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"METHOXETAMINE - A decent into Eternity...and the long way back up!"
SUBSTANCE: Methoxetamine aka. MXE
Dose: 15+20+10+50+55=150mgs (approx.)
Experience Level: thought to be advanced, but...
Well, here i am, still totally lost in thoughts, in my inner self, back from what began almost a year ago...
To start in the very beginning, it's now almost a year since i, long time after most of you, discovered the so-called miracle drug METHOXETAMINE.
A thing, a substance, about which i read just the best. What excited me the most were the comparisons to LSD, and oh wow, they're damn right.
Not just that, what i found in MXE is far beyond everything i ever experienced with any drug, not even LSD comes close...
I've experience in using a ridiculous amount of substances in the past years. I did everything from weed to brugmansia (yes, THE infamous Angel's trumpet) to LSD, shrooms and shitloads of MDMA and amphetamines - a long time ago. About 10 years ago i ceased taking stuff like that, stuck to the only thing really worthwhile for me, weed, and so the time passed by.
Due to very weird circumstances my interest in other drugs flared up just at the beginning of 2011...where i did some experimentation with LSA (HBWR seeds) with mixed results and one really scary but also very deep and insightful experience in the summer of that year, which was at least to an extent, life-changing.
I dunno exactly how my interest in MXE in particular was raised, but i read just very good things about it, being the "new LSD" and so on, and so it came that i got me some of it.
Today i don't really remember my first encounters with it, not in detail, because i had NO CLUE what it was, how it worked and what it did to me. I took it, felt strange, went to bet at some point and it was over...but it wasn't.
These experimentations went further with me taking higher doses and various ROAs, sublingual being the best in my opinion. As i read it was best taking it while laying down, hearing music (and so on) i thought i really did understand some more of how it worked and what it did to me. I enjoyed it...i really enjoyed it. But i didn't knew enough, what is what i know today...
That time i took MXE once a week at mostly lower doses below or max. up to 30mgs.
At that time i noticed some changes around me...or, within me...
My body felt strange somehow, sometimes. It's hard to describe, but today i know it was a higher sense of awareness.
I even opened a thread here @ BL regarding some neuropathic symptoms i experienced. Today i know what it is, what made me feel like that...
...and the whole time i was right, but i wouldn't see it.
This substance opened a door, it opened another eye, not the ones i look through seeing matter, but the one inside of me.
I had some really deep flights with Methoxetamine and sometimes i felt like caught in a loop somehow (something i remember from taking LSD and shrooms in the past), but with MXE i lost my senses, my feelings and understanding of anything at all. Nothing made sense anymore, but yesterday was far beyond that.
Far beyond...
It began really early in the morning, i didn't felt good (thanks to taking way too much opiates the day before) and thought a little bit of MXE could change that.
I did some doses sublingually, perhaps 20mgs at max., rather less, three in total in the space of half an hour.
Later that day i continued with doing 20mgs via plugged admin, followed by another 10mgs a few hours later.
That whole day i was laying on my couch, dazing, watching TV and so on but in fact i was more or less preparing for the night...
Beforehand to dosing 50mgs plugged, i administered 100mgs Tetrazepam and waited till i felt tired and relaxed which was approx. 30 mins later.
I took my dose and laid down...
I cannot comment on what happened and how i felt in detail, i was just very disoriented and lost in nothingness, laying there and listening to music. It was like every other MXE-experience.
As i came to consciousness (more or less) i realized i wanted to take more.
55mgs, same route...
I really crawled myself into my couch, changed positions in an half-awake, feverish-like state, enjoying the waves, the nothingness...the usually.
But then, i dunno how long after the last dose, since i completely lost track of every thought about time and place, i vaporized some weed in my semi-dark room, just lit by the receiver and the dimmed down wallpaper of my tv screen...
...i laid down and got lost.
I was shrinking... It was not that everything around me was shrinking, me, lying there in fetal position, i shrunk down to nothing...and then i felt my body, every piece of muscle, every bit of flesh...the body that was me. I was lying in a cocoon, i wasn't on my couch anymore...i was back, back in my mothers belly...my hands clammy, my heart pounding like a locomotive...my breath shallow...
