administration of psychedelic doses of the drug under the supervision of a therapist. Still experiencing some depression but going to give it six months before I try something new.
I've joined this forum to find support from other sober folks, as my AA sponsor and most of the people I met through that fellowship are not supportive of my choice to use illegal substances to treat my mental illness. I have a handful of sober friends who are supportive, and my non-sober friends could care less how I treat my illness, but feeling isolated from AA compounds my anxiety about my illness and makes me second-guess my choice.
I'm also interested in finding others with clinical depression who have found relief or lessening of symptoms with entheogens.
Very appreciative that this forum exists.
Was referred here from a mental health forum.
I'm three months into a course of entheogenic treatment of bipolar depression under the care of a mental health professional.
My goals are to stay out of the hospital and maintain regular employment.
I have been treated with anti-depressants, therapy, and mood stabilizers for 17 years.
Since stopping painkillers & alcohol in Dec 2013 I have practiced mindfulness, gone to Refuge Recovery meetings, and done 12 Steps. I've also experienced intense depressive episodes that are much more disruptive than before sobriety. I have been diagnosed with so-called "treatment-resistant" bipolar depression and am taking Lamictal to manage hypomanic symptoms. Depression, however, is episodic, random, and intense. Missed work, disruption of routines and intense suicidal ideation. So far no psychiatric drug has been successful in treating or preventing my major depression. Very challenging and disillusioning.
Began psilocybin June of this year after an acute major depressive episode and it appears to have kept me from hospitalization / ECT.
Continuing periodic administration of psychedelic doses of the drug under the supervision of a therapist. Still experiencing some depression but going to give it six months before I try something new.
I've joined this forum to find support from other sober folks, as my AA sponsor and most of the people I met through that fellowship are not supportive of my choice to use illegal substances to treat my mental illness. I have a handful of sober friends who are supportive, and my non-sober friends could care less how I treat my illness, but feeling isolated from AA compounds my anxiety about my illness and makes me second-guess my choice.
I'm also interested in finding others with clinical depression who have found relief or lessening of symptoms with entheogens.
Very appreciative that this forum exists.
