19 days clean but...

...I think I was a kinder, gentler person when I was using.

I feel like an asshole 'tough guy'.

I feel like people in the rooms of NA like me but the ones that hang out with me, who are getting to know me better, see a 'me' that I'm unfamiliar with.

All I need to do is not use and perhaps I'll become a better person.

 

OD, maybe you are being too hard on yourself.......
You are not an asshole.
Give it time.....things will work out.....

 

I guess I am being impatient. Its a bit discomforting meeting so many new people all at once (especially when I tend to isolate).

I just get these attitudes from out of nowhere.

I do feel like an asshole sometimes though

Thanks ocean!

 

Of course, OD

I know what you mean.....sometimes when I get overwhelmed by people (b/c I def. like to isolate-my hubby and I are hermits) I can get edgy and short with people.
Its kinda normal, but then you get used to people and relax a little.....

You will be okay.