When it rains it fucking pours, eh.
This smacked up asshole wrote to me on facebook, now granted I didn't know he was that evil when i had sent him the request back in around Oct. After he completely ruined my life, my hope and my clean time (well yeah so that was my fault too, I can't keep blaming everyone else..) I finally got to see what a completely bad influence he was on me. I can't figure out what he was using me for though, it wasn't sex so what was it just a power trip?
I feel like shit tonight, it's four days and counting and I'm online so I won't do anything stupid.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
I need help but I can't go away anywhere, cause of the case coming up and cause I won't lose the very people in my life that matter. Plus they don't let you smoke enough in there..
I want to scream
I want to cry
And fuck I want to hurt myself
This sucks, I thought things would get better being clean, and yes I know things take time.
*I hate asking for help but please if anyway on has gone through this or just has any tips. I need help getting through this one..
I don't want to lose my daughter, she's my world but I'm in a spot where I'm starting to feel that maybe she's better off not being with me, and she's the only reason I'm still here trying and fighting..*
This smacked up asshole wrote to me on facebook, now granted I didn't know he was that evil when i had sent him the request back in around Oct. After he completely ruined my life, my hope and my clean time (well yeah so that was my fault too, I can't keep blaming everyone else..) I finally got to see what a completely bad influence he was on me. I can't figure out what he was using me for though, it wasn't sex so what was it just a power trip?
I feel like shit tonight, it's four days and counting and I'm online so I won't do anything stupid.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
I need help but I can't go away anywhere, cause of the case coming up and cause I won't lose the very people in my life that matter. Plus they don't let you smoke enough in there..
I want to scream
I want to cry
And fuck I want to hurt myself
This sucks, I thought things would get better being clean, and yes I know things take time.
*I hate asking for help but please if anyway on has gone through this or just has any tips. I need help getting through this one..
I don't want to lose my daughter, she's my world but I'm in a spot where I'm starting to feel that maybe she's better off not being with me, and she's the only reason I'm still here trying and fighting..*