10.6.06 Silence

[-Pictu-]

I have been living in this state [of mind]
for two months now.
The bus driver on route 26 won't stop staring at me
My conditioner stopped conditioning three weeks ago and
you're living in Idaho.
Who lives in Idaho?

Honestly, I don't think about you anymore.
It's just that...
I haven't written a thing since last we spoke.
[No one will know it's me, right?]
11.16.04
That's almost two years.
I'm trapped here under this rock
-mute, cold, hands-bound-
I feel like you were the only thing keeping me going.
Truly I don't miss you, but
I do miss the words flowing through me.
I used to be able to reach out
-rearrange-
and have something to say.

You used to come around to read
my current thought-patterns.
These days, my mind is full [empty?] of noise
If I said I believe now, would you come back?
If I said I'm once again living in the dark
would you care?
If I said I no longer love you, would you believe me?
I don't need you.
I need your inspiration.

 

[(Wordy)]

I would say welcome to Words, but after reading your other post, I take it "Welcome back" would be more appropriate?

I like the ambiguities of this piece... the way it portrays unsettled mind, paradox... the dualities and duplicities in things, on a very personal level.

I found these lines really powerful:

Truly I don't miss you, but
I do miss the words flowing through me.
I used to be able to reach out
-rearrange-
and have something to say.

 

[katmeow]

I don't need you.
I need your inspiration.

I know that feeling.

Please post some more! I dig your style

 

[up all night]

I loved this not only because I know where you're coming from, but because its simplicity and truth is so powerful. Just the sort of thing I like to read.

edit: I just realised who you are. No wonder I liked it.

 

[Raz]

I love this piece, it's really honest....it's hard to get past that feeling..