AnanasBannana
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I don’t have too many questions in relation to my latest trip; I just thought I’d share my latest experience as you guys gave me immeasurable help on my last thread.
Just to give you a slight background on myself: I’m twenty years old and currently working in a “Career Job”. I quit school at seventeen, Valedictorian, because I thought college etc. would be boring and decided to enter the work force.
Since then, I’ve travelled the world quite extensively; I’ve lived in countries where drugs were legal, although I never went near anything stronger than pot.
About six months ago, I tried MDMA for the first time. I tried it three times since then (my second time being an overdose – serotonin syndrome) and decided that there was so much more I could experience.
A week previous, I had tried one blotter and had quite a weak experience (My trip report - http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...g-blotter)-First-Time-Boring-kind-of-confused ). This time, I took a blotter and a half (Cut blotter 2 diagonally) and held it in my mouth for half an hour, then swallowed.
During the first half hour, I started to get quite nervous, so I got out of bed and started to draw (my girlfriend was staying sober to sit me). I felt very different, really concerned, quite cold; I couldn’t get warm enough.
I did a bit of philosophical pandering while watching the room start to breathe. I was listening to the most chilled out music I had on my tablet while doodling, trying to take my mind off my nervousness and my escalating heartbeat.
Then, I started looking at my wooden floor as it started to shift slightly. Suddenly, (hilariously, Frozen’s ‘Let it Go’ had started playing on Spotify) the grains started flowing dramatically, creating amazing patterns of dragons and fire. I focused sharply, and they went away, only to return again.
I started laughing then, the floor was shifting in accordance to the beat of the music (It was like a visualiser). I recall saying, ‘Wow, oh my God!’ endlessly. I had a moment where I tried to pretend to be normal, panicked slightly because I had no control, then released my fears and began to enjoy the experience again.
I sat on the bed, looking at the shifting patterns on the floor. The grains were starting to light up, and tiny bits of dust were now large and spherical balls. I felt like I was observing the entire galaxy from my bed, it was incredible.
My girlfriend and I then went for a walk (It was about 6:00pm at this point and quite dark). Everything was so… sparkly, and incredible! When we were walking down the road towards the park, I started to imagine us becoming old people while walking down the road. My girlfriend became wrinkled and greyed (or, at least I was imagining that she was...)
We walked around for about three hours, which felt like seven. To describe it, it was like seeing everything new for the very first time. At one point, a bunch of kids were shouting at each other and I started to get quite scared. Then, one walked over to us, I was consumed with terror, then he politely asked:
‘Excuse me, sorry, is there any chance I could have a cigarette?’
I was so shocked by how polite he was. I started talking to him, surprisingly, quite lucidly.
I could tell my girlfriend was starting to get bored, so I agreed to go home. I felt like the effects were waning. When we got home, I thought I was pretty much sober in terms of visuals but I still felt weirdly high.
We started to watch some kid’s TV (Avatar) and I was astounded by the artwork… and kind of scared at the fight scenes, they felt quite intense.
After about two hours of TV, she started to settle down to go to bed. This is when I started to get kind of scared, I realised that I couldn’t end the trip even though I’d had enough. I’d gotten so used to the visuals that I didn’t realise I was still tripping. I looked at a picture of a fractal and realised the colours were still running together.
I started to get quite panicked then, and I felt a certain numbness in my arm. I started having terrible thoughts, ‘Is this NBOME? Am I going to die? What if I’ve gone insane and this never ends???’. I looked at my hands, and my left hand looked way bigger than the other, and stuff felt weird when touching it with that hand.
This went on for about three more hours; I just wanted to sleep and was pissed that I couldn’t. I couldn’t even read because the text kept jumping around.
Then, at about 4-5, I just commanded myself to sleep… and I did.
Woke up the next morning, only to realise my numbness was a result of the fact that I had exercised earlier in the day and it was normal muscle soreness… ridiculous!
Overall, I found the experience soothed me all over, and I extremely satisfied. I have no desire to up the dosage, I think I would panic at the idea of being completely out of control and have a terrible experience. I’m thinking about trip sitting my girlfriend close to home one week, then possibly we go out to a forest or somewhere in nature to trip together.
Altogether, this absolutely blows MDMA out of the water. I was happy with my experience but was quite glad when it was over. I think I'll try and find some benzos before my next trip.
