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Blowmonkey said:
I don't know how superbowl works but I'm being forced to watch a laggy stream of it and it's not helping. Do I watch this for the ads? 😯

@Captain.Heroin National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Call 1-800-273-8255 Ask if they can help you with mcnuggets.

lol @ making prank calls when you're in dire need of suicide prevention. ☹
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OOH MCNUGGETS AND BBQ SAUCE... those are good.
 
@Blowmonkey

He's a retard. A lonely homosexual with no real friends, educated by and on internet. He wanted this life, he wanted all these to happen. The team already warned him, he is at the edge of getting banned if he keeps up like this, as far as I know. He's a living loop.

internet - gettin high - piss, shitting -- eat -- sleep.
 
Hylight said:
feel better 👍🏼 💓 😁 ⭐🌞🌞🌞
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Thank you hun

Sometimes i get down and the depression is fairly rotten

I cant stand hearing bad news right now and its just soul torturing to hear things like that.

I kind of feel like ummm. Going to sleep for a while. And I don't feel very well. I kind of just want to go to sleep and the hypnotic benzos are like my only ticket there. Otherwise it will suck. I hate dreaming. I hate living. I want to just feel removed. Contained and alone. Unconscious. Im the only person who honestly prefers being unconscious.

I have no more weed, maybe just like a few days worth of shatter if I'm very conservative. And benzos. and some hash I'll save for when I get more weed. If. Wow.

Time to come up for air, I guess. My brain is going to hate me I've been on a ... 5 week binge and don't really want to make it 6. Like I have some lines I try to draw in the sand for myself....try.

I think I'm going to take benzos, or maybe. I need to get out for .. air... and I'll probably buy just wgfj and think about coming down eventually.

I really like how shady hates drug users but comes to bl to hate us. Like what are there no drug users left on that side of the pond mother fucker. Ha. SHADESPEAK

I'm so going to fucking hate my life for a short while guys I'm like gonna ache and feel like shit and hate myself yeah it's going to suck
 
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Captain.Heroin said:
Thank you hun

Sometimes i get down and the depression is fairly rotten

I cant stand hearing bad news right now and its just soul torturing to hear things like that.

I kind of feel like ummm. Going to sleep for a while. And I don't feel very well. I kind of just want to go to sleep and the hypnotic benzos are like my only ticket there. Otherwise it will suck. I hate dreaming. I hate living. I want to just feel removed. Contained and alone. Unconscious. Im the only person who honestly prefers being unconscious.
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You get very shallow sleep and obnoxiously vivid dreams too? That's every night for me as well. I wish I had an "off button" pill at my disposal. Hopefully when I get back to IL I can smoke weed and not get in trouble with drug court. I think they made that kinda stuff much more lenient back in my home state.
 
devilsgospel said:
You get very shallow sleep and obnoxiously vivid dreams too? That's every night for me as well. I wish I had an "off button" pill at my disposal. Hopefully when I get back to IL I can smoke weed and not get in trouble with drug court. I think they made that kinda stuff much more lenient back in my home state.
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yes. it is a symptom of the ptsd/alzheimers i am sure. it's just brain shitting all over my life. at least for me.

like i'm a GOOD NORMAL PERSON when I can control my sleep cycle with benzos. I turn into a fucking monster without it and I would claw through this shit. AHHHHHHH. Meth made not sleeping at least bearable/normal. I have nothing guys. THIS IS GONNA HURTTTTTTTTTTTT

pray 4 borking PRAY DOGGOS PRAY FOR BORKING ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh *slams head into hands* this is gonna HURT

I think I better get WGFJ now... i am seriously going to first time in two weeks take a hypnotic because nothing else and I cannot stand how I feel - reality too real. I need to sleep some time away. I AM STUCK IN THIS FRAME OF TIME AND I NEED TO OBSERVE A DIFFERENT QUANTUM POSITION. Or four.

Oh FUCK. Fuck me. I'm having positive trip flashbacks. This is insane. If you trip hard enough you can super compress thoughts/time accordion style. Then again you're also likely to be staring off into space for what seems like "too long" to sober people and they think you've lost it. Maybe I'm really 2x as old as I think I am and I'll come out of this flashback and I'll be like "far out man" without any ability to account for decades of time. WOULDN'T THAT BE AWESOME?
 
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Is it just me or is shady the type of person who doesn't have all their shirts/jackets facing the same way in the closet?
 
