well where to start,.
well have zero food, so it sucks. theres food in the fridge and in the pantry but it isn't mine. it's my room mates, and we are beefing at the moment.
he's ex-army and thinks that he can fucking control everything. fuck that i'm not letting him control me.
so he's got food in there, but i'm not going to touch it. no matter how hungry i am. i'm just going to have to deal with it.
i havn't eatn anything in the past 48 hours besides a little can of beany weenies.
shit sucks because i'm hungry.
i should've had foodstamps but the bitchs at the foodstamp office are fucking stupid.
theres something about me, its hard for me to go ask people for food, because they will look at me like i'm worth nothing.
so i dunno. maybe it's a pride thing, i guess i really wont know until i work the steps.
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on the other note, going to be working with my sponsor tonight, he's pretty cool. used to be on heroin and is a little bit older then me. so he knows sorta what i'm going through. he's going to bring me a ps2 game because my 360 is getting worked on.
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been working a little today, digging a septic tank it seems like, a shit pipe busted and i'm having to dig around it, and under it, getting shit water all over the place. shit sucks lol.
but its service work man, im not getting paid for it. so thats something pretty cool i guess.
ground was frozen this morning so i couldn't do anything, so i had to wait till later before i did anything.
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yeah going on 3 weeks sober now, almost a month, 2/3/11 is my 30days so dont feel like doing the math. working one day at a time. one minute at a time.
well have zero food, so it sucks. theres food in the fridge and in the pantry but it isn't mine. it's my room mates, and we are beefing at the moment.
he's ex-army and thinks that he can fucking control everything. fuck that i'm not letting him control me.
so he's got food in there, but i'm not going to touch it. no matter how hungry i am. i'm just going to have to deal with it.
i havn't eatn anything in the past 48 hours besides a little can of beany weenies.
shit sucks because i'm hungry.
i should've had foodstamps but the bitchs at the foodstamp office are fucking stupid.
theres something about me, its hard for me to go ask people for food, because they will look at me like i'm worth nothing.
so i dunno. maybe it's a pride thing, i guess i really wont know until i work the steps.
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on the other note, going to be working with my sponsor tonight, he's pretty cool. used to be on heroin and is a little bit older then me. so he knows sorta what i'm going through. he's going to bring me a ps2 game because my 360 is getting worked on.
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been working a little today, digging a septic tank it seems like, a shit pipe busted and i'm having to dig around it, and under it, getting shit water all over the place. shit sucks lol.
but its service work man, im not getting paid for it. so thats something pretty cool i guess.
ground was frozen this morning so i couldn't do anything, so i had to wait till later before i did anything.
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yeah going on 3 weeks sober now, almost a month, 2/3/11 is my 30days so dont feel like doing the math. working one day at a time. one minute at a time.