...and i'm sure -in retrospect- that i didn't breath for some moments...
...and that was the point i lost my ego, the one i was to that point.
I thought about that this is the body i had, lying there in a cocoon...and then i lost it, my mind began to wander, wander within an inner three-dimensional, bizarre place, far beyond every imagination.
The music was so unreal, it actually wasn't what i was listening to beforehand, it was something else...it was just so incredibly bizarre.
Then i felt like if my body began to tilt, it moved, back and down...and then up.
It raised up!
My dear god...
All the time i knew that this is changing me, my life, for ever and ever...even at the point of nothingness, when my soul was there but my ego was lost.
I dunno exactly how long this took because the whole night is a mystery to me, at least until some point early in the morning, almost 24h after taking my first dose.
I haven't slept much afterwards and i'm still now deeply impressed, and truly shocked in a positive way, about what happened.
But i know i ended something, not just the very first Methoxetamine-encounter almost a year ago, but something else deep inside of me.
This has changed me, but also teached me a lesson...
In retrospect i'm really sad about me being so reckless with MXE in the past, dosing it too often, under the week, with no real time to implement the experience, ending trips to find sleep with etizolam, which is in fact no real help because one should go into the experience and out of it, taking time, time to recover, implement, regain consciousness and awareness of everything and what is our place in our lives.
Tetrazepam is a sole recommendation because it doesn't dull the experience in any way, it just relaxes the body, the muscles, but if one is really prepaired (if that is ever possible) even this is not needed as i think.
Weed isn't just a strong potentiator, it's more like a catalyst as i see it...but it can also be a bad choice. So choose wisely!
I really do not recommend taking MXE too often and i cannot understand how people can abuse this substance, i can't even understand me and i didn't binge that much on it.
It's too powerful, way too powerful to play with.
It's not a drug, it's a tool. A multi-function-tool for the mind...
...in the right hands a miracle, in the wrong hands a life-wrecker.
So, Farewell fellow Readers, thanks for the precious time that you offered reading what i've had to say, i hope you enjoyed it...
I need time...time to implement...time to recover.
I wish you all the best!
SUBSTANCE: Methoxetamine aka. MXE
Dose: 15+20+10+50+55=150mgs (approx.)
Experience Level: thought to be advanced, but...
Well, here i am, still totally lost in thoughts, in my inner self, back from what began almost a year ago...
To start in the very beginning, it's now almost a year since i, long time after most of you, discovered the so-called miracle drug METHOXETAMINE.
A thing, a substance, about which i read just the best. What excited me the most were the comparisons to LSD, and oh wow, they're damn right.
Not just that, what i found in MXE is far beyond everything i ever experienced with any drug, not even LSD comes close...
I've experience in using a ridiculous amount of substances in the past years. I did everything from weed to brugmansia (yes, THE infamous Angel's trumpet) to LSD, shrooms and shitloads of MDMA and amphetamines - a long time ago. About 10 years ago i ceased taking stuff like that, stuck to the only thing really worthwhile for me, weed, and so the time passed by.
Due to very weird circumstances my interest in other drugs flared up just at the beginning of 2011...where i did some experimentation with LSA (HBWR seeds) with mixed results and one really scary but also very deep and insightful experience in the summer of that year, which was at least to an extent, life-changing.
I dunno exactly how my interest in MXE in particular was raised, but i read just very good things about it, being the "new LSD" and so on, and so it came that i got me some of it.
Today i don't really remember my first encounters with it, not in detail, because i had NO CLUE what it was, how it worked and what it did to me. I took it, felt strange, went to bet at some point and it was over...but it wasn't.
These experimentations went further with me taking higher doses and various ROAs, sublingual being the best in my opinion. As i read it was best taking it while laying down, hearing music (and so on) i thought i really did understand some more of how it worked and what it did to me. I enjoyed it...i really enjoyed it. But i didn't knew enough, what is what i know today...
That time i took MXE once a week at mostly lower doses below or max. up to 30mgs.
At that time i noticed some changes around me...or, within me...
My body felt strange somehow, sometimes. It's hard to describe, but today i know it was a higher sense of awareness.
