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15 days clean & I need your support

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JavInBoston

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Every time I've come here for advice about drugs I have gotten plenty support so now as I try my heart out to stay clean I need your support. I'm 19 years old, started using in high school and was stuck in a downward spiral for years. I'm happy to say that I'm 15 days sober and I feel almost euphoric. The days are getting better and better but what concerns me is that I have been here before and still relapsed. So whatever advice or support you can give me will be greatly appreciated. Or maybe you need advice & I'm happy to answer any questions. Thanks for reading, have a nice day :)
 
I got your back friend. Just remember that you will have PAWS that will come and go. Be prepared for some rough times and some good times.
 
Damn I shoulda posted this in the amphetamine lounge I would've got some support lmao everybody over here is sleeping. What do you mean by PAWS?
 
I was a speed freak though no opiates for me haha 16 days strong :) I think I'm passed the withdrawls, I'm months from the peak of my addiction - since then its been weeks sober at a time. 19 days is my record, I hope I fucking make it, I want to say I know I will.
 
You will-if you are determined to stay clean. Most speed withdrawal is psychological-which doesn't make it easier!

Somethings that are the same whether you r DOC is a stim or an opiate/opioid- erase and block your dealer's number. Avoid hanging out with the people you'd get high with. If this is all your friends, maybe you should start thinking about making other friends. Counseling, therapy anything that may help you figure out why you needed to numb yourself to almost the point of death. NA or Smart recovery if you think you might like 12 step programs. There are a number of community based recovery groups as well.

I'm a fan of anti-depressants but without therapy or counseling, it's just another pill IMO.

Change things for yourself.
 
Thank you sir :) I've changed up all my old habits, hanging out with new people. Taking an EMT course, and I was seeing a therapist but my fucking insurance got cancelled:/. No anti-depressants, no more pills or drugs for me. I can cope when I'm sober and I plan on just being as healthy as I can be to maintain a positive attitude.
 
I've been determined to stay clean for months now & its the only thing that has gotten me on week long stretches of sobriety so it is working. I just need to work on relapse triggers & stopping myself before its too late.. loosing your momentum can be devastating so I hope I'm able to maintain.
 
hell yeah man. keep it that way. may your success be an inspiration to those in need (like myself).

PAWS is a bitch. it really is the hardest part, because of how long it lasts. I feel fine, physically. Compared to acute WD I should be jumping and clicking my heels in the air. BUT to be honest, literally ALL day I have been fighting - and I don't use that word lightly - today (wed) has quite literally been a struggle to avoid searching for drugs. I don't want heroin, I want some benzos and like few perc 30's that I can do bumps off of for the rest of the night. I just have to keep telling myself it's not going to be worth it, because of where I will be tomorrow, or basically when my stash runs out.

?God I wish I was just 16 again and was just smoking pot all the time. I can't even pick up video games these days as I just lose interest in the first 15 minutes.
 
19 days man you can fucking do it, you need to tell yourself this everyday its one of the biggest factors in my success thus-far. I just tell myself YOU CAN RESIST, YOU CAN QUIT, YOU CAN DO IT and I'm telling you man it helps. As for fighting that super powerful sensation/urge to use you need to distract yourself right away, call a friend or family member just to talk, order a pizza or treat yourself to dinner, do online shopping. ANYTHING that takes your mind off of that train of thought, also lastly my dad taught me this mindfulness trick- Everytime you picture the drug in your mind, cover it with a mental image of a skull and cross bones so that you learn to associate the drug with a negative feeling. Peace be with you brotha :) update me on your story
 
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