Somebody23
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- Nov 20, 2016
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Hey guys, new to the forum and anti-depressants in general. I was googling citalophram and came across a thread here from a couple years ago about feeling high from citalophram. There was a post on there that discouraged bumping old threads so I figured I would post here. My back story is I've battled depression off and on my entire life, the last few months have been especially hard and I decided to seek out some help a couple days ago. I had a dr perscribe me 20mg of citalophram and I'm having some unusual side effects, or at least what I think are unusual. I dont really have anyone I can talk to about this so figured I would reach out to others who might have been in a similar situation...
I took it yesterday for the first time, the first couple hours I didnt really notice anything and then all of a sudden I felt a high similar to E, I had trouble concentrating, was basically just zoning out sitting on the couch getting lost in a blank stare with similar warm mellow waves pulsing through my body. As time went on the high feeling started to pass and I had more of a zombie feel where I didn't feel good or bad or many thoughts at all, that eventually passed and I started to have a normal mood and energy level. I started tidying up, went to the store and cooked a decent meal for myself, its the first time I've been motivated to do something like that for a while so I was feeling pretty good about it.
Today I had to take a safety course and I didn't want to "get high" again and be unable to focus in class so I didn't take my pill until I got home around 4:30pm, Its now 9pm and once again the last hour or so I've felt high, zoned out and having trouble focusing while have warm mellow waves passing over my body (really similar to how i feel on mdma or e), at some points its almost overwhelming.
I really want to give these pills a chance as I did feel normal after 6 hours or so of taking it but I really dont think I can focus in society like this lol. I'm off work at the moment so I have the ability to just veg out at home if itll get easier but, id rather not sit around getting high all day if thats the case. Is 20mg too high of a dose? From what I've been reading its a fairly mellow starter dose and I dont quite understand why its hitting me so hard. I dont really do drugs anymore but the last few times I've done them in the last few years I've had a very low tolerance, I'll like black out and forget an entire night from like 1 or 2 pills of mdma or e. I'm wondering if maybe I'm just an overweight "lightweight" lol. I'm 5'11" 220lbs if body mass has anything to do with dose size.
Anyways would appreciate some advice from you guys. Should I try cutting the pills in half or just power through it? I dont have a family dr and got them from a walk in clinic so finding the same dr to talk about it might be a little hard.
I took it yesterday for the first time, the first couple hours I didnt really notice anything and then all of a sudden I felt a high similar to E, I had trouble concentrating, was basically just zoning out sitting on the couch getting lost in a blank stare with similar warm mellow waves pulsing through my body. As time went on the high feeling started to pass and I had more of a zombie feel where I didn't feel good or bad or many thoughts at all, that eventually passed and I started to have a normal mood and energy level. I started tidying up, went to the store and cooked a decent meal for myself, its the first time I've been motivated to do something like that for a while so I was feeling pretty good about it.
Today I had to take a safety course and I didn't want to "get high" again and be unable to focus in class so I didn't take my pill until I got home around 4:30pm, Its now 9pm and once again the last hour or so I've felt high, zoned out and having trouble focusing while have warm mellow waves passing over my body (really similar to how i feel on mdma or e), at some points its almost overwhelming.
I really want to give these pills a chance as I did feel normal after 6 hours or so of taking it but I really dont think I can focus in society like this lol. I'm off work at the moment so I have the ability to just veg out at home if itll get easier but, id rather not sit around getting high all day if thats the case. Is 20mg too high of a dose? From what I've been reading its a fairly mellow starter dose and I dont quite understand why its hitting me so hard. I dont really do drugs anymore but the last few times I've done them in the last few years I've had a very low tolerance, I'll like black out and forget an entire night from like 1 or 2 pills of mdma or e. I'm wondering if maybe I'm just an overweight "lightweight" lol. I'm 5'11" 220lbs if body mass has anything to do with dose size.
Anyways would appreciate some advice from you guys. Should I try cutting the pills in half or just power through it? I dont have a family dr and got them from a walk in clinic so finding the same dr to talk about it might be a little hard.