CFC said:
tbf i would like to be starved, it brings out the cheekbones and the 6 pack
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Yo this shard diet my friend Tina's got me on is rly working. Some ppl say it's not great for your teeth, but Tina says if you just drink a gallon of milk in the morning you be ok.

Anyways, everything was going great until my new Levi's started falling to my ankles even with my belt as tight as possible. And those fuckers aren't exactly cheap....
 
DopeM said:
Yo this shard diet my friend Tina's got me on is rly working. Some ppl say it's not great for your teeth, but Tina says if you just drink a gallon of milk in the morning you be ok.

Anyways, everything was going great until my new Levi's started falling to my ankles even with my belt as tight as possible. And those fuckers aren't exactly cheap....
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i still have all my teeth and my alcoholic ex was missing quite a bit at the end and i iknow many people his age who still had theirs without being alcoholics.

brushing 2-3x a day goes a long way, and so does eating healthy like at least 1 piece of fruit, protein, some grains if you can get them down (when I was spun I could NEVER ever eat bread, now it's like half my diet is grains)... haha.

all i do is fucking eat now it's so gross. I really hate being an adult and coming back to life. 8( it's like an unsettling sensation.

argh I'm out of weed I'm so going to come down so hard. I think I'm going to eat benzos (I didn't get WGFJ I would have run out of money :() but I can take a solid hypnotic dose and just ZZZZZZZZZZ out for a while.
AW FUCK IT'S ONLY 1900 FUCK aw damn fuck me.

oh how I miss good drugs... I guess I'll eat and try for SOBER SLEEP ew. Here come the nightmares.
 
DopeM said:
Did you see our friend John on your latest adventure? He was a pro sensory deprivation banker
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I didn't get to a top level heavy exp. from what I saved for my last dose, which was probably wise because I love it a bit much and I want a tolerance break.

But ... but I kind of don't I just ran out of money LOL, I know sucks. Right. It's nice though because I Had just enough $ for real life responsibilities because I can barely afford my stupid shitty life.
 
oh fuck here comes the cravings for more drugs ah fuck
SAVE ME ALCOHOL AND BENZOS I NEED A SNOOZEFEST

jesus stopped picking up for my calls so i started calling satan
he said he's too busy to suck my d :( brb cries

but i did get a friendly handjob today you'd think that'd be enough

i'm thirsty

listening to
absurd; pillars of mercy
opeth; deliverance
lykauges; passion for death
wyrd; heathen

and more but ya this is good for now

gonna cry and listen to wyrd i think

it'll be real good like real heavy tears

alcohol and benzos allows me to kill the mania and i need to accept the real life feelings
 
Mütiilation; Born Under the Master's Spell
Nokturnal Mortum; Return of the Vampire Lord

I would put more but am missing surround sound speakers and I'm so fucked on drugs I can hear the lacking difference of what surround sound should sound like , or maybe it's just too loud but my deaf self needs it cranked up

i'm so dead on the inside

hail satan, yadda yadda blah so bored even metal isn't cheering me up. beer tastes good WORK QUICK ALCOHOL QUICKLY NOW
 
I am um... thinking of sex with...someone really hot... and I want to hit them up to just flirt this is sick of me

IT MEANT NOTHING
IT WAS JUST SEX
remember this cpt. play the COOL card like I'm not even sweating it because you got other dudes on the dial

I think / hope he still is into it because he's fucking hot and what we did was fucking hottttttt yikes

I'm losing my shit guys I think I'm becoming a PEOPLE PERSON eww yucky adult stuff
 
oh god OH GOD I was freaking out because i put my beers down in front of my pills and couldn't find them for a minute

oh wow i was like ahving bad panic from that

oh god MAMA DON'T LEAVE ME <3 I love you pillllllsssssssss <3

oh goodness why are you so good to me.... I'm taking ___ milligrams of her hot twin sister basically just one pill ONE LITTLE PILL and i'm having beers with it THIS SHOULD GET GOOD. I want to pass out and not wake up for 12 hours.
 
It feels like I'm turning down the EMOTIONS with alcohol just a little, maybe this pill will help too

I SWEAR IF 1-2 HOURS GO BY AND NOTHING HAPPENS I'M GOING TO BE REAALLLLLLLLLLY FUCKING PISSED
 
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madness00 said:
Yeah set up a credit card too and give us that information as well.
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I can be of the most help if you provide your SSN and mother's maiden name. Seems like a pretty fair trade with what you'll get in return
 
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