Dandreas345
Bluelighter
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- Nov 2, 2021
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I've been on yet another run for the 28th time in five years.
Due to specific circumstances I am unable to access treatment until January 1st 2022. I will be entering treatment the same day, give or take one day depending on extraneous circumstances.
I had a year and some months clean before this time, which is the longest I've ever maintained in sobriety. I went through the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous with a outstanding sponsor, and did a lot more work on myself than I ever had before during this time. I didn't really go to meetings though.
Keep in mind, I got sober during the throes of Covid-19 when "public health mandates" decided that it was more important to shut ourselves indoors, and deny addicts in person outlets to mental well-being than to attempt to provide the same level of connection that is quite literally the opposite of addiction. I firmly believe the prevalence of Fentanyl more than ever before, coupled with these public health measures led to 2020's extremely high rate of overdose. This does not even include the drug related deaths by vehicular collision, homicide, suicide, etc. .
So I never formed those habits that would pre-empt the shitty relapse circumstances I currently find myself in. That isn't an excuse or a half hearted attempt at displacing any personal responsibility that I have in my actions and decisions and lack of vigor in my program which led to this. It's just something I've had on my chest for a while that really has been crawling up my ass and making a home, so I wanted to let it go here, politics aside.
Hope everyone is doing alright tonight. Here's to making it to 2022!
Due to specific circumstances I am unable to access treatment until January 1st 2022. I will be entering treatment the same day, give or take one day depending on extraneous circumstances.
I had a year and some months clean before this time, which is the longest I've ever maintained in sobriety. I went through the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous with a outstanding sponsor, and did a lot more work on myself than I ever had before during this time. I didn't really go to meetings though.
Keep in mind, I got sober during the throes of Covid-19 when "public health mandates" decided that it was more important to shut ourselves indoors, and deny addicts in person outlets to mental well-being than to attempt to provide the same level of connection that is quite literally the opposite of addiction. I firmly believe the prevalence of Fentanyl more than ever before, coupled with these public health measures led to 2020's extremely high rate of overdose. This does not even include the drug related deaths by vehicular collision, homicide, suicide, etc. .
So I never formed those habits that would pre-empt the shitty relapse circumstances I currently find myself in. That isn't an excuse or a half hearted attempt at displacing any personal responsibility that I have in my actions and decisions and lack of vigor in my program which led to this. It's just something I've had on my chest for a while that really has been crawling up my ass and making a home, so I wanted to let it go here, politics aside.
Hope everyone is doing alright tonight. Here's to making it to 2022!
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