1.16.02

[kellbelle]

I want to write you a huge long letter, that tells you all the words I cannot say to you. They would have been words of love, admiration. Words of hopes and dreams. Now they are words of hurt and pain. Anger and sorrow. This would be the kind of letter you keep folded in your wallet, that you bring out when you feel like maybe you made the wrong decision. You know which one I mean. The one where you chose her over me. The one where you chose comfort over uncertainty. The one where you tore open my chest, ripped out my still beating heart, and did the flamenco dance on it. The one where you just may have passed up true love. But I'm not writing it. Not for you at least. I'm still trying to dust off my dirty heart. Maybe you will see it someday, but not now. You don't deserve it.
[ 17 January 2002: Message edited by: kellbelle ]

 

[ilikesmack]

I feel for ya kellbelle... it has been 4 months since my wife told me the news, and not a day goes by that i question what i did wrong. but... tomorrow is another day.
You and I, along with many other good people in this world, are above these frail people who attempt to call themselves "human"
even though i dislike sports i saw a quote by Vince Lambardi once that has stuck with me for a good part of my adolescence up til now(im 23)
"The true achievment isn't in never falling, it is rising up after the fall that shows true strength"

 

[kellbelle]

Thank you. Like they say, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. I sure hope that is the case for the both of us.
kel

 

[E-girl]

wish i could be as strong as you, girlie.
keep that attitude... it will get you far in life. believe that you are better than the people that hurt you, and dont give them a second glance. i learned the hard way that there are some things you just cant dwell upon.
and you know what? his day will come. he doesnt need to pull a letter out of his wallet... one day he will just realize what he lost out on... what he passed up. i truly believe that. his heart will be tortured, and you dont have to do a damn thing. it will be his turn to hurt.
you're too strong to let anyone do that to you. i wish you all the luck in the world sweetie.

 

[kellbelle]

I was having a not so good day today, and I came here and read what you wrote to me, and I seriously started to cry. Thank you so much....you guys rock. :D
kel

 

[amber ::]

made he doesnt need a letter.. just a slap to the face. or maybe...
its karma.
/shrugs.

 

[Noodle]

Time heals all.