It doesn't fuck you up for a while, an indefinite period it seems. I was so high for years and years and I was still getting high but then suddenly it caught up with me. My tolerance doubled, doubled again, and continued to double. I realized how physically sick I was getting compared to before. I stopped being functional and was unemployable as I was too caught up trying to keep that physical relaxation and mental stimulation going. The perfect functional high, always was. Especially if you are lucky enough to have a connect that has consistent stuff every time. But that is when things got worst for me. Most of it doesn't contain diamorphine in my opinion.
I had a wonderful time for the first few years but my sanity began to crumble and this drug played a huge part in that. One might be just fine now but find themselves financially stressed unable to afford it, or the death of a loved one, or there is a draught, or an IV complication, or you get caught and go to prison or rehab, or like countless others you never know when you will get that hit a little too heavy. It doesn't even need be anything more than your regular dose for it to happen - and eventually, it will.
For me it was great and all until I ran out. And a user will always at some point be faced with the sickness. Once it progresses enough, withdrawal, really quitting not just a break or a detox, amounts to being tortured for a really long time. It really wears a person out after a while but the length of period can vary. You can get unlucky and die the first sniff you ever take. Or you can live for many years before running into problems or realizing that you have very serious ones but that will consistently be the case. You are a fool to think you can get away with sticking needles in your arm of illicit blackmarket chemicals that are never really trustworthy, so many things can and do go wrong with your health. Every ROA is damaging, my nose definitely was injured permanently as that was my preferred way to use. Even my brief stint with IV left me with a few marks, but that is when I quit. As I was fed up.
Also, no matter who your are. You can be the wealthiest person with kilos and nothing to do and still be fucked and miserable. Eventually, your brain can no longer provide the feeling that it once attained from H. It becomes physically impossible due to changes in the structure of the brain related to tolerance. The resistance to the effects becomes enormous when a smidgen used to be more than enough. It is possible to get high again but only really once. Then, unlike someone who has not been addicted, tolerance skyrockets back to where it was. This is essentially permanent. I have experienced it myself. It is a shit drug to have tolerance fuck with you like that.
If you are going to try it, all of this applies to you as risk factors to take into account as something like a quarter of people who try it end up hooked. That's fucked. And it is very hard to stop. This is my 14th week off and I'm still nowhere near right.
And it made me stupid when I was using. Without it, I would literally feel retarded. And the high would never last. There are so many miserable things about this drug but the high I admit is the best feeling apart from DMT to me. This stuff is such an unwise decision to get into no matter who you are. I hope you don't have to find out for yourself. Trying it is just stupid. If you have some sort of reason, are suffering extremely and wish you were dead day after day, I can understand that. But even then there are probably way better options.
