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guess who relapsed?? man I find the most stupid excuses, I have sleep and stomach issues lately, so the best cure for both in my case? opioids... I was thinking about oxy 4 hours ago at 5 AM, but I said nooooo, I'm working on an app project so no time for noding, so I've been depressed a little lately since I quit in the winter, my mind quickly jumped to the conclusion that tramadol is the solution, good snri a little euphoria here there.

so I've been pacing between 6 and 7 am in the room, thinking about when will the pharmacies open up and which one will serve me more likely without a script, so I got the google maps out of my pocket *bam bam*, 8 am.... so pacing again, started undressing while contradicting myself, got my jeans up, sat down and started thinking more, well my stupid brain said that if I got in my jean I may as well go :ROFLMAO: :ROFLMAO: :ROFLMAO: :ROFLMAO: never ever did I find such an excuse, so checked google maps again, wrote pharmacies, made a quick scheme about which one makes the less money( in the sense that it has lots of other pharmacies nearby with better prices) , knows me less and is not a part from a huge chain, at 8 am I was out the door, at 8:15 am I was back in the house with a pack of 30 pills, in my calculus it seems like if I take these for 5 days I'm back to square one so I'm gonna space it out ( although this leads to making exceptions....... )
 
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LadyAlkaline said:
Assclap, I never made a fucking personals ad here stating I'm looking to be raped and beaten.

There was a thread asking about people's fantasies and I responded. How you think this is harmful to anyone is beyond me.

As far as you, Daisy, you're a middle aged, washed up has been who relives her glory days of having her lovely little "mod stick" and you seem to do nothing but complain about how the site is running, yet do NOTHING to add any quality to any of the threads.

I have felt your contempt for me for awhile, and decided to take the high road.

You're a desperate, lonely, aging attention whore. Pick yourself up off of the floor, slag, and straighten your crown. Jesus fucking christ. Not sure why your old account was banned, but the second ban is long overdue. You cause so much drama, it has turned me off of the site for awhile now.

I am with @CoastTwoCoast bless her beautiful soul. She is gone for reasons like this and I shall be also.

I dislike drama, but I will always stand up for myself.

With that said,
I'm out of here.

Fuck you.
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Lovely.

While u have right to your opinion, it doesnt mean it matters to me, because you don't.


:)
 
LadyAlkaline said:
Assclap, I never made a fucking personals ad here stating I'm looking to be raped and beaten.

There was a thread asking about people's fantasies and I responded. How you think this is harmful to anyone is beyond me.

As far as you, Daisy, you're a middle aged, washed up has been who relives her glory days of having her lovely little "mod stick" and you seem to do nothing but complain about how the site is running, yet do NOTHING to add any quality to any of the threads.

I have felt your contempt for me for awhile, and decided to take the high road.

You're a desperate, lonely, aging attention whore. Pick yourself up off of the floor, slag, and straighten your crown. Jesus fucking christ. Not sure why your old account was banned, but the second ban is long overdue. You cause so much drama, it has turned me off of the site for awhile now.

I am with @CoastTwoCoast bless her beautiful soul. She is gone for reasons like this and I shall be also.

I dislike drama, but I will always stand up for myself.

With that said,
I'm out of here.

Fuck you.
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BLers seem to be oddly puritanical for a bunch of people hanging around a drugs forum don't they? I got hate for stating I watch kinky porn in that SLR thread too. One lovely chap told me my girlfriend is a whore who got raped as a kid because she's into BDSM. Lovely...

Sure you know this already but the kind of fantasies you have are not even that unusual.

I hope you don't leave BL @LadyAlkaline, me and others like you around here. Ignore the trolls.
 
Asclepius said:
Not all but you cant have people posting about shit like Lady Alkaline, about 'looking to be raped and beaten', on here and no moderation - yet long term users on here have had to deal with sexual abuse and assault - are you fucking kidding me? - its beyond dysfunctional - this place has enabled alot of seriously dysfunctional and antisocial people, to the detrement of people with addictions that are looking for support and hindered because of the dysfunctional culture that has been enabled by staff on here.
Is anyone held accountabvle in this place for human welfare - or do a few of us have to get together and take this further...wtf? I dont wan tthat to happen but there seems to be no/little ethical stance on this site - I am in no way stringent re. peoples self expression but the fact that people on here have trauma and distress and yet sociopaths are let to run loose on these threads with their shit, with no oversight, is beyond distressing. Wtf is happening to this place???
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Alkaline smells like an alt , pretty obv whose if that's the case so ignore it.
@TheLoveBandit, has had enough irritation from my rhetoric and dismissed/ignored others so the chance of any one left who has the energy and/or willingness to beat a dead horse is up against the wall of denial, trust me plenty of former staff have expressed their same view and not directed at the admin, I mean xolorth is vocal and active here and that is a good thing, he's not the only admin and they do things as a group so shouldn't be targeted as that might discourage him from being here. No one wants that, I don't anyway, bloke is funny and nice but yeah the blind eye shows more from him as he is out here. The rest are just as blind or more so. Fuck knows where @Sadie is or what @S.J.B. thinks about the overall bl thing, would love to hear it yet don't think it's going to happen and shouldn't be nagged for.


Basically if shit walked around on the bottom of someone's shoe has been let go by a multitude of senior staff/admin change and ignored so obviously, there's got to be a good reason for that.

