Well I had also 2 good days. Not suicidal, not really depressed. And for some reason now, I'm sinking again. I had my hopes up that the meds were working. I was only like a 2 or 3 out of 5 on suicidal, but when I read this.
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=410846
I had to stop and think. I may ruin and hate my life, why do it to someone else. I guess maybe its something I should re-read later huh?
Or do it far far away so my family doesn't find me. But someone has to ID the body and the funeral and all that. I posted on the thread on the outcome of me not being here COULD be...its not pretty...
Idk, Ambien and sleep and make the pain go away.
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=410846
I had to stop and think. I may ruin and hate my life, why do it to someone else. I guess maybe its something I should re-read later huh?
Or do it far far away so my family doesn't find me. But someone has to ID the body and the funeral and all that. I posted on the thread on the outcome of me not being here COULD be...its not pretty...
Idk, Ambien and sleep and make the pain go away.