#1 and #2 (squared)

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

TV in front of me-
YOU behind me-
opened beer to the side
and two left in my bookbag.
joint in my pocket.
waiting for the right time,
to smoke it.
and just before i sat down here
i went over to the bed,
shook you lightly.
to ask you two things:
number 1
why, when you have a girlfriend,
do you tell people you are single?
and
number 2
what time do you have work,
cause you didn't set the alarm right...
I'm not going to sit here and fight
with you.
to answer either question.
-just mumble words and move around
til you find contentment.
I'll just sit here.
Get up to go to the bathroom
and when you come back up
ignore me, crawl back in bed.
And hide.
And i wish i knew what time this stupid alarm had to be set for
because i'd probably set it for
an hour and a half early.
to get you to leave sooner.
And i heard this song today,
this gut sang:
"you learned how to cry in total silence"
Oh, how i can relate.
Because here I am, between commerical break
and tv show,
shaking without control,
fighting back my sobbing tears
just so you won't hear
(me cry over you)
...you turn to me and say...
"what's wrong with you now?"
sarcastically.
when really,
we both know why it is...
there's just no explaination for it.
I'm not a stupid bitch
I sense what's going on.
I'm just too stubborn to walk away
from all of this.
Without questioning....
WHY ME?
I love you.
I don't think I did anything wrong to you
Actually, I KNOW i didn't.
So why disrespect me.
I don't really think you are,
who you were.
Because I believe people change.
Take me, for goodness sake!
A sickening #-
not countable on an army's fingers and toes
But God knows,
if he exsists
that I wouldn't lie to you.
not now.
Am I just another girl,
you lay your lines too?
Because you of all people should know,
I don't fall for shit like that.
I created those lines, and excuses.
But I'm done with all of that.
Because I realized what love is.
And how much it means.
And how much I want other people to see
it.
And if so-
that i'm just one of those girls
Then i think i deserve to know,
just two things.
number 1
who the fuck has hurt you so badly
in the past
that this is your only defense?
and
number 2
why do i deserve this aweful revenge?

 

[E-girl]

Because I believe people change.
...i believed that too. they dont.
people change temporarily, to show you a side of them they WANT you to see and fall in love with. but what it comes down to is, no matter how sweet and loving and dedicated they are in the beginning, they will eventually go back to the way they once were. that's what i know NOW.
no, ryan, i am not directly attacking you (in case you read this)... i think all 4 of us know where my experience lies....
*cough*onceacheateralwaysacheater*cough*

who the fuck has hurt you so badly
in the past
that this is your only defense?
...oh come on now, i'll give you 3 guesses... the first 2 don't count...

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

*cough*onceacheateralwaysacheater*cough*
please don't say that
I've changed my cheatin' ways

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

oh, and one more thing to *someone*
(you know who you are )
don't take this as badgering, as you may.
it's my writing, my own interpretation,
of a moment i put to writing.
you are absolutely terrific. :D

 

[frostyangel]

But God knows,
if he exsists
that I wouldn't lie to you.
not now.
You have some good words.. you express you emotions well..
I really enjoyed this piece. I hope you get the answers your looking for. It might be hard but they'll come sooner or later.

 

[katmeow]

Am I just another girl,
you lay your lines too?
****
And if so-
that i'm just one of those girls
Then i think i deserve to know,
just two things.
number 1
who the fuck has hurt you so badly
in the past
that this is your only defense?
and
number 2
why do i deserve this aweful revenge?[/QB]
I feel you there.