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1 year clean today!!!

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Stormy32

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Wow! What a feeling. Can't believe I made it an entire year. I was addicted to opiates. Going cold turkey from those babies was HELL and I never want to go through that again. I never want to live the life style of a drug addict again either. I hope this gives hope to anyone out there who thinks they can't do this. I am STILL not right in my head. I don't if I ever will be to be totally honest. I know I suffered at terrible case of PAWS. I didn't do this on my own. I don't think it's possible. I have a lot of family support, I go to meetings EVERY day. I read my big book. I work my steps. It's hard work, but so worth the life I have now. It's not perfect, it never will be. But it IS so much better than the life style I was leading. The stealing, the lying, the deceit. I hated who I was. Anyways, I just wanted to say the old cliche, if I can do it, anyone can. And that is the damn truth. I love BL. I only wish I would of found it earlier. I watched from afar for years with out ever logging in or posting. I <3 ya'll, even if you think you haven't helped me in any way, you have. All of ya'll have. Thank you!!!
 
Congratulations!

Yesterday was two months for me.

Keep stringing those 24 hour blocks together!

:)
 
Congrats Jungle!! I will never shut the door on what I use to be, and you are totally right, keep stringing those 24 hours together....if need keep stringing seconds together. Whatever it takes. This is the battle of a lifetime, for your life. These drugs are trying to KILL us. If someone was standing their with a knife to kill you, you wouldn't just stand their and take it. Hell naww, you would FIGHT for you LIFE!!! YOU ARE ALL FAR TOO PRECIOUS to be killed by these drugs. Much <3 to ya'll
 
Congrats amigo!

I have about 9 months since I last used anything besides my prescribed suboxone, or marijuana. That itself has been hard enough, so the accomplishment you've mad is nothing short of spectacular.

Keep it up. It cliche really is true to: being sober ruins getting high. Because when someone goes back out there after that, they regret it more than they enjoy it.

Keep it up. Also remember that if you fuck up, its NOT THE END OF THE WORLD! One fuck up does not mean to surrender your future. Although I pray that you will not ever have that next fuck up.

Keep the ball rolling, inertia amigo. Once it starts moving (either way) its impossible to slow it down without actively trying to.
 
DooMMOd that is awesome! We all have to start somewhere. 9 months is something to be DAMN PROUD OF!! I love what you said.....I have never heard that before. I just know that I never want to go back out there. And yes, I have learned from the start that if I fuck up, it doesn't mean THE END. It means I get up and do it again. Did once, do it twice. That is what my home group always says and I live it, breath it, eat it and sleep it. Did it once, do it twice.

I will absolutely keep this up.....if I go back out there, it will SURELY kill me......
 
Stormy, great to read a success story once in a while. There aren't enough of them. Those that get clean tend to move on with their lives and leave their old haunts behind IME so you just don't hear from them again, which leaves you with those still struggling with their addiction and their set-backs so it sometimes seems like noone ever makes it. Proof positive it can be done! You're clearly chuffed to bits with yourself, and rightly so. One year clean of opiates for a former addict is one hell of an achievement, you deserve some kudos for that mate, you really do. It's hard as hell and takes real guts and perseverance but you did it. Will all be so much easier now, you're never gonna have to cope with a year as hard as that again if you stay strong and keep on moving forward. Before you know it you'll be looking back trying to work out how long it is since you came off, and you'll be stunned when you realise it's 10 years behind you. 11-ish years for me, never looked back once I'd made the decision I was quitting it for good this time, whatever appeal heroin once had gone forever to be replaced by genuine disgust at the thought of even using again. That will be you too someday, sooner than you might think. Best of luck fella, keep on going with it. My best to you. :)
 
Congratulations Stormy,well done mate. Its not easy getting off the drugs at all cos they suck you in.
I am one month & 6 days clean of heroin which seems like an age to me but as has already been said I'm gonna keep going 24hours a time.
Wasted over 11years to heroin so I think its time I done something else with my life now.
Once again, well done man.
 
Sepher~ You nailed it! This was the hardest year of my life....EVER! But, I made it through and I am not looking back. You are so right, whatever appeal heroin had on me, is now revolting and makes me want to vomit. All of the drugs I did make me sick. They made me sick! I thank you for your well wishes, means a lot to me :)
 
Stormy32 said:
Congrats Jungle!! I will never shut the door on what I use to be, and you are totally right, keep stringing those 24 hours together....if need keep stringing seconds together. Whatever it takes. This is the battle of a lifetime, for your life. These drugs are trying to KILL us. If someone was standing their with a knife to kill you, you wouldn't just stand their and take it. Hell naww, you would FIGHT for you LIFE!!! YOU ARE ALL FAR TOO PRECIOUS to be killed by these drugs. Much <3 to ya'll
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I really enjoyed the determination you show in this post. Congratulations Stormy and everyone else fighting the good fight! Great job guys!
 
Doing right now, day two forced sober no cash left it feels like someone is scraping my bones with a dull knife right now. It hurts to move my arms and type on my crapy cell phone. Good luck buddy bless your heart.
 
That's awesome stormy!! Got a year myself (except I'm on suboxone). Can't imagine what true PAWS is like. I deal with anxiety/depression as it is. Big ups to you and keep it up!!
 
I got 9 months on the 5th of oct. Its been a phenomenal journey. Did you get your glow in the dark keytag? That shits badass and i look forward to getting mine on january 5th. One day at a time. I saw someone get their 10 year coin today, and all of us have the capacity to get one as well. Just gotta be patient and faithful to the program. :)

Edit: now you can have your cake AND eat it too :P. What kinda cake you get?
 
Stormy, what an achievement.
Good on you :)
Thank you very much for shining some light in The Dark Side :) I am sure your words will inspire plenty.
 
GOod stuff man, iv been clean for a few months but im still not feeling good from life yet :| Its kind of frustrating, sometimes i feel like going back. q.q
 
I don't think there is any more clear example of the courage, stamina, perseverance and strength that human beings are capable of than the person that fights addiction. The battle is fought on so many levels--physical, psychological, spiritual. Staying in the present is something that we humans all struggle with. We are constantly imagining the future while rehashing the past and all of that serves to sever us from the present--which is where we need to be. Taking life one minute, one hour or one day at a time is a good strategy for battling cravings, but it is so much more than that. It is mind-training for how to live in your own body and emotions within the short span of time you actually get this messy miracle of life. I am so humbled to be present with all who share their struggles and triumphs as they chart their private journeys within, and beyond, addiction. Never underestimate the power that it took/takes to get where you are. Congratulations, Stormy, and please add my voice to the chorus of thank you's for writing about it. We can all help each other, but those who share the experience can help the most. I salute you all. <3
 
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