Just to give you a slight background on myself: I’m twenty years old and currently working in a “Career Job”. I quit school at seventeen, Valedictorian, because I thought college etc. would be boring and decided to enter the work force.
Since then, I’ve travelled the world quite extensively; I’ve lived in countries where drugs were legal, although I never went near anything stronger than pot.
About six months ago, I tried MDMA for the first time. I tried it three times since then (my second time being an overdose – serotonin syndrome) and decided that there was so much more I could experience.
A week previous, I had tried one blotter and had quite a weak experience (My trip report - http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...g-blotter)-First-Time-Boring-kind-of-confused ). This time, I took a blotter and a half (Cut blotter 2 diagonally) and held it in my mouth for half an hour, then swallowed.
During the first half hour, I started to get quite nervous, so I got out of bed and started to draw (my girlfriend was staying sober to sit me). I felt very different, really concerned, quite cold; I couldn’t get warm enough.
I did a bit of philosophical pandering while watching the room start to breathe. I was listening to the most chilled out music I had on my tablet while doodling, trying to take my mind off my nervousness and my escalating heartbeat.
Then, I started looking at my wooden floor as it started to shift slightly. Suddenly, (hilariously, Frozen’s ‘Let it Go’ had started playing on Spotify) the grains started flowing dramatically, creating amazing patterns of dragons and fire. I focused sharply, and they went away, only to return again.
I started laughing then, the floor was shifting in accordance to the beat of the music (It was like a visualiser). I recall saying, ‘Wow, oh my God!’ endlessly. I had a moment where I tried to pretend to be normal, panicked slightly because I had no control, then released my fears and began to enjoy the experience again.
I sat on the bed, looking at the shifting patterns on the floor. The grains were starting to light up, and tiny bits of dust were now large and spherical balls. I felt like I was observing the entire galaxy from my bed, it was incredible.
My girlfriend and I then went for a walk (It was about 6:00pm at this point and quite dark). Everything was so… sparkly, and incredible! When we were walking down the road towards the park, I started to imagine us becoming old people while walking down the road. My girlfriend became wrinkled and greyed (or, at least I was imagining that she was...)
We walked around for about three hours, which felt like seven. To describe it, it was like seeing everything new for the very first time. At one point, a bunch of kids were shouting at each other and I started to get quite scared. Then, one walked over to us, I was consumed with terror, then he politely asked:
‘Excuse me, sorry, is there any chance I could have a cigarette?’
I was so shocked by how polite he was. I started talking to him, surprisingly, quite lucidly.
I could tell my girlfriend was starting to get bored, so I agreed to go home. I felt like the effects were waning. When we got home, I thought I was pretty much sober in terms of visuals but I still felt weirdly high.
We started to watch some kid’s TV (Avatar) and I was astounded by the artwork… and kind of scared at the fight scenes, they felt quite intense.
After about two hours of TV, she started to settle down to go to bed. This is when I started to get kind of scared, I realised that I couldn’t end the trip even though I’d had enough. I’d gotten so used to the visuals that I didn’t realise I was still tripping. I looked at a picture of a fractal and realised the colours were still running together.
I started to get quite panicked then, and I felt a certain numbness in my arm. I started having terrible thoughts, ‘Is this NBOME? Am I going to die? What if I’ve gone insane and this never ends???’. I looked at my hands, and my left hand looked way bigger than the other, and stuff felt weird when touching it with that hand.
This went on for about three more hours; I just wanted to sleep and was pissed that I couldn’t. I couldn’t even read because the text kept jumping around.
Then, at about 4-5, I just commanded myself to sleep… and I did.
Woke up the next morning, only to realise my numbness was a result of the fact that I had exercised earlier in the day and it was normal muscle soreness… ridiculous!
Overall, I found the experience soothed me all over, and I extremely satisfied. I have no desire to up the dosage, I think I would panic at the idea of being completely out of control and have a terrible experience. I’m thinking about trip sitting my girlfriend close to home one week, then possibly we go out to a forest or somewhere in nature to trip together.
Altogether, this absolutely blows MDMA out of the water. I was happy with my experience but was quite glad when it was over. I think I'll try and find some benzos before my next trip.
Yeah, LSD (and psychedelics in general) are something so unique and beautiful. They can be whatever you make of them. 