I even opened a thread here @ BL regarding some neuropathic symptoms i experienced. Today i know what it is, what made me feel like that...
...and the whole time i was right, but i wouldn't see it.
This substance opened a door, it opened another eye, not the ones i look through seeing matter, but the one inside of me.
I had some really deep flights with Methoxetamine and sometimes i felt like caught in a loop somehow (something i remember from taking LSD and shrooms in the past), but with MXE i lost my senses, my feelings and understanding of anything at all. Nothing made sense anymore, but yesterday was far beyond that.
Far beyond...
It began really early in the morning, i didn't felt good (thanks to taking way too much opiates the day before) and thought a little bit of MXE could change that.
I did some doses sublingually, perhaps 20mgs at max., rather less, three in total in the space of half an hour.
Later that day i continued with doing 20mgs via plugged admin, followed by another 10mgs a few hours later.
That whole day i was laying on my couch, dazing, watching TV and so on but in fact i was more or less preparing for the night...
Beforehand to dosing 50mgs plugged, i administered 100mgs Tetrazepam and waited till i felt tired and relaxed which was approx. 30 mins later.
I took my dose and laid down...
I cannot comment on what happened and how i felt in detail, i was just very disoriented and lost in nothingness, laying there and listening to music. It was like every other MXE-experience.
As i came to consciousness (more or less) i realized i wanted to take more.
55mgs, same route...
I really crawled myself into my couch, changed positions in an half-awake, feverish-like state, enjoying the waves, the nothingness...the usually.
But then, i dunno how long after the last dose, since i completely lost track of every thought about time and place, i vaporized some weed in my semi-dark room, just lit by the receiver and the dimmed down wallpaper of my tv screen...
...i laid down and got lost.
I was shrinking... It was not that everything around me was shrinking, me, lying there in fetal position, i shrunk down to nothing...and then i felt my body, every piece of muscle, every bit of flesh...the body that was me. I was lying in a cocoon, i wasn't on my couch anymore...i was back, back in my mothers belly...my hands clammy, my heart pounding like a locomotive...my breath shallow...
...and i'm sure -in retrospect- that i didn't breath for some moments...
...and that was the point i lost my ego, the one i was to that point.
I thought about that this is the body i had, lying there in a cocoon...and then i lost it, my mind began to wander, wander within an inner three-dimensional, bizarre place, far beyond every imagination.
The music was so unreal, it actually wasn't what i was listening to beforehand, it was something else...it was just so incredibly bizarre.
Then i felt like if my body began to tilt, it moved, back and down...and then up.
It raised up!
My dear god...
All the time i knew that this is changing me, my life, for ever and ever...even at the point of nothingness, when my soul was there but my ego was lost.
I dunno exactly how long this took because the whole night is a mystery to me, at least until some point early in the morning, almost 24h after taking my first dose.
I haven't slept much afterwards and i'm still now deeply impressed, and truly shocked in a positive way, about what happened.
But i know i ended something, not just the very first Methoxetamine-encounter almost a year ago, but something else deep inside of me.
This has changed me, but also teached me a lesson...
In retrospect i'm really sad about me being so reckless with MXE in the past, dosing it too often, under the week, with no real time to implement the experience, ending trips to find sleep with etizolam, which is in fact no real help because one should go into the experience and out of it, taking time, time to recover, implement, regain consciousness and awareness of everything and what is our place in our lives.
Tetrazepam is a sole recommendation because it doesn't dull the experience in any way, it just relaxes the body, the muscles, but if one is really prepaired (if that is ever possible) even this is not needed as i think.
Weed isn't just a strong potentiator, it's more like a catalyst as i see it...but it can also be a bad choice. So choose wisely!
I really do not recommend taking MXE too often and i cannot understand how people can abuse this substance, i can't even understand me and i didn't binge that much on it.
It's too powerful, way too powerful to play with.
It's not a drug, it's a tool. A multi-function-tool for the mind...
...in the right hands a miracle, in the wrong hands a life-wrecker.
So, Farewell fellow Readers, thanks for the precious time that you offered reading what i've had to say, i hope you enjoyed it...
I need time...time to implement...time to recover.
I wish you all the best!
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