Even admin stepped down didn't get rid of the problem and are fully aware of it. Maybe they can't or won't to save face?

That's their choice, mate. Whatever the affect that has on bl is on them, good or bad.


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Asclepius said:
Sorry, to correct what I had posted, it was ' post your dirtiest sexual fantasies thread' Schizo talked about rape and LA said about the former.
I aint no prude, despite misgivings and we all have etreme issues on here so not being an asshole but the fact that grown women on here dont hav eany boundarie - i can not tollerate - especially wowen who are responsible for kids that talk lie fucking psyhos - no, no tolerance for that shit! Also, the fact that mods are not keeping an eye on fucking beyond perverted shit on here, in other threads outside TL - has anyone any experience of life the fuck at all?? ugh rant/
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So let me see if I can plot out the chain of events here yeah?
  1. You go to a thread entitled "dirtiest sexual fantasies"
  2. People accordingly post their dirtiest sexual fantasies
  3. You get real angry over the dirty sexual fantasies strangers on the internet have posted in a thread specifically asking about dirty sexual fantasies
  4. Now you're here whining and blaming the mods for not deleting anything you dislike instead of just not clicking on the thread
That about cover everything?

I have to say you come off pretty sheltered if it's breaking news to you that rape fantasies exist. They're very common and there's far more fucked up shit people fantasise about and admit to online. As long as anything happening IRL is between consenting adults where's the problem?

I've done rape roleplays before with most girls I've seen with because it was their fantasy, obviously since it was roleplay it was actually consensual. Plenty of fun had by all though. Much more common fantasy than you think.
 
Asclepius said:
Not all but you cant have people posting about shit like Lady Alkaline, about 'looking to be raped and beaten', on here and no moderation - yet long term users on here have had to deal with sexual abuse and assault - are you fucking kidding me? - its beyond dysfunctional - this place has enabled alot of seriously dysfunctional and antisocial people, to the detrement of people with addictions that are looking for support and hindered because of the dysfunctional culture that has been enabled by staff on here.
Is anyone held accountabvle in this place for human welfare - or do a few of us have to get together and take this further...wtf? I dont wan tthat to happen but there seems to be no/little ethical stance on this site - I am in no way stringent re. peoples self expression but the fact that people on here have trauma and distress and yet sociopaths are let to run loose on these threads with their shit, with no oversight, is beyond distressing. Wtf is happening to this place???
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I agree. Often, I feel worse for having logged onto to BL. And it's quite funny: i've often tore my own self down for having convictions and elementary moralities that I did not question. Turns out, sometimes I can become "all-too-moral" when others show such depreciation of themselves. I will not tolerate self abuse, nor will I tolerate petulant posturing that seeks instant gratification of owns ego.

In your case, you seem to have issues with modding. I suppose I don't because I dont care enough about this site. But damn, some of you lack moral class, and I don't want to look down upon you: but you force me to. Is it snobby? Sure. But what's the alternative? To devolve myself? I don't think so.
 
schizopath said:
Definitely. Want me to share some wisdom? Gonna do it anyway. Worlds revolves around giving caring and taking. Not mine.

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I think what the slav is trying to say is "the love you make is equal to the love you take"

But I'd take it a step further and say always leave it better than you found it.
 
Last thing I'm gonna say on the matter: rape is always bad, very very bad, horrific and deplorable. I don't want to get into it but I'm aware there was some stuff that happened offsite with some members. For me I didn't know these people and it was all hearsay so all I could really say is, take it off-site. Over time I saw enough to make up my mind. You'll perhaps notice that certain people are no longer here, and are no longer a mod. So maybe just consider that a victory and move on (please please?) As I said, mods aren't perfect, we're people, and we're trying to balance the desires of hundreds of people, all of whom we only know through their online personas.

On the other hand whatever 2 consenting adults choose to do with each other sexually is their business, and if they post about it in a thread asking people to post about their sexual fetishes, that's not a problem, either. What is a problem is trying to make someone feel dirty/like a whore/morally wrong for it. Bottom line.

fuckpete said:
guess who relapsed?? man I find the most stupid excuses, I have sleep and stomach issues lately, so the best cure for both in my case? opioids... I was thinking about oxy 4 hours ago at 5 AM, but I said nooooo, I'm working on an app project so no time for noding, so I've been depressed a little lately since I quit in the winter, my mind quickly jumped to the conclusion that tramadol is the solution, good snri a little euphoria here there.

so I've been pacing between 6 and 7 am in the room, thinking about when will the pharmacies open up and which one will serve me more likely without a script, so I got the google maps out of my pocket *bam bam*, 8 am.... so pacing again, started undressing while contradicting myself, got my jeans up, sat down and started thinking more, well my stupid brain said that if I got in my jean I may as well go :ROFLMAO: :ROFLMAO: :ROFLMAO: :ROFLMAO: never ever did I find such an excuse, so checked google maps again, wrote pharmacies, made a quick scheme about which one makes the less money( in the sense that it has lots of other pharmacies nearby with better prices) , knows me less and is not a part from a huge chain, at 8 am I was out the door, at 8:15 am I was back in the house with a pack of 30 pills, in my calculus it seems like if I take these for 5 days I'm back to square one so I'm gonna space it out ( although this leads to making exceptions....... )
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Damn man, sorry. I relapsed last year too, I managed to get off again since then, it was a slow slip back over the course of about 8 months
 
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