unearthlyn
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Sep 17, 2015
- Messages
- 18
Haven't been on this site in a long while it seems.. I always find myself here when things get rough, which I guess right now would be the best/worst time to say hello! I have been addicted to opiates for two years now, been on the needle for a little over a year, and I guess I don't know how much longer I can handle this life. I feel like I put myself in a cage that only I have a key to unlock and I just swallowed the key. I gave up on life before i've even began experiencing it. Most days I wish I could go back to the first day that I used and just hit myself, beat the everliving fuck out of that 15 year old girl and all of the FUCKWITS who allowed her to put a fucking poison into her like they did. but also those same days are the days that I freak out with excitement over bags and bags of dope.. such a vicious cycle. How old were you when you first started using? Any advice you would've given your younger self?