Hello guys and gals, I've been a member of this forum for a while, getting all kinds of different information for years, but just recently I've decided to create an account and today to start writing.
I have been taking benzos for about 2 - 3 years started with alprazolam powder and tried a CT from that one time when I ran out. Suffered through 3 months of pure hell, then I started taking benzos again. About half a year ago I decided to search for professional support on properly quitting benzos (tapering), the clinic got me on clonazepam instead of xanax, but didn't stick to the tapering plan, rather they dropped the dose for 25% when they found other drugs in my system and when they found coke for the 2nd time i told them they are unprofessional and they dropped me from the clinic. Meanwhile they got me using buprenorphine, because it's supposed to be easier to quit benzos with bupe.. lmao what a bunch of schumcks I thought to myself when they dropped me from the clinic.
Well I tried to continue benzo tapering at the methadone / bupe clinic and they told me that I am clean because I only took 2mg in the last 3 days (I told the therapist this was because my script ran out not because I was able to taper to 2mg and that I've been taking from 4-8 mg daily). She didn't listen and told me she got another patient and that I need to leave.. I left and stayed in the waiting room for about 10 minutes thinking about what I will do, and then I noticed there was no other patient, she had to work with and then I realized all these institutions are just playing me and getting government money out of my pain and that the only way to quit drugs is to stop taking drugs. I wanted to taper for the sake of my well being and because I don't want to suffer PAWS for years, but I guess there's no other way...
I was on bupe or suboxone (however you wish to call it) since the beginning of this year and we went from 4-16mg. I once tried tapering and came down to 10mg but then the nurses realized i was pocketing the pills and I started taking the whole 16mg again.. Well Im fed up with these therapists and doctors and specialists and I decided to go cold turkey.
I was also on a coke binge for the past 3 weeks because I wasn't able to function with the subs and k-pins..
Today is the 2nd day I didn't take my dose and I'm already feeling lethargy and depression just thinking about what is in store for me, but hey, I could go on for years with these subs and k-pins, trying to find a good therapist but this is all BS..
Luckily for me I have some tramadol stored away for the pain I'm about to experience and to help me go through first few days..
It's about 48hrs since my last dose of benzos and bupe. I am feeling lethargic, depressed AF and some pain in the joints atm, I had some flashbacks (you could call this hallucinations) a few hrs ago. I will try to update my condition daily
Love you all.
I have been taking benzos for about 2 - 3 years started with alprazolam powder and tried a CT from that one time when I ran out. Suffered through 3 months of pure hell, then I started taking benzos again. About half a year ago I decided to search for professional support on properly quitting benzos (tapering), the clinic got me on clonazepam instead of xanax, but didn't stick to the tapering plan, rather they dropped the dose for 25% when they found other drugs in my system and when they found coke for the 2nd time i told them they are unprofessional and they dropped me from the clinic. Meanwhile they got me using buprenorphine, because it's supposed to be easier to quit benzos with bupe.. lmao what a bunch of schumcks I thought to myself when they dropped me from the clinic.
Well I tried to continue benzo tapering at the methadone / bupe clinic and they told me that I am clean because I only took 2mg in the last 3 days (I told the therapist this was because my script ran out not because I was able to taper to 2mg and that I've been taking from 4-8 mg daily). She didn't listen and told me she got another patient and that I need to leave.. I left and stayed in the waiting room for about 10 minutes thinking about what I will do, and then I noticed there was no other patient, she had to work with and then I realized all these institutions are just playing me and getting government money out of my pain and that the only way to quit drugs is to stop taking drugs. I wanted to taper for the sake of my well being and because I don't want to suffer PAWS for years, but I guess there's no other way...
I was on bupe or suboxone (however you wish to call it) since the beginning of this year and we went from 4-16mg. I once tried tapering and came down to 10mg but then the nurses realized i was pocketing the pills and I started taking the whole 16mg again.. Well Im fed up with these therapists and doctors and specialists and I decided to go cold turkey.
I was also on a coke binge for the past 3 weeks because I wasn't able to function with the subs and k-pins..
Today is the 2nd day I didn't take my dose and I'm already feeling lethargy and depression just thinking about what is in store for me, but hey, I could go on for years with these subs and k-pins, trying to find a good therapist but this is all BS..
Luckily for me I have some tramadol stored away for the pain I'm about to experience and to help me go through first few days..
It's about 48hrs since my last dose of benzos and bupe. I am feeling lethargic, depressed AF and some pain in the joints atm, I had some flashbacks (you could call this hallucinations) a few hrs ago. I will try to update my condition daily
Love you all.