caseface99
Bluelight Crew
^ your bluffinf. "Awful physical reactions" to heroin dont exist. unless you're talking about withdrawal.
I've never met a heroin user that has a strong will and never will I, there are so many homeless people that live at the parks near my house that are there because of heroin it's one of those drugs where you'd give up everything for and it turns people into liars conmen and thieves (which I understand since the addiction is so horribly painful it makes sense)Everything we do in this life causes an effect on our body if you are able to use pure heroin than you should be fine if you have a strong will
Also, your writing might be positively affected at first. But, I guarantee that once you run out of dope, once you get sick for the first time, once you realize how much your mind has changed. Everything you were before, everything you sought to figure out or explain by writing, it will all be broken down into heroin being the solution to and cause of all of your problems. You’ll no longer be the same person who wanted to write and everything you write for that point on will be told through the lens of experience of being a heroin addict. You will lose the person who wanted to write to the person who wanted to do heroin.I have always wanted to do Heroin, but the fact that its illegal has stopped me. I have a job that requires a clean criminal record and as such I was just too afraid to go and buy some, just in case I got seen by a police officer. That, and where I live, the drugs are overpriced and crap quality. If anyone knows where I mean: my closest area to find drugs is Camden in North London.
However, recently I've been contemplating it more and more. My reasoning is because I want to reawaken my creativity. I used to write...a LOT. Since I was like 7 years old I had an amazing imagination. However, as I went though the schooling system, my curiosity became aimed at the sciences, and as a result I feel like I've list the creative edge I once had. I try to write now, but nothing comes out. My thoughts are really not the same anymore, and I'm stuck in a world of order and routine.
Do I still want to try heroin? Yes. Will I actually be trying heroin? Unlikely. The post by one member kace (?) yesterday about what happened to her after trying heroin, was horrifying to read. I also read another bluelighter write out in steps how one eventually becomes a junkie, saying thats the inevitable end to trying it. That was powerful.
C'mon man! You know the environment out there! Just snorting a whole bag without trying a 1/10 of it first I'd not only stupid, mean youll6be dead, you won't e hurting.No do not try heroin because in this day and age it's all Fentanyl now. I used to do Heroin alot going back about 6 or 7 years ago, but it was still Heroin, occasionally you would get dope that had Fentanyl in it but it was in a low ratio where now it's no heroin at all just straight Fentanyl and I overdosed, stopped breathing and turned completely blue from sniffing only one bag, and it took the paramedics 3 shots of Narcan before I woke up. Where 7 years ago I could do 3 to 5 bags easily without overdosing. So don't try heroin. I mean you will do what you want but at least take this message into consideration
I did it a few times years ago but it was nothing like when I smoked it yesterday. I was so happy and at peace, no worries in the world. But, I realized that NOTHING that feels that amazing comes without a price. So I threw away the rest of the gram and have a emergency therapist appt. In 4 days. I told him I was thinking about doing it the last time I saw him and I did.
I was also a extremely heavy alcohol and benzo addict for 8 yearsI've smoked black tar once, with a girl, and it was a great experience.
It was nothing like I expected- IDK what I "expected"
So, I am glad I had the experience, might maybe do it again someday
I was also a extremely heavy alcohol and benzo addict for 8 years
Yeah I know, mostly trying to forget things lolPhew man you were definitely living it up![]()
Yeah I know, mostly trying to forget things lol
Yeah I am in the beginning of a relapseMy very best regards. Just 'doing life' is heavy sometimes.
Yeah I am in the beginning of a relapse
Yeah I know, mostly trying to forget things lol