hey guys , had a really rough day at work . talked to a friend of mine who used to be a dope addict and has been clean on subs for 4 yrs. he thinks that i need to see a new sub dr. and stay on subs awhile and get on an anti depressant/anxiety med too...........i just dont know how im gonna find right doctors to do that or money to pay for it ..............
Thats interesting. Not the go back to a sub dr thing but that anxiety/depression med recommendation. I think you REALLY need to consider taking Lexapro specifically. Fuck considering bro you JUST NEED IT. I've spoken to you enough to know that for a fact. Theres not a single psychiatrist who wouldn't have you on it if they knew how bad your anxiety was.
Not Zoloft, Paxil or any of those crappy ssris that have bad sides and don't work for a lot of people. But lexapro has a great track record, rarely any sides, and it was the only one that basically changed my whole life (plus if you read feedback SO MANY people love thier lex).
I've told you this before years ago I was very depressed and anxious and the ONLY thing that was able to fix that was Lex (after failing with so many other ssris). It took 6 weeks before I noticed it really working, but when I did it worked SO WELL, like nothing else I've ever taken for anxiety. Plus it destroyed benzos because on benzos I was still able to be anxious and depressed. I just stopped worrying about all the worlds problems, and it def elevated my mood the entire time I was on it. In fact, Lex was so affective I almost had too little anxiety on it.
And it made me a bit uninhibited because of that. But like I said nothing else worked for me. After I got off, because I had been thinking happy on the lex and not worrying at all, it just felt natural and never came back (the anxiety and depression). I've spoke to you many times on the phone and your worrying really is just like I use to do.
Sub really is only temporary for anxiety and depression (which is why its not prescribed for that), you get a tolerance to it too quickly.
I mean in my personal opinion bro you're doing great in life you just need to find something that can work for your brain. You are a hard worker, you're staying away from dope, but you beat yourself up so much over useless shit.
You OWE yourself something better. If you gotta stay on sub stay on it. But I think more importantly that dope addict was right about an anxiety med. Just not a benzo because although they kinda address anxiety they do shit for depression, not to mention they're very much up and down. Lexapro is a stable ALWAYS happy ALWAYS not worrying experience. Theres no downs really at all imo (well except the sex drive but mine was barely even affected).
What I think is if you had something like Lex to balance your transmitters it would make it a ton easier to stop sub down the road. I'm dead serious. When you taper the sub say 4-6 months from now or whenever you decide, the Lex will be keeping you very happy and calm, to the point where a sub taper will be MUCH more doable. You sound like you have a legit anxiety problem just like I use to. And I think that prob causes most of your depression as well. If you get off subs it will prob only aggravate your anxiety further. I was only supporting you because you wanted to get off it. But if I was a dr I'd recommend exactly like I said. I really wanna see you enjoy your life bro and I really think its a good idea to try lex. ttyl! (oh and lex is easy to get overseas fyi)
Keep it up (pardon the pun) Poo poo pee dup.... 
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