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#1 reason why you wish u never tried opiates

Because now I know where to go to be without depression, be without anxiety, not lose my creativity, be able to sleep, escape all my troubles...
Be without any money lol ..

Then on the other hand, the withdrawal brings everything screaming to a hault and all of my problems come flooding back.

It's a very intense love / hate relationship :|
 
desaparecidos said:
well i hear what a lot of you guys are saying. opiates are my thing, but with the argument "i wish i never tried them because now real life wont be as good without them" i dont really understand. even if you have to quit them because they ruined your life, you got to feel something physically and mentally that not many people have before. that warm blanket of hope, dreams, and comforting seclusion that is opiates. why would you give that up? fine you fucked your life up and now you dont do them anymore, dont take that expirence away. ever.
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I hear what you are saying, and you describe the feeling very well, but it is incredibly fleeting, and difficult to duplicate without taking an actual opiate. That said, the best thing I got out of opiates was learning just how strong I really am, when I got clean cold turkey, without even any benzos. And, as it has been two years for me, with just an occasional "cheat", I have also learned how to live and be fairly content without them. But, as I said, nothing quite duplicates that feeling, so to me, the nostalgia for it is dangerous. Your mileage may vary.
 
Opiates might soften me up, I get migranes and have constant odd pains. And they work so well that I can just get on with my day if my body is hurtin. before I had to just pull through and gut it out, but hell now i have a cure :P
 
#1 Reason? Addiction

But I don't regret trying them or any of the other drugs I've tried, I've learned something from all of them. I've also learned I can quit every drug with relative ease except opiates (and benzos I guess).

I do love that opiates taught me what it feels like to be completely anxiety and pain free and still be able to function like normal.

I hate that once you know what a true opiate high feels like it will always call to you, I just tried H for the first time a few days ago after tapering to nearly nothing on Subs and almost being home free. The cravings got the better of me, but fuck it feels so good to be high again. I should come back and answer this question again in a few years and see if my answer is different. I should also answer it when I'm not high.
 
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Because even though after 5 years I still get the same pain relief/high from the same dose of the same weak opiate, I can't go 4 hours without dosing or my nose runs/need to run to the bathroom, headache......I'm on 30mg's hydrocodone a day along with 10 prescribed 30mg morphine sulphate IR (a month) for "breakthrough" pain.
 
Cause I can't shake the feeling that the worst part is still ahead.

edit: i just tried to shoot up in 4 different veins with a 22G, dorsal hands and feet and failed miserably once again - I will be bruised for days. there werent even any benefits over oral use since tramadol needs to be metabolized for it to be fun. im just drawn to the thought of self destruction i guess. this guy in a documentary i recently saw said: "being on it is like mommy's hug and being without it is like daddy's slap". i loved that.

edit2: despite that im gonna try to study medicine, beginning on oct 4th. theres also an adorable daughter present and a freakish relationshit to her mother who i live with. But after all, no matter what happens and how much I try to avoid or work towards it - either way it'll end up as part of my life - And it's gonna be exciting! ... God those bruises will be bugging me. no idea how people inject iv properly, i guess im just using the wrong size of needle, didnt have that much trouble with vit b12 through insuline needles

omg finally some information, never was able to find anything proper on here...

http://hubpages.com/hub/Starting-an-IV

well at least im itching now. my left hand and both feet do hurt though and will be bruised for a week and at least the hand will have to be explained over and over and over to ym patients. but god the itch and the warmth. im one of the lucky one with lots of the good enzyme and little of the bad one i guess. :D id prefer tram to every other opioid ive tried besides piritramid.
 
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One word? Have to agree with unsettled here...addiction...

I wish I would have never felt that first honeymoon period of euphoria that left me chasing after it. If I had never known that feeling than I would have never got caught up in the addiction battle I am currently in. I wouldn't have to taper and deal with withdrawals. I wouldn't have to deal with my emotional well being being dependent on drugs to create happiness. I don't have as long a history as some with opiates, but enough to know that in the end the payoff is too much. I remember my life before vicodin, codeine, and pods and though it wasn't perfect it was a hell of a lot better than this. That's okay, I will get that life back, but I know I will always remember the euphoric rush that the opiates first brought me and therefore I will always have to fight to push this addiction out of my thoughts.
 
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