Didn't sleep good last night, been thinking about the whole situation in turning myself in monday.
shit sucks, but before i can move any further in my recovery i'm going to have to knock out this legal shit. Going to spend some time in jail over it.
I'm going to still have my bed here in the halfway house, and everything. so that's reassuring for me when I get out of jail.
I'll be leaving tommorow mid morning sometime, my sponsor is picking me up, and taking me to the jail. so I can do my time. I havn't told my parents yet, don't really want to get em all stressed, and don't want to get them more $$$ involved in me then they already are. I don't have a bond to bail out, so it sucks, but it's for the best. It will be a damn good clean living experience to tell others when I get out.
gotta overcome this fear, shit isn't good for me. so going to face FEAR damnit. I don't like it, since i'm working on building a new me, er well recovering the old me. I gotta learn to live without fear in my life. and all the unhealthy shit.
I'm still living in fear today, trying to get through it. I'm working through it by being aggresive, and in the long run i know the shits going to start problems, but for the moment it's helping me get through the feeling of feeling "lessthan".
finished up the seminar today, went good. the instructor went in detail into steps 6-12. got a certificate, and signed up to get 10 hours of credit. to count towards my future addiction counsler.
going to a meeting tonight, 6pm and 7pm.
keep me in ur thoughts, i might add later to this, loves u all.
Drewpy
shit sucks, but before i can move any further in my recovery i'm going to have to knock out this legal shit. Going to spend some time in jail over it.
I'm going to still have my bed here in the halfway house, and everything. so that's reassuring for me when I get out of jail.
I'll be leaving tommorow mid morning sometime, my sponsor is picking me up, and taking me to the jail. so I can do my time. I havn't told my parents yet, don't really want to get em all stressed, and don't want to get them more $$$ involved in me then they already are. I don't have a bond to bail out, so it sucks, but it's for the best. It will be a damn good clean living experience to tell others when I get out.
gotta overcome this fear, shit isn't good for me. so going to face FEAR damnit. I don't like it, since i'm working on building a new me, er well recovering the old me. I gotta learn to live without fear in my life. and all the unhealthy shit.
I'm still living in fear today, trying to get through it. I'm working through it by being aggresive, and in the long run i know the shits going to start problems, but for the moment it's helping me get through the feeling of feeling "lessthan".
finished up the seminar today, went good. the instructor went in detail into steps 6-12. got a certificate, and signed up to get 10 hours of credit. to count towards my future addiction counsler.
going to a meeting tonight, 6pm and 7pm.
keep me in ur thoughts, i might add later to this, loves u all.
Drewpy
